My parents had tried to call me and talk to me before I left but I wasn't in the mood to talk to them. Even my sister had stopped by but I had refused to talk to her about anything that had happened. Everything I owned was packed. I had decided instead of getting my furniture taken to my parents' storage unit that I would just rent my own. Thankfully I was able to set it up for automatic payments so I wouldn't forget.
I still hadn't talked to Seth. He had been quiet on social media but Christia had been blowing up both Twitter and Instagram. Seth was in almost every one of her pictures but to his credit, he didn't look very happy about it. In fact, in one he looked plain bored. It was weird not talking to him. I had gotten used to talking to him every night and it felt like something was missing now that we weren't speaking.
Thursday night I had not been able to sleep so Brooke and I sat on the couch all night laughing and crying. We had never been away from each other
Once in my room, I yanked off my dress replacing it with a pair of pajama pants and a tank top before crawling into my bed. I shouldn't be tired after my nap but I was exhausted both mentally and physically. Closing my eyes I wish I knew what Seth was doing, would he leave? Would he come in here and try and talk? It seemed neither was going to happen. If he had left I hadn't heard the door and he hadn't tried to come in the room.I didn't really want to fight with Seth. I mean did it even matter if he was lying or not? It's not like I didn't know what the hell I was doing. I was being a damn idiot. Sighing I rolled over on my back putting an arm over my face. Seth would always be just beyond my reach. I guess that's why they called celebrities stars, always visible but never obtainable.Rolling to my side I was more than a little annoyed that Seth hadn't come in the room yet. I had probably blown his high and now he was having to smoke again. Closing my eyes I just wan
The next morning Seth and I just chilled, I didn't have the energy to argue with him anymore and I wasn't even sure if I wanted to. I don't really know how I felt when he left. There was still too much unknown. He had left around 4 and not long after rumors of his sex tape hit the internet. For now, nothing had been released. Seth had called and told me that his team had threatened to sue but it was only a matter of time before it was out, there was really no way to stop it.Brooke had called me flipping out. I had to explain to her that he had already told me about it, that yes there actually was a video, and no I wasn't upset. I mean I didn't want to see the damn thing, but I wasn't going to be mad over something he did before he met me. However yes, it made me question things with him even more. He wasn't who I had thought he was, or maybe he wasn't who I wanted him to be. Brooke was in disbelief and had given me every reason in the book as to why I should be mad at him. I
Sleep didn't come easy to me that night. I woke up the next morning feeling as if I had been hit by a train. Walking into my bathroom I grimaced at my reflection, it was clear I had cried myself to sleep. Jumping in the shower I hoped to wash yesterday away but no matter how hard I scrubbed I still felt horrible.As I stepped out I grabbed my towels wrapping one around my hair and the other around my body. Taking a deep breath I wiped at the steam that had built up on the mirror. The girl standing in front of me might as well have been a stranger, her eyes looked back at me with a dead expression on them. Grabbing my robe I removed my towel sliding into it before heading to the kitchen to start my coffee.It was earlier than I had wanted to get up but once my eyes opened I knew I had things to do. I had no idea if the office would be open today but I needed to find out what I needed to do to put in my 30 day notice. Brooke and I both had looked at apartments last night o
Things slowly began getting easier, the days turned into weeks, and the weeks were making way to a month. In a couple of days I would be flying home for graduation and bringing Brooke back with me for good. I was so ready to not be alone anymore. I barely slept anymore, instead I spent most nights at the gym or reading, anything to keep my mind off of Seth.The more I tried to avoid all things Seth the more they seemed to pop up in my life. He was in my iTunes and I couldn't force myself to delete him, and now he was on some stupid tv commercial where the idiot was grinning like a God Damned fool and every time I saw it I would go weak in the knees.I couldn't believe that it had been an entire month since I had talked to Seth. He hadn't bothered to text or call and neither had I. I felt like it should be him to reach back out and I honestly didn't know how I would react if he did. I guess I still just wanted to know that he cared somewhat about me, that I wasn't somethi
That night I slept with Brooke in her room, my bed had long ago been placed in storage. It figured that the first night that I had somebody to stay up with me that I would pass out on her. Waking up before her I decided to make us breakfast. It felt like old times being in the kitchen, it actually felt like the first week we moved in. We had barely had any furniture or dishes, or hell anything.Making our plates I grabbed them and walked back to Brooke's room. "Rise and shine sleepy head. I made us both French toast." Brooke groaned rolling over and pulling the cover over her head." I shook my head at her,
My stomach was in knots as we waited for our table. Erin's nonstop chatter was giving me a headache. I had no clue what she was even talking about, I would just nod at her every few minutes. Brooke was unusually quiet and I knew she wanted to talk but there were just way too many people around.When our buzzer started going crazy I stood up, "thank God."Erin glanced over at me, "it's only been 30 minutes."I looked over at Brooke and she shook her head at me as we were led to a huge table in the back. Our waitress went ahead and took our drink and salad order leaving us with menus. Even though I already knew what I wanted I had to study the menu just in case there was something better.Soon I had my sweet tea and salad in front of me, our food had been ordered, and our parents were talking to us about being careful in New York.I shook my head, my mother was still being totally negative while Brooke's parents were very supportive
We walked for a minute before Brooke initiated the conversation, "well you didn't kill him."I made a face at her, "yet. I mean you should have heard his apology if that is even what that was. I guess I'm supposed to forgive him becausethat's how he is used to living his life. Fucking idiot." 
I awoke to Seth moving in his sleep, looking around I saw that it was still dark outside. As I went to sit up Seth's arm held me tighter and he mumbled something under his breath. I had no idea what he said besides my name. Hell, I can't even lie. I was glad it was my name he mumbled instead of someone else's.Finally managing to wiggle out of his grasp I stood up seeing Brooke's wallet was on the counter, walking over to it I opened it up and dug our room key out. Walking out the door I made my way to our room feeling almost as if I was sneaking away. The truth was I just needed away from Seth, I needed space, I needed air.Throwing the room key down on the coffee table as I walked in I went to my room and collapsed down on the bed. My body was sore from sleeping the way I had and the bed felt like a cloud. Closing my eyes I felt my body drifting back to sleep but before I was fully asleep I heard a click of the door but didn't think anything about it until I felt my be