Tripped Into The Bottle

With Ava …

This is the first morning in a very long time that I wake up alone. The view from up here is absolutely amazing, it is kind of sad that I cannot share it with someone by my side. This is also the most alone I have been in a very long time too. There is a big part of me that just want to phone him but I know that I should be strong and not give in so easily to him. If things are meant to be then they will be.

I need to start planning, I know I am only about eight weeks or so but I need to get to a doctor and also I need to start reading up on baby stuff because I know absolutely nothing.

It is scary but I am so excited.

But I wish Tray was here. I know I should not, he will just break my heart and crush the excitement I feel with the baby.

I wonder if I can trust mom not to tell him that I have