"Syd, look at me."Nope, no looking, just breathing. I couldn't breathe, though, that was the problem, wasn't it? Air refused to go in and out of my lungs in a normal manner, my diaphragm contracting and squeezing so hard I could barely pull in air. Which left me gasping, writhing."Syd." Power, usually so kind and soft, sharpened into a jab. My eyes flew open, sweat stinging instantly as I stared up at Lula. She smiled at me, gently, but her magic held me in a grip almost as tight as the pain. "You're doing fine." No panic in her voice. Good, okay then. That was good, wasn't it? So why did I feel panicked and freaked out and like I was going to explode all at the same time? "You have to relax or the baby will fight you."Eep. Ack. Groan.No, nugget. No fighting, please, no fighting. Just come out, okay?Out. His little mind knew that one concept, clearly. Out. Out. Out. Out.Hell, yeah. Prior concerns about the consequences long gone, I was with him there."Out," I panted. "Y
Amazing how such little fingers and toes could hold endless fascination. Perfectly formed. Tiny replicas of my own, miniature flawlessness in a sweet bundle I wanted to hold forever.His tiny button nose wrinkled in sleep, bow lips working as he sucked his tongue. Gabriel's scent evolved past his father's into summer and freshness with a hint of the most delicious vanilla, his little body warm in my arms. I feared I'd lose the ability to physically feel that part of him, my temperature sensation curtailed by my power. But though my maji magic kicked in after his birth, returning me to my normal lack of sensation to heat and cold, something about Gabriel made things different. I could sense a change from moment to moment as his body adjusted. Warming in sleep, cooling a little as he woke, rising again when he fed.But it was the warmth of his power and his darling little soul that made me want to hug him and never let him go.I was forced to release him, set him down from time to tim
I suppose I shouldn't have been surprised the Gate chose to knock that very same night. I'd barely settled Gabriel into his crib when I felt the resounding hammer of the knock echo through him and into me.At first, I had no idea what it was. Freaked me the hell out, to be honest. But when Galleytrot's big head came up, cocked to one side, ears perked, I made the connection.Feared Gabriel would cry again, the pressure was so immense. But my son instead came wide awake, eyes glistening, a burbling laugh erupting from him."Momma," he said.Okay then."Syd," Galleytrot said. "I've never heard of one so young being Gatekeeper before."Way to add to my worries, big dog. "Well," I said through gritted teeth as Sassafras purred and rubbed his head against my son, "we're just going to have to wing it and hope it works out."I bundled him into a carrier, anxiety coming in little waves, strapping him to my chest. What I really wanted to do was put him back to bed and ignore the knock ev
So much for diving into action. I arrived home from the Sidhe cavern to an anxious Mom and Shenka. Ever eager, Gram took Gabriel from me, fighting Charlotte for the chance to snuggle him. Sassafras's clear irritation at my departure lulled me back into keeping my family happy. I allowed myself to settle into that same pattern of care and love for my son.I did have a moment of intense fear jolt me from sleep only a few nights later, a nightmare reminding me of Fate's words to me:"You have so much more to do, Syd. I wish I could lay the burden on another, but you were made for this."Which meant, among other things, I wasn't done, was I? Fate had so much more in store for me.And, one day, I would outlive my son.Couldn't go there. Think that way. Lurched from bed and snuggled Gabriel close while he woke and cooed to me as though in comfort.Met Sassafras's glowing eyes in the dark where he slept in my son's crib.Sobbed.The demon cat sighed, rose, came to me. Set both front p
I didn't linger. Went immediately to Meira's quarters, shed the ridiculous outfit, slipped back into my jeans and food-coated t-shirt while my sister waited for me in her bedroom. Emerged to hug her."You call me anytime," I said. Leaned away. "Any. Time."Meira sniffled, shrugged. "I'm okay," she said. "But that was harder than I thought it would be.""Want to come home for the night?" I reached for the veil, felt Ahbi welcome me. Her sadness joined with mine. Odd to find her upset, considering it was her idea to make Dad Ruler in the first place. But my demon grandmother changed a great deal since her soul bonded to the Node keeping Demonicon's planes in alignment. Softened and became more human, if that was possible. Lost the deep, compelling drive of political maneuvering, which had existed most of her life.Amazing I loved her way more dead than alive.Meira shook her head, backed away with a firm smile. "I have to sit through the banquet," she said. A little too brightly."
I missed Charlotte's steady presence when she returned home at Oleksander's insistence. It was selfish of me to want her around all the time, to want everyone around. I wasn't, it turned out, the Center Of The Universe.When did that happen?I never expected to settle into a quiet life as a mom and love it. But Gabriel made everything so much better, simpler. Distracted me from the old angers and sorrows enough I fell into a kind of Mommy haze.So when I felt spirit power enter the back yard followed by the familiar touch of Sunny's magic, I shook myself free of my stupor and greeted her at the door with a big smile and a giggling baby in my arms.She swooped forward, a joyful cry on her lips, and lifted him from my grasp, swinging Gabriel around as he laughed, the sound so fresh and sweet I had to swallow the lump rising in my throat.I made him. Imagine.Sunny came to a halt, tucking my son against her, kissing his forehead while he ran his little fingers through her blonde hai
I half expected to run into resistance at Castle Sthol. Old habits die hard, after all. But instead of the typical animosity of the past, I was instead greeted with awe and more than a little fear by the vampires who stood guard at the front gate.Yes, I could have landed myself and my vampire friends in the middle of Pannera's throne room. But I was learning diplomacy and figured sugar might get me farther than arrogance and bullying.Sunny and Uncle Frank took the lead, Sassafras perched in my uncle's arms. Sebastian remained back, with me, his hand brushing mine twice as we entered the large gates at the front of the castle and were ushered inside.On impulse, I flexed my fingers and felt his slip into mine. Guilt tried to rise, Liam's face. But I pushed it down, tightened my grip on Sebastian's hand.Liam was gone. Had been for almost a year.Time to move on, Syd.I looked up, caught Sebastian's little smile, how his dark blue eyes watched me without pressure, but filled with
I hated to give her hope, but felt it rise like a flare of flame, her fingers trembling in my grasp. "You have a cure?"I couldn't help but turn and look at Sebastian who nodded to me before bowing to his former queen.Pannera coughed again, softer this time. "My darling Sebastian," she said. "How I've missed you."He came to her side at once, kneeling next to me, face so sad I wanted to hug him. "Sweet Pannera," he whispered. "Let Sydlynn help you."Her gray eyes went from his face to mine. "Tell me what you have in mind."Sebastian's power flared, engulfed her and Pannera gasped. "You know I've changed," he said. "But I'm certain you have no idea just how much."The Sthol vampires sighed as one as they felt his life, heard his heartbeat. I held my breath as the sound of it, amplified by his magic, thudded against the stone walls before he let it fall silent.Pannera's eyes flared with spirit power. "You can do this thing?""I can try," I said, suddenly afraid. What if I faile