Chapter 44

From Jared's POV

I hated myself - I hated that I had made a deal with this entity now consuming my body. I would have never agreed if I had known everything he was planning. All I wanted was my wolf, and now that seemed as though it would never happen. I felt powerless and helpless. I had no one to turn to, no one to help me or understand my dilemma. I was alone, and I felt like I was going crazy.

Then there was Alessia on top of everything else. Whenever I thought of her, I couldn't stop thinking about all that I had done to her. The things I subjected her to were beyond anything I would allow my sister or mother to endure. The worst part about the entire thing was that I had done these things to maintain my title, which no longer existed. While I sat and thought about everything, I couldn't help but wonder if Selene had been testing me all along. If that was the case, I was in a difficult position as a result of not seeing it until now.

My feelings of hatred for myself increased as