Once the door was slammed shut, I knew Justin was gone, at least for today. I sighed as I say down on the couch. “ Are the kids asleep?” I asked without turning to face James who had joined me on the couch. “ Yes, even though it hard to convince Amelia to go to bed. She was really excited to meet her dad,” James said bitterly. I knew he was hurt by the news. “ Thanks for helping me out,” I looked at him and managed to give him a smile. “ You shouldn't be thanking me, it's my duty,” he replied shyly as he scratched the back of his head. We sat quietly, the air hanging with curiosity. I knew he had lots of questions to ask me and I also wanted to know how he felt but I still didn't feel that I was ready to talk about Justin. “ Do you want tea?” he broke the silence. “ I would have said coffee but...,” “ You shouldn't take coffee before heading to bed, that's a really bad habit you know,” he was quick to correc
I woke up to the sound of my doorbell ringing, who could it be on an early Saturday morning? I wasn't going to bother with that right now, the person would eventually go, I thought but I was far from being right. With the reoccurring ringing of the doorbell, the twins woke up. “ Mummy, aren't you going to get the door?” Aiden asked as he sat up. “ Yes, I will honey. Go back to sleep,” I patted his head before heading out. Who could it be so early in the morning. “ I'm coming!” I yelled as I approached the door. Unlocking the door, I was met with a bag of groceries. I was relieved it wasn't who I suspected it would be. “ Good morning,” James revealed his face from behind the grocery bags, not forgetting to beam a smile at me. Sometimes, I wondered how he was always this cheerful. It was like nothing could take his smile away. “ Why did you come this early?” I was actually still perplexed by his presence and why was he this early? “ Oh, that,” he scratched the
“ Good morning, darling,” I was met with Justin's face as I opened the door. He was grinning at me, this couldn't be good. I immediately shut the door against him but before it could close properly, he stopped it with his arm. “ What do you think you're doing?” he said as he pushed the door open. “ That's not the way to treat your husband, you know?” he smirked.“ Justin, I don't want to argue with you today. Can you please just stop coming over?” I begged, placing my palms together. “ I'm not comfortable with your frequent visitations and it's not just healthy showing up into the kid's life all of a sudden,” I knew trying to reason with him was not going to work but still, there's no harm trying. “ Don't you think that they'll be more upset to know that after their dad appeared to them, he suddenly stops coming. It's more traumatic, what do you think they'll think of me? They would conclude that I really abandoned them,” honestly, his explanation did make sense but I didn't wa
“ Daddy, can I have this too?” Amelia hugged a large pink teddy as she gave Justin the cutest big eyes ever. “ Honey, you don't need this,” I was against it. She already had teddy bears at home, even though they couldn't compare in price and quality with this, they still served the same purpose. “ I do,” she pouted refusing to let go. “ You don't honey,” I stood on my ground.“ How do you know I don't need it?” She wasn't relenting on this issue.“ Because you have many teddies at home, so getting a new one isn't necessary,” I said. “ But this one is big and pink and...and... I just want it!” She stomped her feet. Amelia had never behaved like this before. She had never thrown a tantrum no matter how annoyed she was, could Justin's presence in her life be the reason for her sudden change?“ I don't want to hear another word about getting a teddy, you can pick something else,” I wasn't still planning on letting her have her way. “ It's alright, Isa. Let her get whatever she wants
I stood watching as Isabella left with the kids, not being able to stop them from going. Her words had left me frozen. She didn't love me, not even in the slightest way. No, I couldn't believe that but then again, one thing I was sure of was she didn't want me in the kids’ life nor her life.“ Sir... What should we do? Isabella just left,” my secretary felt the need to remind me that Isabella had gone. “ You and Carlos should drop off the things the twins picked out at their home, call me another driver,” I instructed. “ Yes sir,” she bowed before taking out her phone and calling another of my drivers to come over and have me picked. When I thought today was going to favour me in terms of Isa, looks like I was the only one seeing it that way.Getting to my hotel room, I sprawled on the bed as I drowned myself in my thoughts. Things shouldn't have turned out like this, Isa had changed. Normally, I would have been able to trigger the old flame we had but she was harder to reach tha
A week had passed and Justin was yet to pop up in our lives, this was surprisingly weird but also very relieving. At least, our week has been less dramatic and stressful. The only thing weird was the way James was behaving with me, it nearly seemed like he was having trust issues with me. Maybe I need to talk to him about it. “ Hey,” I drew closer to him on the park bench. We had gone out for an evening stroll to embrace the cool evening breeze.“ Hmm,” he hummed as I came closer to him. This wasn't the reaction I was expecting him to make, something was definitely wrong. “ Is there something bothering you? You can always talk to me if that's the case,” I volunteered. He had been behaving rather restless and unsettled for a while now.“ Yes, I'm surprised you noticed,” he remarked nervously. Why did he look like he was going to break out in serious sweat soon? “ Well, you haven't exactly been doing a good job at hiding your feelings,” I said bluntly. “ True...,” he mu
I stood in the middle of the park in my light dress. I was exhausted. Not from any physical work, not from having fought a battle, not from work, not even from the stress of having to train two twin playful kids, but from having to think every moment of my life. Think of James, think of Justin, and think of how to shuffle my entire life around all these occurrences. In my deep subconscious mind, I wanted to just exist, to float out of reality, into a world only I and I alone could comprehend and understand. To be fair, she didn’t think I wanted to understand it at all. I didn’t need to. As far as it got me away from this toxic life I was living. But running away was out of the option. I had responsibilities and I was not ready to drop them. The reality was different from whatever fantasy she had been imagining in her head and from whatever illusion I so desperately needed to live in.“Mummy, can we play on the swing? " said Aiden, and I was pulled away from my thoughts. "Yes baby, of
CHAPTER 17 ( Chapter 15)“Yes! You heard me, Justin. James is a better father than you will ever be. He doesn't leave when things get rough, he doesn't walk away from me when I need him the most.”My voice started to break. I tried too hard to lock my feelings and keep them hidden for so long. I lived with the pain without uttering a word to anyone and Justin just made me think of it all again.I tried to stop myself from crying. I wanted to yell, grab his collar, and hit his face vtill I felt better. Maybe that way, we would share the same pain."Don't ever compare your lover to me. Those kids Amelia and Aiden belong to me." He asserted with possessiveness that irked me to the core. They belong to him? Other than donating a sperm for them, what else did he do over the years that show they are his?“Where were you? Where were you when I was called from their school to pick them up because they were both sick? Where were you when they would both fall sick and I was left to cater for th