"Ry this is crazy. I don't want to break up or even think about breaking up." He says as he starts to pace around. "I don't care how crazy she is I won't let her break us up." He says looking back at me.
"O, we're not breaking up. We're going to pretend that we broke up and...""No!" He says interrupting, his voice firm. "I'm not agreeing to this." He says his voice really shaky. I grab his arms and pull him toward the bed to sit."What are we going to do then? Live in misery?" I ask and he shakes his head no."I hate this. What if we start playing this little game and it backfires on us?"He says grabbing my face in both his hands. "I have a bad feeling about this. I don't like it at all." He says sad"We'll just be pretending. Make her and everyone think we're not together anymore and see if that will get her off our back or not. If it doesn't work we stop." I say and I can tell he's not convinced. "So what? We pretend not to fuck with eachI see Marlene walk into the garage and sigh. What is she doing here? "It's nice to see you without a tether," She says coming to stand next to the car I am working on. "I would say it's nice to see you but..." I say and she laughs."Oh, Olie." She says using my mother's pet name for me and I cringe inwardly. I can't believe there was a time when I thought she was fun to be around. I don't recognize the girl standing in front of me. Did I do this to her. "You've grown so mean. I guess we have Ryo to thank for that." She states looking me up and down. "What do you want Marlene?" I asking to change the subject. I don't want to discuss Ryo with her. And there's the small matter she suggested. I've been pretending we never had that conversation for the past 8 hours. A part of me is hoping she changes her mind. "I came to visit you. We used to be friends. I miss those days. Don't you?" She asks and I shake my head no. "I guess we have Ryo to thank for that." She says and this time I fe
Her hand is gripping my groin and close my eyes blocking her out. I shouldn't be here. She shouldn't be here. I should be with Ryo. I should be telling her how stupid this idea is and.,."You miss this don't you?" Marlene says gripping me harder. My heart beats all the way into my throat and my head beats at the same time as my heart. And I swear I hear myself scream in my head"Stop." I say after a moment. I can play along but I won't let it go beyond the point where we can't come back."Oh, I'm sorry. I forgot, you have Ryo." She says smirking,"Yes." I say and take a step back. This feels like a very bad game and I want to quit."So when will I be able to touch you without having to think about your girlfriend?" She says moving closer to kiss me."I'm not leaving my girlfriend," I say and she smiles and then she stares at me the smile gone."Why am I here then?" She asks her tone hard. She's getting angry. I
"What do you mean you guys broke up?" Kelly screams and I cringe shooshing her. We're in the School garden and everyone is listening. "You can be louder if you want to be." I say sarcastically and she stares at me not amused."I don't care about them." She says shaking her head at me."We haven't made it public yet," I say and she looks at me like I have three heads."I don't care about that." She says repeating herself. "Why in the hell did you guys break up?" She asks adamant to get the truth out of me. I look at her wishing I could tell her the truth but for this to go the way I planned it has to be as authentic as possible."We just can't get past this Marlene thing." I say whispering the name part so no one will hear me talking about her."What's that got to do with anything?" She says getting angrier. "You can't break up with the love of your life just because his ex is a dick." She says standing up and s
I pull up to Ryo's house feeling all the weight of the world weigh me down. I don't want to be here right now. I know Marlene confronted her, and she called me here to fight about it.I don't want to fight.I see her walk out of the house and stay in the car. I open the passenger door for her and hear her deep sigh as soon she sits next to me. I hold my breath waiting to hear what she's going to say. I wish we could bring a stop to this stupid plan of hers and get back to the happiness we had. I miss her, I miss the fun we had.I miss holding her. We haven't touched since the other night and I want to hug so much."Did you sleep with her?" She asks in the silence and my body goes cold."What?" I ask turning to look at her. I hiss when I see the pain in her face. I can't believe she actually thinks I slept with Marlene. She doesn't have any faith in me. She doesn't trust me. I knew this would happen."Ryo how can you ask me
Midnight in Oliver's roomI can't sleep. All I can think about is Ryo. I wish she was here. I lie on my stomach pressing my body hard into the mattress. My heart is aching and I don't know how to make the pain go away.We're not broken up but it feels like I lost her. I don't know how to reach her. How can my life go to ruin in less than a week?"I should call her and try to fix things," I say into the empty room like someone can hear me."But I don't want to fight with her anymore." I continue into the empty room.I squeeze my eyes shut, willing my mind to slow down and allow sleep to come over me. I need to rest. I haven't had a good night's sleep since Ryo came up with that stupid idea. I should have fought her harder on this. I knew the worst would happen.I was hoping Kelly would talk some sense into her but by the judge of how things turned out with Marlene. Kelly was no help.And I doubt she'll be of any help after sh
It's the weekend I am back at work and I hate it. As a matter of fact I ahte everything about my routine thesedays. I hate going to school because I see Oliver and I can't be with him. Plus I get to Marlene gloating and prancing around the school. She has found a new happiness since Oliver and I have been "broken up". She's back to her loud abd abnoxious self.And Kelly is mad at me.So we haven't been spending a lot of time together. I'm afraid I'm going to slip up and tell her the truth about Oliver and I.She just doesn't beileve me when I give her my fake reason why we broke up. She doesn't understand what is going on and she hates that I won't give her a valid reason why I won't patch things up with Oliver. I know she's going t kill me when I finally tell her what happened.I hate being at work now because I know it's count down to me going back to being a simgle girl. I am realizing now that big part of my life was taken up by our relation
It's been two weeks since Oliver and Ryo broke up. She walks around the school moping while Oliver is barely talking.I was hoping he would at least be talking to me but he is ignoring me. I tried calling, texting and talking to him but he just sits and stares at the emptiness. Like now. He's sitting in the school garden staring at the flowers.I walk toward him already feeling his dark energy cloud me. I need him to snap out of this. I need him to let Ryo go and see that I'm here for him, everything he's ever wanted."Hey. What are you thinking about?" I say sitting on the opposite bench. He looks at me but he doesn't say anything. "I know you feel like the pain is not going to go away but it will." I say and he scoffs at me."You know my feelings now?" He asks after a long pause."Yes, actually I do." I say meaning it too. There was a time when I longed for him. I felt like I was losing my mind. I felt li
I watch Kelly walk into the shop and I smile. I haven't talked to her since the fake breakup. I imagine she has questions and I wouldn't be surprised if she blames me for everything that is going on right now."Hey." She says coming into the store room."Hey." I say back at her."How are you doing?" She asks her face serious."Hanging in there." I say and she smiles."Everything sucks huh?" She says and I shrug. "Can you take a little break?" She asks already walking away."I guess." I say following her. She heads out of the front entrance and she walks towards her car."What's going on O?" She asks when we're next to her car and out of ear shot."I don't know." I say honest. I don't know what's going on with Ryo and I think I'm getting to a point where I don't want to agonize over this."What do you mean you don't know?" She asks confused. "Ryo is not telling me anything.