To a party

“ Fuck! “I moaned as my finger circled faster on my clitoris. I imagined it was Nikolai’s hands working me while his eyes watched me.

That thought alone was enough to make my thighs clamp together and my eyes roll to the back of my head.

“ Fuck, Nikolai, “ I moaned out as I came all over my fingers.

When the wave of euphoria had long passed, I was left with the shame. Shame for touching myself at the thought of the man who kept me locked in his room. I hadn’t seen the outside of my room in three days.

For three days I had stayed in my room trying to do anything to distract my mind from all the information he had given me. For three days I hadn’t seen him. Only a maid who brought me meals came into my room with food.

I didn’t want to miss him or yearn for his presence but I did. I was only human after all. I washed myself again before wiping my body with a towel. I had been overthinking and cursing Nikolai for days. I needed to stop.

I opened the door to the bathroom to go into my