Walk Of Shame

This time when I walk to the bar, it’s not because my mom told me to act a mess. It’s because I need to forget the way those two make me feel.

I can’t believe how, even after what they did, they still have the power to make me feel like I’m nothing but putty in their hands.

Could it be a trauma response? Possibly. I think I’ve seen somewhere that victims sometimes are so messed up in the head, they end up liking what their abusers did. Maybe that’s the case here. Damon did not only hurt me that one time, he stalked me for months before he had the guts to do something about it. He psychologically abused me before he ever touched me. He would call me terrible names and give me those evil eyes all the time.

And Aiden… I always knew he had a scary ability to become a different person depending on who he had in front of him. I knew logically that he’s a master manipulator, but I stupidly thought he wouldn’t hurt me because he didn’t have any reason to.

I should’ve known he doesn’t need a