Karina.Shortly after he left that night, I closed off all the windows, locking myself in.When morning came, my home was still lodged in darkness. Whilst Levi slept peacefully, I remained pacing, jittery over what was to come. I felt it when his car drove by.‘Coward.’ the word whispered into me continuously.In the following days, I withdrew from everything and everyone. I'd called in for several days off with Lola, who was equally as exhausted from attending the wedding. She granted me on the basis of taking care of my child. Since then, I hadn't stepped out of the house for little more than a breath of fresh air.I also avoided everyone within the pack. I'd received calls from Felix and even Sam, worried about my lack of visits which I panned up to another flimsy excuse. I could sense that my aversion wasn't enough, but I held onto it as though it were the last strands of my sanity which was slowly slipping away.Avoiding everything didn't make me feel better, nor did it stop the
Karina. The wail came out of nowhere. I could barely recognize it as my voice as my knees hit the floor.“He can't take… he can't.”Warm arms wrapped around me. I shivered the moment I felt the contact, shutting my eyes tightly.“Sorry… so sorry.” Words came out clearer. Not in the voices that haunted me but in a sole familiar voice.“Let’s count backwards. Is that okay? Follow me. 1… 2… 3.”She repeated the numbers and I didn't know when I followed along.Slowly, the voices in my head began to slip into nothing. So lost in the motions, I barely noticed that my breathing had returned to normal.I slumped from the exhaustion falling further into her embrace. Despite that her natural scent was another scent, one that further appealed to my senses, I latched onto it. Every whiff of it calmed me down faster.“I’m so sorry, Karina. I should know better… shouldn't have pushed.” Isabella's voice came out clearer than before.Her tone was remorseful, I vaguely realised.It took another minut
Karina.‘I hope you make the right decision.’‘will that make you happy?’I shut my eyes tightly to ward off the conflict brewing in my mind. There was so much to unpack, but I couldn't do it today.Sighing despondently, I moved to the kitchen, whipping up a quick cup of tea.I had hoped that after Levi's restful sleep, he would adjust once more. Unfortunately, the next day his wails started again. It took a long time and energy to put him back to a good state.I had barely gotten any rest after. Not when my mind was filled with other worries, and especially not after the disaster of a reveal I had the day before.It was the day after, early in the morning that a small ‘meeting’ was held by Isabella at my request. In front of the majority of the people I knew, I revealed that I wasn't fully honest with them. To my surprise however, most of them took it better than I expected, partly.Sam had stormed out after and before I could reach her, she gave me a glare that clearly spoke to avoi
Karina.The last of my luggage was hefted into a couch like all the rest. I wiped the sweat off my face.So much had happened in a rush, but I wouldn't have it any other way. Three days after I made that call, I had to tie up all my loose ends. I had to return to Lola's café, resigning. Whilst Willa was sad, hugging me tightly, Lola acted as expected.“I won't be able to see you go, but you'll always have a place here. Also kiss Levi goodbye for me.” She had spoken.Secretly, I wouldn't tell her that I was banking on her words. I merely smiled and nodded.With a large cup of my favourite milk tea and a hug, I was sent on my way, newly unemployed.Announcing my departure to Isabella and the rest of the pack didn't take long. They were shocked, especially when only a few days before I had announced the vague truth of my identity and being mated to Connor, but they all took it in stride.There was a catch that I hadn't told anyone though. One that was kept solely between him and I.“You
KarinaThe drive was tense through the silence. Only the sound of the road and the slight breathing in the car filled the empty vacuum, but it wasn't enough. For the first few minutes it was okay, but it had been nearing two hours filled with tense silence. I used my phone to ease the tension, but using it on a drive had never sat well with me, causing me to get motion sick. I had to stop once I felt my belly churn from the pure nausea. When Levi suddenly cried, gaining both our attention, I took the chance to feed him, focusing on something to ignore the tension. Connor didn't say a word throughout, looking away.Now almost five hours had passed without saying a word, and I was getting antsy. Levi was asleep again and rocking him only did so much.No music played to ease the drive. I could sleep in theory, but I was on constant alert, as I always was when going to a new place. It had become second nature by now and I couldn't turn it off, even if I wanted to.The only other option wa
Karina.I felt myself writhing in the darkness. Faces and voices filled my ears. I could barely recall any of them, but I felt myself struggling under their hold.Was this where he was taking me all this time? Where was he? Where was Levi?Slight pressure pushed against me. I couldn't tell where it was coming from, but the more it did, all the things surrounding me faded away.“Ina… up… Karina.”His voice felt faint but so very familiar. What was I missing?“Karina.”“No…” I groaned. My eyes felt heavy as I lifted them, anchoring myself to the real world.As I opened them fully, I met darkness, illuminated by very few lights. I squinted against the darkness as I felt more pressure on my shoulder.“Karina?” I blinked blearily, stretching my neck to face Connor.His face was mere inches away from mine, eyes full of something akin to worry. I wasn't too sure if it was the sleep fooling my eyes or if it was real.“We’re here?” The words slipped out of my mouth as my memories came back to
Karina.I stepped into the house in silence, shifting my gaze around whilst trying to not make it too obvious. The place was truly luxurious yet somewhat minimalist.“Please sit.” They gestured to the large couch in the living space.I did so accordingly, shifting slightly and doing my best not to fumble as they did the same.Levi, despite being asleep was like a shield, wedging a distance between me and the rest of them. Guilt flooded me at the thought, but I pushed it away.“Connor had told us about you.”‘Only good things I'm sure.’ I would have joked if not for the tension brewing in me. I looked at both of them interchangeably for a moment before looking down.I could only nod hesitantly, mind brewing for whatever was going to hapoen next.An awkward silence filled the air, capturing is all in its tension for a short minute.“We’ve prepared the room for her.” I heard his mother say. I could tell it wasn't focused on me.“Thank you.” He said just as I finally looked up. “I'm so so
Karina.The next morning, I woke up lethargic and panicked. It took time for my memories to come back until I processed that I was no longer in my bedroom.Levi had kept me up for most of the night. It had been late when I'd finally gotten reprieve. Moving to his cot I smiled to myself at his sleeping face. Now he was at peace for the time being.On the other hand…I tore my gaze away from him to the unpacked luggage from the day before. A sigh left me immediately.I still had plenty of work to do.Time passed quickly as I dealt with unpacking my luggage, arranging every trinket and clothes I brought from home to the path I visualised. By the time I was done, there came a knock on the door.I snapped toward it immediately. Was it Connor again? I pondered the question, dropping the clothing hanger as I rushed toward the door, opening it to see…‘Oh.’It wasn't him. Instead, a young teenage girl stood at the doorway, seemingly meek.“Excuse me,” she muttered. “The former Luna called m