Chapter 46

Alex

I have no idea what just happened, she rocked my world, I had stars in my eyes and white flashes of light. What is concerning me the most, is how I actually feel. Tenderness. I never kiss a girl’s hands or fingers, I never take the time to stroke their skin, I am not that kind of guy. I am definitely a fuck them and leave them or kick them out kind of guy. I know that sounds brutal but trust me after watching my folks fight and argue all the time as I kid and my old man leaving, I have no desire for attachment or commitment. It’s deep seated. Should I see a shrink? Who knows, possibly. Only I won’t. I have made my mind up about non-committal and that’s pretty much it. Yet, here laying with Madi by myside her head now resting on my shoulder, one arm slung across my chest, it’s making my heart race, my heart feels……… Full. Fuck, I think I’m in trouble.

My instinct is to wrap her tightly in my arms and to protect her, to guard and shield her from everything, the outside world. Not t