HAZELSunlight pours into the bedroom, pulling me from my slumber. The thick smell of sex from only hours before and the smell of bacon frying in a pan fill my senses. The soft sounds of slow, classical music plays downstairs, along with Myles' laughter.I rub my eyes and glance at the alarm clock on Ramon's side of the bed. I haven't over slept, and I'm completely thankful for that. However, if it were up to me I could probably sleep in all day today. My body is sore and I could use a bit more rest. However, instead of doing what my body begs me to do, I climb out of bed and tug on Ramon's shirt from the previous night.Our wolves are reconnected in more than just a sensual way. Bringing us together like that connects our wolves, giving us a greater understanding in our minds, bodies, and hearts. I can physically feel his relief after what he had done, and I have no shame in it. After all, I did marry the man. I'm allowed to get dick whenever I feel like it. No shame.Entering the ba
HAZEL"What the hell are you doing?" Ramon asks, making me jump. I glance back down the the computer and try my best to think of what his password might be. Ramon won't tell me what's going on."What's your password?""You won't find what you're looking for on there, Hazel." He says lowly, leaning against the doorframe. I glare at him and raise me eyebrow until he gives me his password. "My little wolf." He sighs.I type in the password, and a photo of the two of us on our wedding day pops up as his background. Files line both sides of the computer, each carefully labeled and alphabetized. My eyes wander around hopelessly, because I'll never be able to know what he's not telling me without a label."Just give up. I know you better than to keep something like that on my computer." He sighs out loud. I glance over at him before falling back in the chair. Crossing my arms over my chest I pout in my husbands direction."Just tell me-" I grumble. "It can't be that bad-can it?" Thinking ove
HAZELSitting on the edge of the bed, I sip on a mug of hot tea. The aroma fills my nose while Ramon's soft snores fill my ears. The house is quiet, and since Ramon has fallen asleep I've been stuck alone; thinking.I bring the mug to my lips and then back into my lap. My mind is on a constant replay of everything that has happened to me in the past year. To us. This year seems to be a huge disappointment. Not only were we told that we won't be able to have a baby; that Ramon has been waiting so long for, but the only family we have is dead within a blink of an eye.Without a doubt, I am happy with Ramon. Up until now, I've never hated life. Since this year has began, I don't think that I've stayed genuinely happy in quite a while- and I know that Ramon knows that. I also know that deep down, he is just as unhappy. I just hope that what ever it is, is something we can work through. I love him too much and I'm terrified to even think about him letting me go.I run my fingers through my
HAZELLight shimmers it's way through the curtains, lighting the room with hues of orange and yellow. Carefully I turn to face the clock on the bedside table and sigh out loud at what it reads.6:12am.It is only a few hours ago when Ramon and I finally went to bed. The only reason we did is because he finally got tired. My body aches, but somehow I manage to reach out to touch him. Instead of touching his warm body like I expect; I touch the ice cold space where his body was when I fell asleep last night.I knit my eyebrows together in confusion and glance towards the bathroom but it's empty. He's not in there! The satisfaction I had before is replaced with disappointment. I never ask Ramon to stay with me; but shouldn't that just be a routine? Even if I am married to the man, waking up alone after a night like ours; still makes me feel like I'm only wanted for sex. No matter how much I know it isn't true- it still tends to get to me.Sitting up in the bed, I look around at my surrou
HAZELAs the days drag into weeks, and the weeks into months, the only thing coursing through my veins is sadness and the thought of Ramon. I would be alright without him, but the truth be told; I am nothing without that man. He was the one who brought out my happiness, in it's most pure state. The feeling of his embrace was what kept me asleep all night long. Now I find myself waking up every hour of the night, reaching for someone who isn't there. Bertha and Jack always try and keep my mind off of that man, but nothing works. It comes in spurts: I am okay but then five seconds later my mood completely changes. I don't understand how one man can change my life completely.My heart yearns to be with the man that I love, the one who has changed me into a wife, a lycan, and most of all a woman. It was so childish of me to put my own wants before his needs. All he ever wanted was for me to be happy, and I wouldn't even let him get that. I would love to hear from him just one more time. I
HAZELI wake up feeling the worst I have felt in months. It isn't a sickness in my stomach making me need to throw up. It's the type of feeling where you know what you have done is wrong and you just want to punish yourself in any way possible. My body still tingles as I roll over, feeling the warmth of the body next to my own.The heavy breathing next to my ear warms my neck, and the grip Ramon has around my waist is like that of a cobra's. I try my best to keep my heavy eyes open, but exhaustion is beating me right now. I shut my eyes and tell myself just five more minutes.I lie there in my thoughts, wondering why I have just let him in so easily. Maybe he would have changed his mind and taken me back? No. Ramon doesn't get influenced by that. He wouldn't. Maybe it's the fact that I desperately wanted him in ways that I shouldn't have, and I cannot blame it on my heat either. I wanted it even before I went into heat. Does that make me an awful person?I shouldn't have given in as e
HAZELThe car ride home with Ramon is silent. Other than when he tried to start a conversation with me by asking me what the hell I thought I was doing out running while I'm in heat. It really isn't the kind of thing you say to someone who you just left with your friends. Ramon's grip on the steering wheel looks like it's going to break it, and he's going unreasonably fast. I must have pissed him off.When we pull into the driveway, Ramon puts the car in parking mode and turns to look at me. His jaw is clenched, and his hair is a mess. "Please never run off like that again, Hazel. I was worried sick about you." He goes to reach for my arm and I jerk away."You were worried about me?" I furrow my eyebrows. "You didn't call or anything while I was staying with Jack and Bertha. You didn't care how I was doing, so don't you dare say that you were worried sick about me after you got what you wanted from me." I growl loudly. "You, the first time you see me all you want to do is to sleep wit
HAZEL'Do you really think that I will be loyal to an animal?' I growl, managing to scratch his face with my claws. He stumbles and loses his balance.'You are weak and you need me. Don't forget that.' I hiss. Things have escalated quickly. His wolf is being extremely dominant right now. I continue to test his patience.Ramon growls and it echos through the house. 'The only thing I need from you right now is between your pretty little legs. If not that, you have no other use for me!' he confesses and I immediately tense.I lunge at Ramon, sending us both flying into a table. The sound of glass crashing fills my ears. I snap my teeth at his face, missing it by only a few millimeters. Instantly, it turns really violent, very quickly.I cannot believe that that's the man who I decided to marry. I really thought that he was better than what he actually is. My mind is racing and my body is aching, but he has hurt me for the last time. I will either come out of this by myself, or dead.Ramo