Chapter Three

Broken girls blossom into warriors.

FIONA'S POINT OF VIEW

I realized I've been fighting the wrong demon, the real demon, stood in front of me. I watched as he unconsciously dropped his cigarette, uttering my name, or better still, the name he calls me

"Vanilla."

I looked at him, taking him in, he's dressed in black, his eyes getting lost in the night, he reeks of alcohol and cigarette and . . .sex. My heart breaks at the thought of him being with another person.

I scrunch my nose, hating the scent of cigarettes, he told me he quit, he told me he doesn't drink again, looks like he lied, he opened his mouth about to say something but was cut off by a pink haired girl as she jumped on him

"Caddy baby, the room is ready, let's go another round" She said kissing him, passing the cigarette in her mouth to his mouth.

Disgusting.

She finally acknowledged our presence, and glares "Who are these bitches, Caddy"

With his dark eyes still on me, he said "No one. They are no one. Let's go Rita" he said turning, walking back to the Club.

Just like that, he killed any hope I had for him, for us.

"It's Rachel, Caddy baby. You're so funny" Rita or Rachel said running to him. I watched as they left to go another round.

"What was that?" Caleb asked looking at me weirdly.

Shaking my head I said "Nothing. It was nothing. Let's go" I turned to Caroline, and we walk away.

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I've been trying and failing to forget Caden, trying to keep my mind off him, but well, I can't. I stared round campus. I did come her for Caden, but he was not the only reason I'm here, I wanted to get out of town, out of Smallville, and with everything that happened, everything I caused, I couldn't stay there, the guilt and pain was too much, everyone left.

Everyone left, and I'm still trying to process everything that happened, the wayXav and Damian left, the huge things we found out, how heartbroken Daniele was, the realization of a sister for her. I swear I can feel Violet's pain, she has always been the fairest of us all, and it breaks my heart that Damian hurt her that way.

I met Danielle and Violet in Smallville, it took some things I will rather not talk about, The girl I was is a girl I never want to be, a girl I feel ashamed of, a girl I'm sad for, but I'm trying to be better, and dabbling with someone like Caden is not going to make me a better person. He is chaos personified, and I should run, but I can't help but want to heal him, knowing fully well I need to be healed too.

"Hi." I heard, and I saw a man looking at me.

"Hi.' I smile

"I'm Kai." He said and before you could say jack robinson, We were talking and acting like old friends, and when he invited me to his place, I obliged, there's something I trusted which was my gut feelings, it never failed me.

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I laughed as he stirred the pasta, telling me stories of his time in NYU. Kai seems like a cool person.

"You should meet my roommate, you guys would click." I said to him, and he nodded.

"My roommate will be back soon, we are actually cousins, but he would never see me like family, that boy." He smiled affectionately, oblivious cared about this cousin of his.

Then time seemed to stop when he walked in, I ddn't know how, despite NYU's width I always run into Caden, I tried to remember how to breathe at his sight, but he always took my breathe away.

"Ehm, Hi?" I said, when he took care of the pasta Kai burnt.

"Hey." He says, and I don't fail to notice that this is the first time we are talking.

"I'll take care of the dishes. You can go" I whispered, avoiding his gaze.

I looked at him intensely, he looked so dangerous and bad, but I was captivated. He places his hand on my cheek, rubbing it sensually as he lifts my jaw, and I stare into his dark onyx eyes.

"Caden." I whispered, it seemed whispering was all I could do.

"Babe" He smiled at me, then dropped is hand as though burned.

"Stay the fuck away from me" He snapped, and my eyes widened, staring at him in shock, as he stumbled out of the kitchen.

I put off the cooker as I walked to the sitting room, I met Kai skyping someone, a guy, probably his boyfriend. I located my backpack wanting to get out of here as fast as possible. For a moment, I was happy, Caden made me smile genuinely and he did that with just a touch, if he had done more, I would have broken down in his hands. Caden made me smile for a moment before shutting me off and telling me to stay away from him. One moment he was staring at me like I was his angel, then the next he was staring at me like I awoke his demons, maybe I did.

"Hey Fiona, you done?" Kai said, breaking me out of my depressing thoughts.

"Yeah, I am" I said stiffly

"Oka -- Wait a minute, Where's Manchester?" Kai asked shutting off his Laptop.

"He left" I said.

"What, Why? He was okay a few minutes ago, he even wanted to do the dishes. He needs to stop doing this." Kai exclaimed getting off his chair angrily, ruffling his hair, reminding me of Xavier at that moment.

"Will he be okay?" I whispered sadly.

Kai looked up with the same expression on his face "He will. He has to be. He would be at those places he goes to, abusing drugs, smoking weed."

I looked up, alarmed by his words "He uses drugs?."

"Of course, he does. Fiona, Cade is my brother but you have to be careful, he's been through a lot and I won't let you add to his demons. He was perfectly fine before I left and now he's gone, using drugs. Please, I beg of you, if your relationship with Cade would break him, kindly stay away from him, you are my friend but Cade is my brother, my family and family comes first" Kai said.

I stared at him, shocked "Wow, I can't believe this. We all have our demons and if you feel I'm a trigger for Caden, I'll leave and never return. I know when I'm no longer wanted so I'll leave. You talk about staying away from Caden and adding to his demons. What of me? How about me?, but who am I to fool, we just met, why would you care for the pathetic lonely girl. I'll leave, don't worry" I said to him sternly with my hand on my hip.

I made my way to the door but  stopped when he said "Fiona, stop, I didn't mean it that way. I'm sorry. It's just that you look like a girl who has been through stuff too. It would benefit you and Cade if you stay away from each other, to protect each other. I'm sorry if I offended you."

I looked at him, giving him the fakest smile ever as I said "I can take care of myself" with that I opened the door, walking out.