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3 weeks...three fucken weeks and Amber hasn't spoken to me.. it's fucken killing me.

I can't even draw anything reasonable without him drifting his way into my mind.

I don't know but he's been rather calm lately. He's barely at home and the few times he's around, he's in his room or he's in his office.

I've been trying honestly .... maybe a little too hard but I'm looking really stupid these days just trying to get him to talk.

I'm sorry but I'm lonely in this place...most of the time I talk to James, Aaron and I don't really relate that well and Asher isn't a social person. Mrs Williams has a lot of things doing and Sam has work to do.

Honestly if I didn't get this studio....I don't know how I would have survived

But I still need company..I know I said I wanted every damn space and all....but like it's way too much.

And I feel like we just started getting along... now this?

I looked at the time....it was 10:56pm.

I could actually stay longer till like midnight honestly... because th