We had all gathered in the galley to have lunch. Ashton and I were sitting on the counter behind the others who were sitting on stools; we had our plates in our hands.
Emre hadn’t eaten with us at all; he’d gone to see to some business with his captain. I didn’t even know there was a captain.
Eric had saved me a seat beside him but Pelin had insisted that she just couldn’t stand to sit on the counter and eat. She’d looked at me and asked me if it was okay if she took the seat.
I’d nodded at her and put a hand on Eric’s shoulder assuring him it was okay.
If I started fighting petty behavior with the same, we’d both be on the table pulling each other’s hair out.
I was fine sitting behind with Ashton, I didn’t like to be in the spotlight and most of the time, I wasn’t even part of their conversation. I didn’t know them well enough to be a central part of their friendship so
“So where actually are we going?” I was sitting next to Eric. I’d finally gotten a seat next to him on the couch while we shared dessert.Eric had come over to me himself and I’d been unable to say no when he’d asked me if I felt like eating something sweet. He’d been strangely hesitant; his eyes apologetic as if he’d offended me somehow. He had gotten it all wrong.I was the guilty one here, not him.We were relaxing together on the couch and sharing a store brought mini chocolate cake. Eric was barely eating; I was the one stuffing my mouth trying to ease my conscience.“We’re heading towards some of the smaller islands off the coast, you’ll see.” Eric replied to my question.Things had become slow after lunch and everyone had wandered off.We were almost alone here if we didn’t count Ashton, who napped on the couch in front of us with a pillow over his head.&l
It was afternoon by the time we were near the islands. Pelin and Zerrin had locked themselves in one of the staterooms. Eric and Zayn had started on a game of cards in the saloon. Emre hadn’t moved his solitary station by the bow seat since after lunch. Ashton had taken me on a tour of the yacht and then we’d just relaxed on the sundeck where Mert had given us on Melisa’s request some renditions of popular songs. He was pretty great, certainly, Melisa had been impressed.I could see that something had changed, there was a new kind of intimacy between them now, it was endearing. It was relaxing being with people who were just happy without any undercurrents.Emre came up to the sundeck after a while and stood leaning at the railing, his arms folded. By that time, we’d moved on to each of us singing some of our favorite songs. Ashton asked Emre to join in but he just smiled and shook his head.I’d been more relaxed when he’d not
I wondered if I was making a mistake as I took my top and capris off. This wasn’t how I’d imagined the day to turn out.No I hadn’t been expecting to be undressing in front of Emre.His eyes were on me as I took everything off and revealed a plain black swimsuit that molded to my modest curves.I knew my body was nothing special and yet his eyes on me were making me feel as if I could have graced a magazine centerfold. Easily.His gaze started from the tip of my toes and burned upwards moving up and up, his eyes igniting my body wherever his eyes touched.“Let me go put on some sunscreen,” I said hurriedly, more to get away from him than anything else.I went to get my bag from the sundeck and sat down there. For a moment I could think clearly.What was I doing? Getting into the water and with Emre.I couldn’t think when he touched me. I couldn’t say no to the man.I squeezed out
“HAYAT YILDIZI” meant “Life Star”That wasn’t the strange thing about it; it was the shooting star that was painted beside it. I was struck by the picture thinking about asking Emre but feeling embarrassed about presuming something.Could it be? Or was I being ridiculous?Emre told me that we were going to swim towards the shore from the other side of the yacht because he wanted to show me something and I left the observation at the back of my mind.I went along with him and we swam towards shore. After a while, I started getting tired. My arms had gotten sore because I hadn’t done this in a long while and I was panting.Damn, I was out of shape.“Emre,” I panted, “He was a few paces in front of me.He turned back to me, evidently realizing that I was getting tired because he came back to me, put his arm around my waist and half hauled me as he swam supporting me the rest
Emre turned over my hand lying on the sand beside him and held it in his.I couldn’t pull away from him anymore.That was my problem, I’d never been able to pull away from him, not before..And not now.I sighed and looked at his face in profile, looking out to sea.There had been so many times when I’d yearned to look at him, feel him beside me.I’d wanted him so badly I still had dreams where I sometimes fell into the past again and got up again to an empty bed.There had been days when I hadn’t thought of him, nights when I’d fallen asleep peacefully but then suddenly out of the blue something would remind me of him again, a food, a song, a thought and I’d be back to square one, crying in my bedroom muffling the sounds with a pillow and masking my forlorn face with makeup in the morning.I looked away, unable to face the present and the past melding into one.“Emre&helli
“Let’s go in,” Emre pulled on my hand.“We can go in?” I was surprised.“Who’s here to stop us?” he teased, making me smile again, “C’mon”I laughed and holding hands, we ran towards the sparkling water.The water was wonderful, it was so clear you could see underneath to the rocky bed beneath.The water was pretty shallow and so I was unafraid but I knew that even if the water had been deep, I wouldn’t have been scared. Not with Emre near.I looked back at Emre in the water and said, “Race you to the waterfall”I was laughing as I glanced back at his dumbstruck face.He hadn’t known I would become the carefree Sarah again but that was how I felt.On top of the world, like I had anything and everything in the palm of my hand.Love was like that, made kings out of paupers and paupers out of kings.I was tryi
It had somehow gotten dark while we weren’t looking and the trees around us had started giving off a decidedly nightmarish feeling. Were we going to be stuck on this remote island?Without any necessities? Without food, without a phone, how would we survive?I was thinking this as I followed Emre along a path that was barely a path, in the dark of the trees, I couldn’t even see the moon.Did he know where we were?Did he know how we’d get to the boat?Maybe he had brought me out here on purpose…Oh God I was going to go mad. I was hungry, frustrated and tired. All I wanted was to go back to the yacht and rest on a nice normal bed. I’d been up earlier than usual to prepare for the day and now, I had no energy left. I was running on fumes.“Emre, do you know where we’re going or are we lost?”“For the last time Sarah, stop panicking. Just follow me”“To the
I sat near the bonfire to dry my clothes, my plate of full of food and my mind full of Emre. He sat across from me, the bonfire between us. This was how I always felt. He seemed to be so close but always out of my reach. The length of the flames between us making us seem close but they created an insurmountable barrier that I knew I wouldn’t ever be able to cross. My thoughts turned bleak and I hastily focused on something less devastating, like Mert and Melisa. Those two gave me a good feeling, looking at them made me feel as if there were still some good and miraculous things in life. I was glad for them, I loved happy endings and it seemed like Mert was going to do everything in his power to make her happy. It was so adorable how they were both sitting a little apart from everyone, in their own bubble, even eating from the same plate. We were all sitting in a loose circle, me near Ashton, currently the only person I could tolerate. Eric and Zayn sa