*Cynamon*
I slowly feel reality pull at me ... but I am not fully awake yet. Damn what was I dreaming ? I can’t really remember, but it was about Zac and it was pretty heated, I can still feel the warm humming in my body.
To be honest I am not sure it is possible to be more comfortable than I am right now. I am warm, the bed is perfectly soft and I have Zac’s strong body pressed against me, one arm resting under my pillow, the other wrapped around my waist.
‘It feels good right ?’ Zyka asks, with a lazy voice, telling me she has been sleeping too.
‘It does, yes’. I admit, but then the fear and the doubts come creeping up on me. ‘We can’t d
*Cynamon*“A problem ?” I sit up, staring at him .. what is he talking about ? Zyka is listening curiously too.He holds up something that looks like a rubber band with something stringy attached to it. “Uhm ... seem like condoms actually do break sometimes”.“Oh shit”. How fucking unlucky is it possible to be ? I mean I don’t do one night stands ... I don’t really do flings ... even boyfriends I normally keep hanging, often for a long time before giving in, if they don’t give up first ... for once I meet a man who makes my body actually burn w
2 weeks later*Cynamon*“Hi darling ... I have a surprise for you”. Zac gives me a quick kiss, but I grab him around the neck, kissing him deeply. He chuckles when I let him go. “Oh I love to feel missed ... but I am kinda sweaty”.I smile at him, he just came from the gym and I do not mind that kind of sweat at all. “Don't you know by now that I don’t mind that one bit ?”Zyka is humming softly. ‘I do love his scent’.
*Cynamon*“So miss Jankowski, you say your period started this morning, but the pregnancy test is very much positive ... right ?” The doctor is looking at me.I nod. “Well I started bleeding ... not very much so far though, but it never is on the first day”.“Let’s see what the bloodwork is saying about your hCG levels ... the nurse should have them done soon. Do you have reason to believe that you could be pregnant ?” The doctor pushes his glasses back on his nose.
*Cynamon* “Excuse me ?” I know it might seem a weird response.. but this is not how I envisioned getting proposed to ... and there is just too much happening. “No, we shouldn’t”. “We ... we shouldn’t ? But why not ?” I hear him swallow. ‘Cy, that wasn’t nice’. Zyca’s voice sounds. ‘Look at his face’. I breathe in slowly. I mean I don't want to hurt him. “Firstly ... that is not how to propose Zac. Secondly, this is so new and so much has happened l.. I need to digest all that before making more big decisions. And thirdly, we are not even officially dating, we are not public and we haven’t even ... shared our feelings, so marriage seems ... a very big jump”. “The third one I can easily change”. He looks at me. “Well to me we are dating, but if you want to put it into words; I think we should be exclusive and well ... I adore you ... I worship you ... I love you ... and about being public, no problem, we can do that”. “No”. It slips out before I have time to think. ‘Seriously wo
*Cynamon* “Go away ... I don’t like you right now”. I pout and try to ignore Zac, as he puts a cup of steaming tea and two cookies on the nightstand next to me. ‘Behave’. Zyka says. ‘He brought us cookies, the good ones’. He just smiles and kicks off his shoes ... Then he starts opening his pants. “I still love you though ... and that pouty face only makes you more adorable to me”. “What are you doing ?” I peek over the duvet as he pulls off his pants and socks. Zyka interrupts me. ‘Hey no complaining, our hot man is stripping’. “You promised me snuggling ... I prefer being partly naked when I snuggle, it makes it much more cosy”. He grins at me and grabs the corner of the duvet. I pull it back. “No coffee for me,... no snuggles for you”. He sighs and I turn my back, pulling the duvet halfway over my head. I am not sure why I am acting like this ... to be honest all I want is for him to hold me, so why am I pushing him away ? ‘Yes you know’. My wolf huffs. I feel the bed di
4 days later *Cynamon* “What are you doing outside Young lady ... and playing around with Blue ? Are you not supposed to stay in bed ?” Zac’s voice does not sound happy as he stands on the back porch with his arms crossed. ‘Breathe Cy’. Zyka quickly says. ‘Do not bite off his head … Imagine how much worse an Alpha would have reacted’. “No sweetheart ... The doctor told me to relax and not do strenuous things, he never said anything about staying in bed”. I throw the toy to Blue. “Also ... I am not bleeding anymore”. He jumps down from the porch and almost swipes me into his arm. “For real ? Not even a little bit ? And you think that our jelly bean is ... still holding on ?” “I don’t really have any way of knowing Zac ... but I hope”. I let my arms slip around his neck. “Oh wow, you are really sweaty today”. Zyka lets out a low appreciative growl. ‘I think he smells yummy’. “Cardio ... I am in such bad shape”. He grins. “I thought you liked my sweat”. I run a hand into his da
*Cynamon* “Are you okay Zac ?” I ask him as we walk into the doctor's office. I have noticed him tensing up more and more on the way here and growing unusually quiet. He squeezes my hand softly. “It’s just ... what if … what if there is no more jelly bean ? I mean I know the doctor said it mostly works out fine ... but ...”. ‘Aww’. Zyka purrs. ‘He is as precious as a pup … must protect him at all cost’. “Then ... we talk about it, work through it and ... try again”. I say softly. I mean I know it wasn’t planned, but I have gotten so used to the idea of us having a baby, that we are going to be a real family, that I kinda want it to happen no matter what. “For real ?” He looks at me, smiling brightly. “You would do that for me ... get pregnant again now ?” ‘Oh I so would’. My wolf sighs. I can’t help but giggle softly. “Well honestly Zac, it would not be for you but for us. I am not ready to let this go either ... you kinda have me hooked on the ‘being a family’ idea”. He grab
10 weeks later *Cynamon* “Aww look at her ... jelly bean is getting so big”. Zac is looking at the screen and it is clear to see the excitement on his face. I have had no complications the last ten weeks and the nuchal scan went perfectly, so we are now having a private 3D scan to see if they can see the sex of the baby. Zyka is almost as excited as Zac about it. “Yeah, the baby is about the size of an apple now and growing fast”. The doctor says with a friendly smile. “An apple”. Zac looks like he is imagining an apple. “We could name her Apple ... that is kind of cute”. ‘He is not naming our pup after a fruit’. Zyka huffs. ‘Stop him Cy, the jelly bean thing is bad enough’. I shake my head. “No, we are not calling our baby Apple ... I mean Apple Peters ... nope not gonna happen”. “You might be right, it has a ... not lucky ring to it”. He bites his lip. “So doctor, will you please tell Cynamon here that it is a girl ?” I roll my eyes. “I didn’t say it isn’t a girl Zac ... j