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T w e n t y - e i g h t
I'm honestly trying here, making my most exemplary attempt to control my mind, wondering towards the woman who now lives close by
I can't understand one word from another. I can't comprehend the summary report I have opened in front of me, and no matter how many times I struggle to read the pie chart, it is just colored with numbers. I guess that the amount in blue means that all is running as steady as it would like. I will be in trouble next week at the quarterly meeting when it is time for me to add something relevant. Someone is going to have to explain this to me. I give up.
On my feet once again, I can't control de urge anymore. Every 10 to 15 minutes, I have been checking on her, the last time she had finally fallen asleep, face stained with tears. She's just a little lump on my bed. Elevated by the pillows surrounding her, I can finally see how she looks like while she sleeps. There is no barrier anymore, nothing that stops me from getting closer. Back then,
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I've secretly stolen something of his while he was in the room, oblivious to my doing. He was distracted, looking down at his phone while I took his worn shirt and pushed it all the way to the bottom of my small duffel bag. I couldn't quite believe my brazenness and quick actions, but the memento was already in my possession, and it scared me that he found out about it. The minute I sniffed it, my reaction was quicker than I thought. I just stole a dirty shirt, well not dirty it just smelled like him, a wood-like minty scent. All I can think of right now is my bag with a shirt that doesn't belong to me. I still had a chance to put it back. "Weren't you hungry?" I feel as if someone has let go of an elastic band on my brain. The return to reality is quite painful and unsettling. He is, after all, sitting in front of me, gazing at me with a frown. "I yes, sorry." "Go on then, eat, they brought that thing ages ago." He looks down at the untouched plate i
Baby T h i r t y
I'm in bed, his bed, the same bed that I had previously slept on before, but instead of a comfy mattress, all I felt was a rocky surface on my backside. I couldn't lay back and relax; I mean, he could come out any second and find me there, on the bed. His bed. After those words, he implied that I was his property and then forced me to head to the bathroom to prepare for bed. It all felt so weird. I had done it, and of course, I had tried not to, but he was a bully, a big and scary bully. I had a few more minutes until he was done since the water was still running, and then I started imagining him under the warm water; his chest wet, water rolling down his back and down in between his....fingers! JESUS. I couldn't even fantasize about him without my heart getting all wild and crazy. I needed something to keep myself busy, like a game or something. Looking around the room, I remembered I still had my phone. I could text someone, anyone. Lin was my first option as always, and I
Baby T h i r t y - o n e
"He really said that?" "Every single word. I'm telling you he's not playing around this time I had to bite my tongue to stop from screaming at the top of my lungs 'fuck me, fuck me hard'." "Go Westbrook!" "Oh please, you hate his guts." "I hate Beck's. Hold on." There's a bang and a crash; I place the phone back in my lap and tap the speaker option. Jameson is cooking, which means it is all messy but good. He is fantastic with meats but a disaster around the kitchen. They're arguing for a few moments. I considered hanging up, but then I remembered there it's not my minutes. She's the one who called me, so it's on her. I stare at my muted TV and think about the last few days. Is all vivid, the words, the smell, and his touch. I can't help but moan. "So, you have the shirt on?" "Nope," I exhale dramatically. "I'm saving it for later, I'm masturbating furiously tonight." "Fuck, that's hot and too much info by the way." I can hear
Baby T h i rt y - t w o
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Baby T h i r t y - t h r e e
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Baby T h i r t y - f o u r
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Baby T h i r t y - f i v e
Buzzing wakens me. Looking around, I find the source of the annoying sound. Opening one eye looking around for whatever it is that making it. I winced in pain, a pounding headache, and the soreness in my eyes when the sunlight shone right at my face. My phone is rattling on its charging nook; I don't think twice and reject the call. My head is pounding, my throat is dry, and my body feels like it weighs a ton. Why do I drink When I'm sure that I suck at being drunk. Trying to piece last night's events is a bit hard. The memories turn blurry on the dance floor. I know I danced and there was a lot of alcohol and dancing. How did I get here? God. Liam. He called and sounded angry. Turning around, I find myself face to face with the man, the little light coming into the room is enough to see him. His fa
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"I will, and so many other things." Even if he hadn't meant it to sound dirty, it had come out like that. My body responded by shivering, and he noticed it. His eyes darkened. "But right now, I need to brush my teeth. Morning breath is one thing I can live without." I watched him move, slow assertive movements as he slid off the bed and moved towards the door. His muscles tightening as his whole body move; if I was some art collector, his back was something I would want to have a photograph of, a huge one hung right in front of my bed so it would be the first and last thing I saw at the start and end of my day. I must have fallen asleep once again. I was alone now, completely covered with my sheet to my chin, more like wrapped like a burrito since the only thing exposed to the world was my head. I had no idea what time of the day it was, just that it was the middle of the day and there was supposed to be someone else in the apartment. His suitcase was in the same cor
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