I held Lola while she slept not just because I felt guilty for her pain but because she looked genuinely scared to sleep on her own. In the short while of knowing her, she had proved fearless but I had already brought this to her, and it hurt me that whoever was behind this couldn't take me, instead, they went after someone who literally knew nothing about what they wanted. I never should have told her. I thought about telling Lola that he looked like an animal because he probably was, and he had one living inside him too but how was it going to make any sense? She would probably run away thinking I am nuts and that would be goodbye to the one friend and roommate I had finally made. Besides, it was against the rules too to involve humans, I knew that much, so while she recounted how she told him everything and he listened raptly, suddenly becoming a different and calmer person when she finished stating everything I told her- probably knowing I know nothing or at least didn't tell her
It was stupid of me to think confronting whoever it was would bring out something useful. My plan of finding more about L was still in full view, I decided that if it were Mac’s doing, I would let him explain, and if there were a sensible explanation, then I would let it go and continue my secret gathering of data for him, superstitious, yeah I know. But if it was L’s doing then, I would make sure to get all his vulnerable points and hand them over to Mac to do whatever evil he had in mind. It would only intensify and strengthen my reason to get intel on him. If he was behind all this, then the small part of my conscience that felt bad about my plan in motion would finally be at ease. It was a win-win I didn't want to consider the fact that there was a high chance that if it turned out to be Mac he wouldn't bother explaining himself, or it wouldn't be a reason what I would expect; something like he was trying to protect me, I didn't want to think about that at all as I weighed my op
CHAPTER TWENTY EIGHT. Ever since I heard the name Luke it has been playing in my head on repeat, drowning out every other thought I could possibly harbour. Only a few thoughts survived and one of it was the thought of Luke, finally knowing what L means, the frustration it eased from my shoulders was bliss. Then there was the way I riled Mac up and the way he looked at me before drove out. There was also the fact that I finally admitted to seeing someone in his house and even went ahead to say the only thing I know about that person so I might as well be dead meat, I had no idea. But it was worth the risk, I got side tracked but certainly I can tell you that I was pleased by the fact that I at least had a name to pin on L, it wasn't progress to finding who planned the kidnap of Lola but it was progress to something even bigger than that. Speaking about the whole Lola and Fred thing, Fred was no where to be found. Seriously he completely vanished into thin air and all my attempts t
I didn't know what to make of it; I didn't know what to make of anything other than the fact that It was gone. but How? and When? My heart was pounding in my chest. What next? What would happen now? Lola thought I was sleep acting and forced me back to sleep right after that but I couldn't sleep back. Heck, I couldn't do anything other than overanalyze the entire situation. I was trembling. I turned my back from her and pretended to be asleep, but my mind was wide awake and buzzing with ideas. How did he take it? How did he enter the dorm yet again, and what was his deal really? I was ready to face him and ask all these questions that were killing me. How could he enter the room without any of us knowing? How could he place and take letters at will? How did he save me that day? I was relieved to be somewhere close to getting answers but also scared of what would happen from there. I prepared myself, though, on Thursday, I woke up ready for the meeting, but no one showed up and no
I couldn't breathe. I was so sure that the world stopped moving, It seemed like everything had paused and all that was unfolding here was this moment in front of us and I couldn't place my hands on how fast things went. It was bizarre. This was the meeting, this was it. My heart was thundering and my breathing almost ceased. What did he mean by coming for me? What exactly did he mean by that and Why did a part of me want it? Why did I find myself nodding after he asked if I was ready? What did my nodding mean? Why did the thoughts of Mac completely elude me while he was in my presence? Why did I find it hard to breathe around him? What were these feelings and reactions? Why did he take off swiftly after my response? Why did a part of me miss him immediately after he vanished? Once again, all I had were questions, questions, questions, it was infuriating, and it made me frustrated. I didn't even have any means of contacting him again. What the hell? I know that I should have at lea
Test week was fast approaching and it took everything in me to not faint at that realization, After the whole events with the multiple men in my life what I needed right now was to concentrate on school work but I seemed to remember that a tad bit late. The days had passed in a blur and this was the second dramaless week in my life in a very long time, that is if you are leaving out the frenzy of preparing for tests, then Yes, it was fairly less hectic than other ones. Lola and I wafted through our busy schedules without seeing so much of each other. I missed her. Over the months our bond grew and strengthened and I couldn't wait for things to be a bit calmer so that I could have more time for her excess talking and wild tendencies. I was going home briefly for a two weeks break after all the tests, maybe that was the only reason I was able to drown out the thoughts of Mac because I hoped to at least see him when I got home (even when I didn't know how) and gauge how badly I had dam
I was waiting for the cab that would drive me back while hugging Lola for the seventh time in the lapse of an hour. Finally, we were done with tests and had a little break so I was going home, I had tried on some tests and done poorly on some but I was optimistic about most of them, and most of all, I was excited to leave for home. Distance does make the heart fonder. The journey was short, but I slept all through, one moment I was leaning my head against the window frame, and the next moment I had zoned off into the sweet arms of sleep. It was Amanda’s shriek that woke me up and for the first few moments after I heard her scream, I wondered if Lola had followed me back but I knew I was wrong and I laughed softly when the brown hair of Amands engulfed me in a hug. “ You're suffocating me” I managed to say, truthfully she was, she had climbed on top of me where I sat in the back seat and was now holding me in a deadly grip. When did she get so touchy? She pushed back a little and
Mac’s family was having a party, they had invited us and somehow this news excited my sisters way more than it excited me. They chatted about how grand it would be and I couldn't blame them for wanting something exciting and out of the norm. They spoke about beautiful I would look and how Mac wouldn't be able control himself and his sight from me and I knew the possibility of that happening eas next to none. I thought if they knew how we left things off the last time we saw, if he had his way, he would probably be demenading for my head right now. Amanda and I shared knowing looks when they said he must have missed me while I was away but even that look meant nothing. We were in different head spaces. I was still in paradise according to Amanda, she didn't know how badly that one date had caused my roommate pain. Speaking of which my roommate as as drama queen that she was had not stopped blowing up my phone with text messages ever since we got here, It was amusing. When I told her