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Chapter Fifty Three
"Do you feel better now?" I sighed and smiled. It was probably a wrong decision that I added Enrique on my speed dial in case of emergency when I didn't want him to worry about my anxiety attacks and relapses. Besides, I didn't want to bother him since I know he's busy with his work and the cafe... it was really bad timing.
"I'm okay now..." I uttered, checking my watch in case I'm going late but I still had ample time to spare. "I'm sorry I called."
Enrique sighed, "Hey... never think that you're bothering me, Kath, okay? I'm always here to help."
I nodded, "I'll ask around if I can find a therapist. I probably need one now," I say, looking at myself in front of the mirror. At least, I wasn't looking terrible after that meltdown. "I'm running late... Call me when you're free, okay?"
"I know you'll be busy. Just call me whenever, I'll wait." I smiled.
I hung up the phone first since I'll probably just end up talking to Enrique if I didn't. I
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