Six years ago,
It’s official, I’m in love. Is it a little cliché, yes but that’s the only way to describe the way I feel about him. He’s so dreamy and I get to call him mine. I was resigned to the fact that I would never fall in love and I’m glad to have been wrong. The past six months have brought me so much joy and satisfaction and Carter has been at the helm of it, he’s made me deliriously happy and has exceeded all that I thought that I knew about love. I can finally say that I am living the w*****d life. My alarm rings and I flinch in surprise, I can’t believe that I am daydreaming again but truthfully since I started dating Carter, this has been my life. I check the time and it’s 6:40, barely 30 minutes before my best friend gets here and that girl is overtly punctual so she’s going to be here on time. I run into the bathroom, brush my teeth and take the fastest shower known to man and I’m out in record time. I pull on my favorite pair of jeans and a nice jumper, while I’m brushing my hair I hear the loud horn of my best friend’s car and I hurry downstairs to grab an apple. I find my aunt by the fridge and I kiss her goodbye as I grab an apple and my lunch and head out to meet Janet, I get into her car and she immediately speeds off, I swear you’d think Janet has an important thing that she’s rushing to meet but she’s just a weird driver. We pull into our favorite coffee shop and order for coffee, I always get a caramel macchiato, an iced Americano for Carter and Janet always gets hot chocolate. She only drinks coffee during exams, I don’t know what weird tradition that is but she swears by it and I’ll never judge my best friend. She does not talk until she gets her drink and takes a huge sip, then she sighs, takes a deep breath and then smiles so big while telling the barista that he’d be invited to her wedding. Then she turns and hugs me tight and immediately starts chattering away about how much she’s going to miss the coffee in our hometown when she goes to college. I don’t think she remembers that we have two years before we are off to college. But I don’t remind her as I’m a little worried because Carter will be leaving for college by next year and I don’t know how to feel about that, primarily because he doesn’t seem worried about it and he’s told me severally that he’s happy with me but he’s not an insecure girl like me and I’m not sure he’d want to stick with me when he could choose from the various girls outside. We get to school and I get out of the car in search of Carter, he likes his ice present in his coffee and I love seeing him smile so I put in effort to make that happen. I get to the hallways and everybody is looking at me weird, I would be bothered but this has been the norm since I started dating Carter. When I get to class, I put my bag down but the stares are a little more concerning. Some are looking at me with pity and others are murmuring. At this point I am already a little worried, I walk out of class and run into Janet, and when she asks me if there’s any problem, I’m convinced that something is wrong. I practically skip to the football locker room to avoid the stares and also see my boyfriend. When I get to the locker room there is a crowd forming right outside, the last time there was a gathering like this, Stanley (a boy in our set) was forced to come out as gay, he was utterly humiliated to find out that the person he was in love with was using him to pass time as he was fully in a relationship. Stanley was forced to drop out of school and the last I heard of him was that he relocated to another city. Since then school relationships scared me but that was before Carter. Walking closer, the crowd started to part ways and the whispers get worse, I am having a weird feeling and as I get to the front of the locker room the reason for the strange feeling is clear. I’m on the monitor, I see pictures, so many pictures, I’m half naked in these pictures. I took some of them, they’re all pictures of me, but these pictures are private. I took these pictures for Carter. Why are they here? How did they get here? Where is Carter? Has he seen this? What do I do? I can’t breathe properly, My head is spinning, how is this happening to me? I can’t believe this, this shouldn’t be happening. I look around frantically for Carter and I spot him by the dispenser. I try to run to him but the look on his face stops me, that’s not Carter, he never looks at me like that. This person is looking at me like I’m nothing, like I’m scum, it’s almost like he hates me, that would be wrong though because Carter loves me. I mean he tells me every day. I’m sure he’s not looking at me like that, I continue walking towards him and the next thing I see is something that I will never forget. I see Camila walking towards him, she’s his ex-girlfriend and the resident mean girl. He hates her, he has said it a thousand times so why is he opening his arms to her? Why is he kissing her? I don’t understand anything that’s going on right now. I walk towards him and he stops me with a raised palm, “Carter, baby what’s happening”? “Why are these pictures here”? “Please do something about it, did you get hacked”? His face remains stoic until a small smirk starts right around his mouth and I watch as it slowly turns into a malicious grin. He laughs darkly and raises one brow up “How does it feel”? “Do you like my surprise”? “You should like it, I took a lot of time to prepare it”. “Look at you, this is who you truly are under all that controlled poise and armor”. “A pathetic little girl who is so desperate for attention that you will become a puppet for anybody who gives you a bit of attention". “Did you actually think that I loved you?" “That I Carter Cole would be satisfied with a frumpy little thing like you”? “You’re supposed to be smart, it’s a pity that you are just another troubled youth”. “You were a fun time and now it’s time to get serious”. He sneered at me while he shot the final nail into the coffin “your virginity was a nice bonus though, something worthwhile to bring excitement to your otherwise boring life”. Then he turned around to walk away and in hindsight I wasn’t doing good which is probably why I did the dumbest thing I have ever tried, I threw his ice coffee at his back and the cup hit him square in the back and it’s contents poured all over his uniform. I didn’t even realize what I had done until the various gasps reached my crazy state of mind. He turned around and laughed and his reply was so scathing, he looked straight at me and said “What would I expect from someone with a crazy mother”? “Your mum is in a mental home, there’s still space there”. “Maybe you can even have a family reunion and you can cross it out of your little diary”. “I never want to see you again”. Then he angrily took off his shirt, threw it at me and walked out. I couldn’t breathe anymore, I’d forgotten how to. I started hyperventilating, I couldn’t see straight, things started becoming blurry and I felt myself slipping out of consciousness. I could just about make out a voice calling me before my head touched the ground, my only thoughts were that dying didn’t sound so bad and that I am truly better off dead. I remember begging God to take my life because I was such a disappointment to him. My last thought was that if I miraculously survived this ordeal, I would never fall in love again. The screams were getting louder and then I slipped into darkness.Present day Valerie p.o.v Today is going to be a good day, I can feel it. The weather is perfect, the sun is not too heavy and I’m signing the biggest deal of my entire career today. It’s practically a done deal and the investing company just needs to sign on the dotted line and I will have enough funding to officially break into the fashion industry. It’s been hard trying to do this especially as a single mother but my son has been the biggest inspiration, his birth gave me a purpose to live for and since then it’s been two of us. About three years ago, I graduated fashion school and have gone on to successfully create a good brand. My work gained popularity almost immediately, and since then it has been a really good time and I have sold my work anonymously with my identity being a mystery. Truly anonymity has helped to build my brand especially as I dabble in eccentric pieces. But now is the time for me to step into the limelight. It helps that I am nominated for a pr
Carter’s p.o.v 2 weeks ago The sun is far from rising up when I wake up, I look at my bedside clock and the time reads 4:30. Another wasted effort at sleeping seeing as I only went to bed two hours ago, trying to get more sleep would only disappoint me so I stand up and go into my office. I finish off some work and check my mails, I am about to go to the gym when my phone rings. I look at the caller id and I see that Daniel is calling, he’s supposed to be in Paris for his honeymoon so what’s so important that he’s calling. I pick up the phone, “What’s happening Cole, I thought you’d be so far up your wife’s ass that you wouldn’t be reachable for the month”. “Ha ha very funny, I’m calling with a very important issue.” My hackles rise up the more he’s silent………. “Out with it Cole some of us have work to do”. He sighs and replies “I have found her”, then it’s my turn to remain silent and after a few seconds he says “can you hear me”? And I almost nod before I remember t
Present day Carter’s p.o.v The day I’ve been waiting for has finally come. I get to see Valerie today. I have planned everything and waited patiently till this day. I’m nothing if not efficient, which is exactly why I threw in the idea of us handling the funding of the collaboration. Nobody refuses free money not even the wealthy ones. I go through my morning routine as usual and I go to the kitchen to get my breakfast. On my way down, I stop by the office to get my phone and as soon as I open it, so many messages flock in, so much so that one would think that I was a child on his first day of school. This is why I don’t like family members being involved in my affairs, all they do is nag and try to make your business their own. Being the head of this family does get tiring. Since I found Valerie, I’ve had to field calls from everybody including my own parents, somehow they found out about her and since then it has been an onslaught of various things. The most annoyin
Valerie p.o.v My life is ruined. “How is this real life?” “What's happening right now?” “I pinch myself to confirm that I'm not dreaming and the sharp pain that registers in my brain confirms that I am officially fucked.” “How did this day turn out to be the worst day of my life?” “Who did I offend that would wish me such luck?” “I am sure that I look a mess with how much I'm blinking but that's all that's stopping me from crying or laughing hysterically.” “Why does my case always go from best to worst in the most dramatic way?” “I'm sure God must hate me, because if he didn't why would I be looking at the one problem that I have no answer to?” “What is Carter doing here?” I see Arabella's lips move but she might as well be speaking a language I don't understand because I can't take my eyes away from him. “How is he still so handsome?” “How dare he look so good?” “I try to feel for my chair but I can't reach it, only then do I realise that I'm standing.” “I'm not prepare
Arabella's p.o.v The meeting does not go as planned, Valerie took one look at my brother's face and turned into an actual ghost. There was pure fear on her face and it was so heart-breaking to watch. Her reaction makes me wonder if there is more to their separation or my brother is just that scary. All our previous meetings have gone extremely well and it's so disheartening to watch all our efforts go down the drain. Especially since this is my project and it is something that I have been working on for a long time and my brother does not know this but I found Valerie a long time ago. I've worn her dresses and I have anonymously bought even more. I figured that would be my little way of getting to know her. I orchestrated using the fashion awards to bring her out of her hiding place. None of my family members know that I am on the board of directors for the most prestigious fashion school. I use an alias and so far nobody has come close to figuring out my secret. You might
Valerie p.o.v I don't know how many traffic laws I break before I reach my house. I stumble in with unsteady feet and quickly run to the toilet where I throw up everything in my belly. After I rinse my mouth, I undress and tuck myself into bed where I spend hours reviewing the events that happened today. “How does he still affect me so much, its been six whole years. I should be over him” But I can't deny that my heart skipped a neat and I felt butterflies when he said my name. Carter has always been good-looking but now, he looks like people were sacrificed in order for God to get the required mix for his creation. I imagine that this was how beautiful Greek gods were. I feel my whole body tingling as I imagine the scratches that will be left on me from his beard if he kisses me, then I further imagine his hands paying attention to my body. I'm so lost in thought that it takes a while to register that the loud noise is coming from my phone. I quickly pick up the
Valerie p.o.v On Monday morning I can't get out of bed fast enough, however immediately I raise my head I'm hit with the biggest headache and I immediately regret all the drinks that Janet and I had over the weekend. I can't believe she made me drink that much. We definitely took advantage of the fact that George was at a sleep over and had a vampire diaries marathon and that movie is best enjoyed with a lot of snacks and wine. That wasn't the wisest decision as I precisely have less than an hour to sober up and be present at the Sullivan group for the official contract signing. The thought of seeing Carter again sobers me instantly. I can't believe him. “How dare he show his face after what he did to me”. I haven't told Janet that I ran into Carter or that it's his family that I'll be working with. I'm sure that she would advise me to drop their company and search for another one. I don't want to involve her in this drama and I'm also hoping that Carter will not pay
Carter's p.o.v Checking the time on my wristwatch I see that it's past 7, a slow smile spreads on my face as I quickly turned to the monitor that has all the feeds from the cameras in my company. I scroll past several videos until I get to the conference room and my eyes immediately find Valerie. She looks exceptionally stunning in the green dress that she has on. She looks so free as she smiles with my sister. I watch as Arabella pulls her into a hug and she sports a content look on her face. I imagine her looking at me like that when we wake up in the morning. The thought makes me pause, I ponder on it for a little while and my heart does a little jump as I come into the realization that I want Valerie. I know that I wanted to have her again but this image has made me realize that I want her long term. I don't like that she's giving my smiles to someone else, yes the someone is my sister but still. It's annoying that she's this happy when I'm not around. I'm a little