The physical contact between me and these people I didn't know was uncomfortable as I was thrown from one arm to another. Who would have thought that an overly reserved and private person like Herman would have such affectionate relatives. Well all of them except for Shantel and her mother, who seemed to have had it out for me from the beginning.After those overly touchy introductions, I found myself hiding in Herman's office. Our room isn't fully furnished yet and I had originally planned on faking a bathroom break and secretly cornering Herman in his office. He, of course wasn't in here. He must have left for Brooklyn. Whoever his meeting over there a sure question to me.Now sitting here all alone on Herman's very comfortable office chair and simultaneously missing lunch, I sigh. Since morning I've had people pulling left right and center, forcing me into conversations I had no idea of, about baby names and mafia ruling. All this because of Dante. Remind me to kill him later. Now
•FIVE YEARS BEFORE •"Thea!" "Coming mum!" I called back taking one last look in the mirror at myself. The shimmery pink ball gown I had on made me feel like a princess as I span around loving the way the heavy skirt of the dress made me feel."Princess we are running..." Ricardo stopped dead in his trucks when he saw me and I blushed looking down at my dress."How do I look?" I asked him shyly. He took a few steps towards me and cupped my face, tucking a lose strand of hair behind my ear. "Beautiful..... absolutely beautiful." Pecking my forehead, he stepped back and smiled brightly at me. " They'll never know what hit them."I blushed," not if I don't tie my hair." I gestured to the pink ribbon around my wrist and Rico let out a small chuckle."Correct and I know just the person to do that for you. In the car, now let's go." He dragged me out of my room and down to the lobby of the hotel we were staying in for the week. Russia was very cold this time of year and I was grateful th
The message on my phone screen has me set in a trance of fear like no other. Why would I be blamed for the death of my wife's parents? And in a time like this, when she just let me in, when she's just started to actually trust me. "..I love you." Her words, like a whisper ring in my mind, caging me to a reality I once lived and now will surely be destroyed. I need to tell her about this but not before I have her one last time. How do I tell her? Frustrated, I let out a growl and feel the immense pressure settle on my throat and it bobs slightly. My suit feels suffocating and I loosen up my black tie and unbutton the top three buttons of my dress shirt. But the panicked feeling doesn't dissipate even a fraction and I scramble to fetch my pills from my jacket pocket. My hands are clumsy as I try to open the bottle as the blood pressure to my head feels so intense. The pills scatter to the car floor and I could vividly hear my beating heart and the movements of my blood inside my blood
'Intermittent explosive disorder (IED)involves frequent episodes ofimpulsive anger that's out ofproportion to the event that triggeredit. These outbursts can result inphysical harm to the person with IED, other people or animals.'The words of the Google research I ran when I was younger ring in my ears till today as I stare blankly at the medication I need to take to control it. After the incident in the basement that almost killed me, I had woken up in the hospital with flashbacks from a life I didn't understand. Besides me was a familiar face of someone my memory declared as dead and that scared me to almost death. Not knowing it was my mother's twin, Genesis.That of course, led me into waking up a second time to a doctor's friendly face, a nurse waiting right behind him. I was only ten at the time and I didn't even remember who I was. I didn't even feel confident to speak for months after getting out of the hospital because of fear. And when the nightmares came, all I could
The silence in the car was deafening as we neared our destination with every passing second. Then my phone rang out of the blue and that's the only time Thea looked up at me from her phone screen. I think she was reading something, sitting sideways in her seat, facing me. "Cherry blossom, autopilot." I commanded and let go of the steering wheel."Autopilot engaged," the car answered, doing what I commanded it to."Woah! That's definitely cool. How?"Pulling out my phone I squinted at the caller ID, willing her to stop calling me. "I had it custom made. It's bullet proof, has re-inflatable tires, a machine gun and a whole other things.""Can I have it?" My phone stopped ringing and I put it back in my pocket then turned my attention to Thea's awe stricken face."No," I smile at her sweetly."Why not?" She whines "Because it's mine," I point out. "And besides, your not allowed to go anywhere without protection.""But cherry blossom is enough protection," she protests."Protection mode
Control. A small word but a very tough thing to attain. I struggled with control issues from a tender age. How to get it, how to use it and everything in between. My up tightness led me into using most women to exercise that power. Vanilla type of sexual intercourse was so easy and it didn't help me much when it came to that dark feeling inside. So I ventured into another type of sex, I wanted more. A girl named Cathy taught me some few things. She was a senior at my university. While grace thought I was going to parties to have fun, I was actually whipping, flogging and biting Cathy every chance I got. Until one day, well, she graduated. After a few more months I did too but I never saw her again. The urges though didn't stop. I just loved seeing the pain on her face so much. It drove me insane so I started occasionally getting myself involved with women. They seemed to love it and it drove them crazy when I didn't want them anymore. That's when I understood that women secretly lov
•THEA•My heart was beating too fast as my mind went blank at the blinding lights advancing on us. The vehicle was definitely a huge truck and my life immediately started flashing before my eyes. The feel of my chest tightening partly felt like I was going through cardiac arrest as I waited for my pending doom only for the truck to disappear from my line of sight as the car jerked and I felt myself hit my forehead into the window. The unmistakable sound of the car being hit broke through my ear drum and I felt two hands grab me. We both hit something hard and I heard a sickening crack. After, it all went silent and I waited for Lucifer to greet me. "Thea?" Water splashed on my face and I opened my eyes taking in a breath. The unfocused version of the devil greeted me as his eyes glowed. Blinking a few times to clear my vision, I found myself being scrutinized by the devil, who surprisingly resembled my husband. Truly, Herman was the devil.His mouth is moving but his words sound muff
“No matter how much she denies it. Her heart still beats for me”-Unknown.__________________________________________________________ •Herman•Cradling my wife to my chest, I feel her small hand search my back for a weapon. Once she pulls out the revolver from my belt loop she aims it at my head and my sober mind finds the attempt pointless. Death isn't something I'm afraid of and her not knowing that is a big mistake.The latch clicked," you murdered my parents." She accuses. "You believe so," I reply feeling a little bored. Accepting accusations became something I'm accustomed to as each time I denied, my father would inflict pain on me. Soon, it became a part of me and I did nothing to change that."Why?" She powered through her emotions to sound normal."I think," I pulled her face back so we can gaze into each other's eyes," this is the part you kill me." I whispered, taunting her into committing murder. I felt her finger tighten around the trigger and once I was sure wa