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Amber

Lexy Fucken Mattews

I don't know what exactly this girl is doing to me, but I don't like it...I don't like it at all.

I am unconsciously creating a small part of my black heart for this woman to slip inside.

I woke up this morning and found myself holding this girl like my life depended on it to survive.

I saw myself in the most vulnerable position in the world, and she was holding me back!

Like I couldn't move at a point, I felt like I was breaking inside.

I started having this nostalgic feeling and it was driving me nuts.

It reminded me of my mother, it reminded me how close she use to hold it me... and fuck it was breaking me

I pulled away sharply and she stirred.

I immediately regretted it.

I was lucky she didn't wake up.

Fuck this woman is beautiful... like sometimes I wonder how the fuck she's married to me.

I remembered last night, and everything that happened.

I can't believe I actually told her to stay back....and she fucken did...damn!

I took a deep breath in and rele