CHAPTER 130ROSEFot the moment being I thought it was best I put out the thought of finding out what it was all about more because it looked like he was most definitely telling the truth, as it was I couldn't get myself to think about what I really wanted.It was confusing but looking at him but still even more confusing was the fact that I couldn't tell what was going on through his mindI couldn't think about the situation at that moment, all it left in my mind was that glee of hope that appeared to get darkened in my soul.He stood there still staring at me with utmost confusion, he seemed unsettled about what he wanted and the fact that all he had to do at that motor was walk away and all these conversations would end.Still while trying to get myself to think of what to say at the moment, I felt that it was best that i stayed quiet and not say anything..“What do you want?" He asked.It seemed like an absurd question thinking that he walked in here himself. I looked straight at
ROSE Fighting him was the last thing i wanted to do, it was more or less like a lost battle and morever I still had alot that I was trying to fix at that moment, and it had alot to deal with finding out his true intentions.I hadn't been given so much leverage as I was that moment, the look he gave he was better than I had in a while. It was past ten when I turned to look at the clock but still I wasnt bothered by that, instead it was by someone …something deeper..I didn’t know how to react to him yet my fears were what would happen if he leaves, so I played the game in my head swifly.Like the start of my new life with him, I had thought about what possibly I could do, I decided it was best I acted like I didn't care of he was there or not whereby deep in my soul it was all I wanted.I’d spent yesterday going over what he was up to even as I watched him and pretended he wasn’t here. I ’d assumed that all this was over , because I hadn’t once heard the unmistakable creak of the
ROSECall it my feelings or whatever still it was at that moment I had thought it was it out away from the thoughts that were in my heart even as I could feel it echoing every second.In way I thought he was right it to me that I had been doing this for quite too long I had been playing this game with him in whichever, had left me trying to find myself as well, still it gave away nothing as i was still here and I had nothing to show.It took the chugging sound of his vehicle to make me realize at that moment that he was gone, I didn't know what to expect or how to relate to that moment, and it left me thinking about the situation all over again.Still I thought it was best to just stay quiet, at times like this silence seemed to be more pivotal and it looked like it was the way forward at that moment while all this thoughts filled my mind, it left in it place doubts-I was alone again in the room with nothing surrounding me than eerily silence,was I pushing this too far It's summed
ROSE Staring at the document that was littering the room all I could feel at that moment bwa as Sense if regret, it didn't occur to me to that all of this would happen to start but slowly, as I read through coursing through the entire details it entailed I was left startled. My stomach dipped, at that moment I could have sworn that like my mood at that moment, my friend Anna shared the same state of mind as I did—It all started with that heavy weight of animosity, as I could feel it drifting through me at that moment all I felt in my soul was that sense to fix this .It left an unfamiliar wave of anxiety, I coulf feel as it traveled down my veins at that moment leaving nothing in it wake,at thr aftermath of everything, all I felt was that bit of confusion that made my mind vulnerable . Vulnerable to whatever I was thinking at that point in time.“I knew that son of a bitch was up to something." I stated not hiding the fact that I felt totally disrupted.She took one look at me and
DANIELSOMETHINGS were hard to get your mind off and one out of it was the fact that all of this was becoming deeply engrossed In whatever this was the minute knew annoyed that she didn't believe me no matter what It looked like I had said, instead she was getting more serious about wanting to know what i thought wasn't necessary. Darkness covered the room like a canvas, and I was left in it wake thinking of what to do about the entire situation—When I had walked away from her , I had opened the window blinds letting the rays of the moonlight into the room, I seemed a bit unsettled as I was trying to decide on If it would be best I just let out the secrets. If anything was fact it was the fact that I hadn't been expecting to be … well welcomed by her, most definitely had because I ahd an altercation with her just before I walked out.All I wanted at that moment was the silence that seemed to envelope me and In way slowly i was becoming a part of it as well.A feeling of anxiety ro
ROSEWHEN he had walked up to meet me earlier that day all I could feel was that sense of anxiety, as I didn't know what he wanted or had the sense to answer all the questions he was asking that moment still it felt strange that all of this were happening and if I was going to give anything away it definately had to be the fact he was doing all he could to keep his lies secret. My heartbeats slowed . .. At first I had thought he wouldn't get me to this point but that moment he had said the word and lied to my face again I lost it.My pulse leapt in my throat quickly as my hands came toward my hair, I tugged at it from the frustration as I flinched at him“You are still lying right, wait here I'd be back!"Immediately I said those Words I stormer away, I didn't want to have anything to with having to drag the entire situation but as it was , It was starting too seem like I had no i choice.All thoughts of the past came rushing through my mind even as I walked through the door that sec
DANIEL I WAS confused of what to say call it being caught with your fingers in a cooking jar but at that minute I' was faced with a whole different fate, it had to do with me trying to fix all what was happening -It was written in the stars that all of this would happen, meeting her , and then breaking nher heart ….What I hadn't thought was that life would give me a second chance and I would throw it all away.So as she turned to walk away for the second time in my life it was fate pulling on a big twist, I couldn't figure out the clear details but entails but if I had thought life would pull this at me twice in a life time it was definitely lie as the moment was unexpected and at this it was just about giving up. When Rose had told Me everything, it was shocking, I could never have been more disdainful about how I made this all about myself and it madee all quiet, still there was something else I won't deny at this period in time, this time when for once in the race we had an u
ROSEHOW easy was it for him to say sorry and hoped that it healed my deepest scars, I felt very much broken especially after the previous night and all all he could say was sorry?He had to be the most self centered man so full of himself in everything that he had done yet I could not bring myself to hate or despise him completely.Still if there was anything that made me more irritated by this man it was how he claimed to want to know everything, right from the moment I had found the paper to how I did. Looking at how pissed he was the previous night it was making it more and more obvious that I can't be with him.In the past there was a part of my feeling that loved holding anything back thinking not would make him angrier, it was good to know that part was dead.Still I didn't want to get myself involved in all of what was happening, I was right there Still seeking a way out and it looked most certainly like it would be difficult. As I walked into the room I was heaving deepl