49. Next in line

A few days pass and with each day, I think I can handle the nausea better. The supplements and medicines are really helping but I'm also sure that part of it it's due to the lack of anxiety and anger that I experience everytime he was near. And he was near a lot. There were no business calls. There were no meetings. He was jus I here, all the time. And I was growing fond of seeing him.

To my surprise he didn't ask for anything off of me. He didn't ask for sex. He didn't ask to get psychical... He was just here, always alert and ready to help me if I needed something. It was a bit incapacitating since it felt as if he didn't trust me with anything, but it was also sweet because I could see him take responsability and that made me think he was going to be a good father.

I still had not made my mind about keeping the child or not, but I knew it was going to settle soon. I just had a feeling of what my decision would be, but I was a little afraid to speak it out just now, because somehow,