I’m the big sister, I wish I could be better at it. Levi’s men had arrived to pick us up and we left. Grey was all the way talking to Luther and he seemed happy.
It’s good otherwise I would’ve blamed myself for ruining my brother’s childhood. I still won’t compromise with it even though I’m stuffed with the debt.
“Boyfriend uncle!!!” My brother shrieked with happiness as soon as his eyes landed on him. Levi picked him up in his arms and his men started logging my suitcases off.
I took a deep breath before walking inside my hell for an indefinite expanse of time, we directly walked toward Grey’s room.
A room filled with toys and cars, my eyes looking at the sparkle Grey was shedding. I realized how selfish I was.
Thinking I’m providing my brother with everything, I was doing nothing at all. There were so many things he still hasn’t seen.
“Grey, go to sleep, we’ll play tomorrow.” I ordered, and surprisingly he listened to me. I mouthed a ‘thank you’ to Jamie and she smiled back.
We walked towards mine, I didn’t care if he even gave me little than nothing but my room was comparatively huge too.
The gigantic walls, painted a soft, pastel pink that creates a tranquil atmosphere. The furniture is white and simple, but full of personality pops of bright colors in the accent pieces.
There’s a snug daybed in the middle, piled with colorful pillows and a cozy, fuzzy blanket. It is all so colorful unlike my life...
I turned to look at Levi amused at me. “Do you like it?” He questioned and I dryly nodded going inside.
Levi followed, his gaze at mine as I placed my bag on the table. “You want to do it now?” I queried.
“No, you’re tired it seems.” He declined abruptly.
“Then, how about you leave!!” I didn’t want to look at him or even think about him which was theoretically impossible since I’ll be living in his house now.
“I’m adding one more rule… the debtor must respect the creditor.” He chuckled, it was all a game to him, having the rope of my life, it must be fun, right?
“Earn it!!” I went inside the bathroom to wash my face and went back to sleep. He was gone and the loss of his scent made me feel alone than ever. I couldn’t however, and tossed my body around multiple times.
I heard a knock!! “Little bird?” My body flinched as I heard Levi standing at the door. It’s time…
I opened it and he stormed inside. “Lie down.” He commanded, I sauntered toward my bed as he followed.
This is the first time I’ve seen him in casuals, a loose t-shirt, but taut enough to flex the muscles that hide under rigid suits. Light grey joggers, bright unlike him, is he really a mafia? He ran his fingers through his black hair and lay beside me.
I don’t know what he was doing until he suddenly pulled me closer wrapping his huge arms around my tiny waist.
My back contacted his chest, his warm breath falling on the nape of my neck. “Good night!!” He whispered and pulled me closer into his frame, heat arced through my body but before his touch could linger, I pushed him back.
“We talked about sex!!” I roared; my heart is not able to take this anymore. I don’t want any signs of affection from him.
I felt butterflies fluttering within, I don’t know how they found their way to escape but they did. Ravenous and desperate for an unattended emotion.
“Whatever and whenever I said!!” He roared back. His pupil dilated however, he appeared to be calm.
“You’ll count it as sex?” I questioned lowering my tone, he grabbed my hand pulling me back into his embrace.
My face was buried inside his chest and he wrapped his arms around me as if was scared to let go. I thought it’ll be okay… but this is worse than sex.
Perilous. Detrimental. Deadening.
His hands on my hair gently stroking them. “Don’t worry I’m paying you back for that day!!” The day he became someone else?
Caress my head a bit, please.
Let’s remain like this for a while.
That hug, those emotions…
He whispered drawing my body even nearer and closed his eyes shut. I don’t want this in life, how cruel is he?
“Do you want me to fall in love with you so, you can rape me?” I mumbled, his eyes opening wide.
“Do I look like I wanted to rape you? If so, wouldn’t I have done it before?” His voice was low and expression unreadable. Hurt and disappointment coursing through his veins, reflecting agony but the grip he had on me was firm and robust.
I bet he did his research on me, I wish I could do the same and know why he’s being like this. “I won’t rape you if that’s what you’re worried about.” He exclaimed with a disturbed face, maybe... no! He is a beast.
“And about you falling for me, it can’t be helped.” He smirked; he was enjoying my vulnerability way too much.
I shut my eyes trying to fall asleep and surprisingly did, without taking any sleeping pills. His warm breath helped me, his scent citrus and sugar, it eased the tension and I hated it.
I hated this feeling of being comforted by someone, someone who’ll ruin my life. Make it worse than it already is and I hate how I’m getting swayed by it.
He is trying to destroy me because he knows I am tough; he finds it amusing how he considers my life a game he could play.
I know the end is not gonna be good since he is not the hero in my story because there’s no hero in it, he’s another phase that’ll push me five years back, where I came from.
Those horrible nights with hands tearing my clothes apart, the devil’s mockery and there he is, standing in the corner, laughing at me, feeling victorious.
I gasped loudly as if my breath was stuck in my throat, I gasped again. Drops of sweat appeared on my forehead and cries ripped out of my mouth. I rippled with dread and quaked with every breath I took.
“Hey… angel…” I heard a voice, opening my eyes, another nightmare.
I pushed him back. “Leave me…” I yelled, my eyes shuddering from the dread, and shielded my body with blankets.
He got up, and hugged me tightly, his hands on my back slowly caressing it, like he knows how to soothe a horrid nightmare.
“Go away…” I tried to push him but, he was too adamant and embraced me even tighter.
“It’s okay!!” He hushed me down patting my head, he was mocking me again. Watching me miserable, how his insides are twitching with joy.
It was just the beginning but it was starting to hurt me already, I closed my eyes again upon realizing my breath was even now.
“I promise, I will chase these nightmares away, I promise angel…” He whispered however; I was too numb to argue. I was too lost to tell him, no one can take them away.
I fell asleep to his continuous caresses on my head, his scent cajoling me to fall into a deep, deep, heaven of sleep.
Concord. Comfort. Relief.
The sun rose up finding its way in the room from the window and I found myself hidden in his arms.
My eyes gawked at his flawless face; eyelashes longer than they’re meant to be. A high nose bridge, and below that, lush lips that are gently curving into a smile.
A smile… I repeat.
He would’ve been an innocent kid, look what he did to himself. I sighed knowing I’m no better than him.
My life is way worse than his, at least he has money. I stood up when he swiftly grabbed my hand hauling me.
“Where are you going?” He murmured groggily. His morning voice, too pure, innocence dripping off of him.
I felt my insides twitching and my heart heaved with the want to touch him.
“I don’t know how you do it, but I’m glad you won’t be doing it anymore.”
He implicated me in having sex with random people.
“I wasn’t given a choice.”
I jerked his hand off of mine and stood up, I went inside the bathroom to take a shower.
“Come out in ten minutes, I’m going to check on Grey.” He ordered and I gasped loudly, Grey!!
I hurriedly took a shower looking at the clock, he is not up anymore, he is going to be late for school.
I rushed towards his room and calmed before barging inside. “Grey!! Get u---.” I saw the bed empty and looked around in search of him.
“Where’s Grey?” I rushed to find someone, Jamie, Luther, anyone. No one was here.
“He’s left for school already!!” Levi uttered and I turned around.
My carelessness would drive us apart, for the first time Grey didn’t wait for me, he didn’t wake me up. I didn’t see his face early in the morning.
All because I’m too selfish to think about myself. Because I was with him, the first day in his house and my life is half-ruined already.
Tragedies love me while happiness loathes my existence.
“I’ll be leaving now…” His lips crooked into a huge curve. He looked everything but innocent unlike this morning. His face just lit up and I felt my heart twisting into a knot, a tight one. Why am I thinking about him?
His eyes were on me, and I felt my heart swell with emotions. His gaze was filled with love and admiration at least that’s what I thought, and felt a warm blush rising on my cheeks.
Like I was the only one he had his eyes on, everything inside me melted away, and he grew closer and closer.
I couldn’t move back, my body wouldn’t comply with my brain, he looked in my eyes and then at my lips brushing his tongue around his own lips.
I gulped in nervousness, what is this feeling? What is stirring inside me? His, another step in my direction, and we had no space left between us.
I swallowed again, his face inches apart from mine. Move, Grace… step back!! My mind yelled but something shut it down.
A force, a hungry horn and I failed.
My legs felt numb and dead, and the moment he extended his hand to touch me, his phone rang. His eyes went wide along with mine and he stumbled to a halt.
He seemed more flabbergasted than I was, he became sloppy all of a sudden and ran turning his back on me.
His phone kept on ringing until he finally picked it up. “What?”
He yelled and that was all I could hear, my steps faltering as well, I placed my hand on the wall trying to catch my breath, and ease this pain inside my heart.
Levi is toying with my brain, no my heart. And the only feeling I can detect for now is resentment.
I went all slovenly doing nothing, a few days ago my life was so busy that I could barely make time to sleep.
But now, I’m free with everything, I'm left alone with all my mental pressure of escaping from this house.
He does nothing but still manages to torture me. Torment me without touching me. His gaze is enough to make my insides twist and I feel wet…
I feel wet down there, in need to be touched. An unknown feeling, I’ve never wanted to touch myself, not this eagerly that I would tear my clothes apart just to find my way between my legs. Find his way between my legs.
I heard someone opening the door, I chose to sleep next to Grey but it felt like a bad idea. I sprung up from the bed and saw him entering inside with faint voice.
“Shhh… he’s gonna wake up.” It was him, Levi, he came back. He picked me up in his arms and took me to his room.
Grace-He closed the door making a loud sound and thumped my body on his bed. Loosening his tie, he got on top of me.I’m too sober for this, I need alcohol before my demons come back rushing in. I gulped in nervousness as he grew closer.If he asked me, that if I wanted to do this, I couldn’t have said no because that’s how much my body was craving for it.And not just that, I can’t even say ‘no’. That document was well-thought, poor people like me get played just like this in the hands of rich ones.“Strip!!” he sat down on the bed, I swallowed in nervousness and got up from the bed. I removed a layer of my clothing, then another and then another.I stood before him. I’ve never felt so naked in my career of working as a prostitute before, he grabbed my hand and took my hairband off letting all my hair fall down.He ruffled his fingers through them and hissed loudly.“Nobody knows how dangerous you are until they see you how you are now, naked, messed hair, incredibly persuasive and
Grace-I woke up running outside his room, I can’t believe it, so fucking embarrassing. Last night, I barged inside his room like I’d conquer the world.What did I do? I slept on his lap; this wasn’t the first time I got drunk but this definitely was the first time I slept after turning someone on.“Grace… stop.” Levi was following me; I know he’s making fun of me deep inside. A prostitute who isn’t even good at her job.“You can add $10,000 more if that’s what you’re worried about.” I face-palmed him with my hands.“Did you have a good sleep?” he snickered at my face, my eyes glaring to grope his neck in my hands and press that god damn button of his life.“No… but seriously, you slept well, Angel?” I started leaving when he suddenly wrapped his hands on me, my heart skipped a beat, again. He’s been doing this ever since I met him.Someone as broken as me, an angel? He placed his chin on my shoulder, breathing away the tension, passing it on to me.“I’m counting it as sex too…” I rep
Grace- ‘My love’‘My love’‘My love’ His voice stuck inside my head, “I’m n---not that w--- weak girl anymore…” I stood my ground. “You sure?” he snickered, his hands on my waist, my body shivering, my past came running through and stabbed me deep inside, his hands on my breasts. “I hate how I couldn’t be the first one to fuck you, I’m sick of being second!!” he grunted squeezing them, my eyes battled and I saw his veins pop out. “You’re n---not even last on my list!!” I shrieked biting his neck, he groaned placing his hand on the wound, I spat his blood from my mouth. He grabbed my hair throwing me towards his desk, “Five years of wait… and this is what I get?” he growled, my brain was shutting down, I was shutting it down because I didn’t want to be alive to see this happen to myself again. If only I could stop my heartbeat, did I survive through all that just to get back from where it started? No, I’m NOT that same girl anymore… I kicked him in the gut, he didn’t budge. “I
Grace- “…ace” I heard.“Grace” I heard and slowly opened my eyes. His worried eyes on me, his hands on mine, I sprung up from the bed. “Ughhh!” I groaned hitting a nerve suddenly, I found bandages on my head, “Careful.” Jamie uttered, Levi’s hands still in mine. Where were these hands when he was abusing me? I jerked them off of mine, my hands red with the scratches I made. He wasn’t saying anything, the doctor must've told me that I’ve had sexual intercourse recently, he’s planning to throw me outside with hell lot of a loan on my head. I tried to stand up however, found the IV drip on my other hand, “Careful dear…” Jamie gasped but I was still looking at him. ‘Say something’, I said to myself looking at his eyes. He looked the other way immediately, “I need to go see my brother, ask the doctor to remove it.” I grunted not wanting to bleed all over again. “Jamie… out!!!” he finally chose to speak, his secretary left quickly, the room filled with our silence. “You want to go t
Grace- I had to do something, “Levi, m---my head!!” I acted. A pathetic human like me, I tried to fool him, I fell on the ground, just to take away his attention from my phone, and I collapsed. “Grace…” he exclaimed and quickly picked me up in his arms, my eyes were closed but I was breathing, “Grace?” he called my name out, and I ignored him, “Doctor!!” he yelled. I don’t how I was surviving but felt like opening my eyes would ruin my world, I lay down like I’m not even alive, stiff like an iron rod. “What happened to her?” Jamie asked, "Hmmm..." the doctor replied. I couldn’t hear Levi’s voice, is he not here? Is he checking my phone? I opened my eyes abruptly, “Oh! You up?” the doctor exclaimed with joy, “I acted, dumbass!!” I got up running outside to see where he was. I checked his office, empty. I went into his room, empty. I even went to the training room, but he wasn’t there. Where is he? Has he gone to see Archie? Why would he do that? Maybe, because he sle
Grace- I’m still locked in that dark room, I wake up, I faint and then I wake up again, I don’t know if it’s day outside or night. I don’t know if the calendar moved or not, I kept on whimpering with fear until my nerves broke down and it all came back as it happened yesterday. Where is he? Why is he doing this to me? What have I done to him for it to turn out this crazy? What is my fault?‘What is my fault?’ ‘What is my fault?’ ‘What is my fault?’ ‘What is my fault?’ “What is my fault?” I yelled, trying to break free, let me go. I cried, and my eyes finally gave up pretending to be strong, they broke into tears. My eyelids tried to collect the water because this is what they know, this is what I taught them, ‘Hold it in’. but now they didn’t listen, because my soul was breaking. I feel like nothing could break me, but ever since I met him, even the smallest things are causing me huge ruins. “Let me… go.” I sniffled, hanging on the bed, at least turn the light on. I sobbed.
Grace- “Believe me I’m a slut!!” I blurted nonetheless; I don’t have the luxury to think about things like love. This is all momentarily pity. “What’s a slut?” “A woman with the morals of a man,” I explained. I know he’s trying to make me feel better in whatever way but no, I won’t fall for your tactics. I don’t want to be weak in this battle. And I will never let my guard down. “Grace… you’re---” I cut him off. “Your words will never make me feel at ease, it’ll only remind me of how broken my life is.” I face-palmed not wanting to look at him. He’s nothing like his brother, I won’t be surprised if they didn’t have a blood relation. But kindness isn’t cheap. ‘That fucking plutocrat’ I thought. “That fucking plutocrat,” I yelled. “Who?” Phoenix questioned. “Your brother…” I blurted and he smiled looking down at the ground. “I guess he is…” he was smiling, I didn’t know guys in the house have this ability. “You look good when you smile… you should smile often.”
Grace- “D---do you mind getting off of me?” I stuttered in a low voice, his gaze, fixated at mine. He didn’t wanna move. “Am I heavy?” he smirked whispering in my ear. “Huh? What? You being 6 feet tall, you weigh around 80-90 kg, your shoulders are so fucking broad, why would you be heavy? No, not at all!!” I smiled sarcastically. “Grace… you’re beautiful…” his lips close to my ear, his breath falling on my cheeks and I felt something stirring up inside me. “And I know you know it too…” he completed his sentence, his hands tucking a strand of hair behind my ear as his licked his tongue. Don’t do this… please don’t do this to me, I don’t want to be familiar with this feeling again, this makes me even sure that he isn’t afraid of his brother at all. “P---Phoenix, c---can you please get up!!” It took a toll on me complete this sentence however I did, no matter how bad it came out. “S---sure!!” he got up in panic and handed over the notebook to me. My hands on my towel, saving mys