NOLAN’S EFFECT

ALANNA

My father is a manipulative scumbag.

I know I am not supposed to say that about the man who gave me life but, my dad is controlling dick and has no moral scruples.

“You caused her to get to this point,” he had said when he came to my house yesterday to break the news about my dying mum.

“How did I cause her to get to this point?” I had asked him In disarray, how the fuck did I cause my mum to have cancer.

“First of all Alanna, your mum lost two kids in her lifetime, first Brian and later you when you left,”

My eyes widened in disbelief, yes, she lost Brian, I have carried that guilt all my life, carried the guilt of taking away her beloved child from her.

But my mum didn't lose me, as a matter of fact, I am not even sure she liked me.

“You owe it to her at least this once to come through for her, you have never been there for her in the past,” he had finally said, right before I wrote him a check. I know I shouldn't let myself be manipulated by them but there was this tw