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Chapter 47. I want this
After 3 long years of studying, Sarah applied like a crazy woman to every company she could find advertising. It was not that she was unhappy, it was because she needed a new , fresh start.
Sarah dressed in a pencil skirt, black stockings, a crisp white shirt and a sleeveless coat. Tying her hair up in a bun, leaving tendrils around her face so she didn;t look like an air hostess, she applied light make up.
She decided to go with a small heel closed tipped shoe, shiny red ro break up the black and white she had going on.
Looking at herself in the mirror, she applied a red lipstick.
''Pluck,pluck'', she puckered her lips together making sure it was evenly spread.
''Good day, I am Sarah White'', She said, reaching out her hand to the mirror.
''No, no, no. I sound like a dead beat'',She muttered under her breath.
Looking at the red and silver clock hanging in the far end of the room, she read the time,''9h30am''.
''I still have an
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