Chapter 7 Duke and May

May pov

I'm holding the cutest little boy ever as he eats pancakes and I drink my broth. I had to explain I was sick and unable to eat pancakes with him and he looked sad.

"I share with you",but I nod no.

"sorry baby I can't eat that yet but when I can I will share with you",I absolutely love kids but I won't let Duke know that. He probably doesn't want me in any way because I was raped. I still have freaking nightmares and flashbacks.

"okay we snuggle?",I look at him and melt.

"sure but first I gotta potty",he giggles something I love to hear. Duke looks at him and looks relieved I bet this little guy misses his mom so damn much. I push the call light and doc walks in.

"you rang?",I smile.

"I gotta potty",I smile at Lucas softly. He pushes my blanket back and tries to help me up but I stop him.

"I'm to big baby, I ruffle his hair, but thanks I come back we can snuggle and watch cartoons ",he nods happy and I walk to the bathroom and hold in tears. I always wanted pups but I know damn