11: Flowers for my beautiful

Maybe Amanda is right. I don't think I'm ready for a relationship — even though there's no one to have a relationship with.

Perhaps it's for the best that Eric has Mariam. It gives me the chance to be serious with other things in my life: like school, sewing and many other things that I can't think of at the moment.

For dramatic effect, I scroll over to my dramatic playlist and play a song that fits how I'm feeling.

Confident by Demi Lovato begins as I fold my bandana and scrutinize it to be sure the shape is perfect before tying it around my head.

I'm careful not to mess up my room as I pick out a dress and shoes, gather my books into my bag and then check the mirror. There's a new pimple on my forehead, and although I want to pop it, I stay away. Popping it only worsens it, the internet said.