Luka tasted even better than I remember. Maybe it's because I missed him and this so much. Kissing him until it's so difficult to breathe then barely coming up for air before kissing him again. His lips were hard and demanding at first but it slowed down later on to a deeper one, with him seeking as much entry as I could give him. His hands went to cup my bottom, squeezing it hard as he held onto me and my hand was wound around his neck. He suddenly breaks the kiss and my body slides down his then he moves away from me creating distance and I sighed. I came in here to quench the fire inside of me, being apart wasn't solving that right now. I dart out my tongue to wet out my lips a little and also to relieve the taste of his lips that was there few seconds ago. "We need to get this out of our systems. This way we put a good ending to things between us," the sensual fog his kiss put me in was cleared off with what he was proposing. I don't want to get things out of my system, I w
BELLAIt's been one week of acting like we didn't have sex. Not just once but thrice. I slipped out of his bed the next morning of that day and maybe he did get me out of his system because he had been avoiding me to the maximum. Coming back home late when I was asleep and leaving earlier or not out for breakfast when I'm going to school in the morning. He always texts me to ask if I'm feeling okay or sick everyday. In his own weird way he was still checking up on me. Today is another Sunday and here I am standing outside Luka's door like a creep because I'm not sure how he will react to me reminding him of the promise he made to go with me to a local basketball court to record some of my drills.It was also super early, I wanted us to go when the lighting was good and I wasn't too tired to get things done. I took a long drag of hair and smoothed my hair before knocking on his door. I knocked twice before trying the handle. He was sitting up with the sheets bunched around his waist
BELLA"I'll edit the videos and send them to you." Luka said, taking his eyes out of the road for less than a second. I saw the three legged animal hopping in front of the car and I yelled, "Luka, Watch out? " He pressed the brakes so hard the car jerked forward and we lurched forward with it. I raised my head quickly to see the dog who was limping trying hard to scurry away and my heart stung in recognition. It was the same dog that kept me company that night. Before I had time to process my thoughts, I was yanking off my seatbelt and hurting off the car, even though he didn't park properly and was in the middle of the road. He was so shocked that I could hear him calling out for me as I raced after the hurt dog. I ran after the Labrador Retriever which had brown and white fur and the cutest, soulful eyes till I got to an alley and it turned and barked at me. "Hey doggy it's me. Your lonely buddy from that night." I tried to explain our relationship and it still stood afar w
LUKAAre you okay? They are projecting their own issues and miserable lives on you, don't let them. Plus Erica is my friend and nothing more. I erased the whole message I had typed down to Bella. I shouldn't have to explain that picture. It's not my fault anyone chose to misconstrue it plus we are not in a relationship and no way she is jealous about that. Or maybe she didn't even see the whole thing anyway which is even better. Bella is not one that is glued to her phone all times and follow conversations anyway. I return the phone to my pocket and try to follow the conversation around me but barely. Should I have debunked the rumors? I am not answerable to them anyway which is why I didn't. I guess this isn't just about me, those rumors were mostly about her than me. I didn't even read through but the stuff they were saying was just downright mean. Someone had said all she got for seducing me was an unwanted pregnancy and I dumped her when I found out what a tramp she was. "S
I've always hated quick endings. It's one of the reasons why I'm obsessed with goodbye's and closure. I believe that you should pull out of situations slowly giving yourself time to adjust. Pulling out too quickly will leave you bereft with absolutely nothing to fall back on. Like when my father left us. He had been leaving home and rarely coming back more and more. It took me a while to understand that maybe he was finally preparing himself to leave. But one thing is for sure, with every long month's end trip he took we slowly got used to his absence. Every single time till that very day. I could see the determination in his eyes when he told me he was going on a business trip. His suitcase was larger than all the ones he had previously taken and there was a lingering look of sadness as he smoothed Annie Marie's hair and kissed her forehead. So, when my mum didn't get up to follow him because they had fought last night about his prolonged trips and how he hasn't been there for u
LUKAMy thighs were burning from exhaustion, my feet were too tired to carry me at this point and my heart was beating erratically, but I kept running. The cold wind whipped around in my ear and all I could see in front of me was more space to run. When my lungs finally felt like it could burst, I stopped and grabbed the railing beside the walkway I was running on and gasped for breath. I tapped my Apple watch to see how far I've come and it was a whole lot. I'm very far from home. So what now, Luka? Did running so hard this morning do anything to quell the unease in your gut or the fear that gripped your chest every time you thought about her? Did it in anyway help you feel better from feeling like an ass through out the night for not consoling her about the stupid pregnancy rumors or even attempt to clear your head? Cause you know you're the one who is messed up. So messed up you can't just accept this and move on with someone you really want to be with.Leaving the house way
LUKAThe party was still in full swing when I got back inside. It was the only other place I had to go since she had asked me not come. I passed by a group of wild students playing beer pong and grabbed a bottle of beer on the way before returning back to where I was sitting. They were sitting in a circular fashion with the chairs rearranged and a bottle on the table in the center. My seat beside Erica had been occupied by someone else and the only spare place to sit was opposite her and I took it. It would save me the stress of answering her question about where I've been anyway. They were playing spin the bottle game but I tipped my head against the head rest and closed my eyes barely interested. The only indication that I'm not asleep was the bottle of beer that I was drinking from. There was a storm going on inside of me. The kind that used to drive me to get into fights, but today I'm finding out that I didn't have the strength. I deserved to let it tear me up from the insid
They say time flies when you're having fun but the opposite of it should be that it slows when you're waiting. Because there is no way in hell time flies when you're doing nothing. I mean, just look at me. I'm a living example that all time does when you wait is crawl, giving anxiety more room to claw at your nerves and regret every choice you've made. At first I had hoped that he was going to come, so I put on the TV and waited. Then fashionable late became explanaible late and turned in to just late, when I could no longer come up with excuses to give on his behalf. With every tick of the clock, it dawned on me that I had made a big mistake coming down here to live when everything was not solved.I had an idea it was a mistake so far living here but now it seems like a giant mess. Because this is my last hope at a fighting chance. When my stomach started rumbling because I haven't had anything all day I decided to start with the fruits, before working up my way to the cake. I