Kabanata 35

After Ma'am Navi shared her words to me, I suddenly feel unfair to my own mother. I heavily breathed as the sudden guilt attacked me. Naroon siya sa probinsiya, tumutulong kina Tiya Marga sa paghahanda ng lilipatan namin samantalang ako, heto at si Russel ang pinoproblema. I feel so bad that thinking I'm betraying her by not telling my problems makes me cry even harder. Biglang nanabik ako sa magiging opinyon at payo niya, iniisip kung pareho ang sasabihin nila ni Ma'am Navi. And speaking of Ma'am Navi, I'm hurt and motivated at the same time. Sa lahat ng taong kakausap sa akin nang ganoon, siya pa talaga. It's a relief that she understands me and even advises me to fix myself for her son, too, but the idea of leaving Russel instantly wrecks my heart.

After all those moments we have shared, I don't think I can afford to lose him now. Lalo pa ngayon na mas iniipit na siya ng Lolo niya magmula nang malaman ang ugnayan namin.

Hindi ko alam kung nabalitaan ba ni Russel ang