Chapter 1.2

[1.2]

Habang nagkaklase kami ay wala ako sa sarili. Tulala at malalim ang iniisip. Nakailang beses nang magtanong si Ash sa akin kung okay lang ba daw ako. Sa bawat tanong niya ay tanging tango at ngiti lang ang aking sagot.

"Hoy, tulala ka na naman. Ayos ka lang ba talaga?" Here she goes again. Nilapat niya ang kanyang palad sa aking leeg at noo na para bang chinicheck ang aking temperatura kung may lagnat ba ako o wala.

"Sabihin mo nga sakin, nag away ba kayo ni Errol at ganyan ka?" I shook my head at her question. But at her look right now, I think she doesn't buy my answer this time.

"You know, you can always tell me if you two had a problem-whatsoever," she said, rolling her eyes. "I'm also your best friend."

"I'm fine. Really," I replied while smiling at her.

"Fine, fine. E kanina ka pa kaya wala sa sarili mo! You're getting me worried." she pouted her pinkish lips. aww, my cousin a. k. a best friend looks so cute.

Inakbayan ko siya kaya't tumingin siya sa akin. I smile widely at her. "Oh come on! I'm totally fine." I look at myself then back to her. "See? nothing to worry about."

"Okay fine! Kanina kasi kapag tinatawag ka nakatulala ka lang, ni hindi mo naririnig e, kailangan ko pang sumigaw para lang marinig mo ako." I just laughed at her statement.

"Okay sige, hindi na mauulit." And she just roll her eyes at what I said.

After that, we had our lunch together at the cafeteria. Maybe my mind was too occupied about what I saw when we were about to enter the school gate. But I can't be so wrong, I saw it. The animal was looking at me. Hindi ko alam kung may nakakita pa bang iba sa hayop na 'yon. Sa parte kasi kung saan ko nakita ang hayop na 'yon ay may mga punong nakatayo ay hindi masyadong nakikita at pinagtutuunan ng pansin ng mga tao ang parteng iyon.

I shook my head. And convince me that it was just a hallucination.

Noong nasa practicum naman kami, Ashley always shouts at me. Even our Teacher, keeps on calling my name more like multiple times? She thought I might have been sick but I told them that I'm totally fine and good thing they bought my reason.

But when they called my name, again and again, I already told them that I'm sick so I go out of the class. Good thing our teacher isn't that strict so she said that I'll just pass the project tomorrow morning.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit masyado kong iniisip ang nakita kaninang umaga. Ganoon naman kasi tayo minsan 'di ba? May mga bagay tayong nakikita natin na minsan akala natin ay guni-guni lang natin. Halimbawa na lang ay may okasyon kang pinuntahan sa malayong lugar tapos may isang tao kang nakita na parang kamukha ni ganito ganyan na taga roon sa inyong lugar. Minsan nga e pinakatitigan mo pa 'yong taong iyon makumpirma mo lang sa sarili mo na kamukha siya ng isang kakilala mo. Tapos minsan, akala mo 'e baka guni-guni mo lang iyon.  

Until now, I keep convincing myself that it was just my hallucination. I think it's because of the story tita Rina told last night.

Damn that story!

I shake my head and sigh heavily before I take another bite at my hamburger. Si Ashley naman ayon, daldal ng daldal habang kumakain.

Mabusog kaya siya niyan?

Hindi ko maintindihan 'yong sinasabi niya at inalintana na lang ang pagkain.

Mas mahalaga 'yong pagkain!

We finished our food peacefully. Ilang minuto pa kami nakaupo bago napagdesisyunan na umalis na roon para makakain na rin ang iba pang studyante. Tumayo kami at naglakad na palabas ng cafeteria upang pumunta sa aming Science class. We had the same class since pareho naman na kami ng section. Section A.

Habang naglalakad ay pinilit ko talagang huwag isipin ang nakita kaninang umaga. Trying hard bes! Mahahalata na naman kasi yan ni Ash. Ayokong mag-alala siya sakin. She knows me too well, since sabay kaming lumaki at iisa lang ang nagpalaki sa aming dalawa. Her mom. My tita to be exact. My mother's sister.

What does it feel like? What does it feel when your mom took care of you? when you had a dad? well, I don't know what it feels like. I never had one, I mean I wouldn't exist without my mom and my dad, it's just that, I didn't.... met them. Even in a glimpse. I just saw a picture of my mom, but that's when she was in grade school.

 Tita Rina was like my real mother. Pero mas maganda pa rin kung meron akong tunay na nanay na nag-aalaga sa akin. And a father. But Ashley didn't saw her father either, so, she didn't know what it feels. Atleast she has her mother with her, unlike me.

But I still thank God for having tita Rina and Ashley in my life. Sila iyong nandito sa tabi ko, kaya 'wag ng maghanap ng iba at magpasalamat na lang.

Nang dumaan kami sa tapat ng room ng juniors ay may nakikita kaming naglalampungan sa loob ng classroom nila. Kitang-kita sila dahil nasa may bintana pa talaga sila pumwesto!

Hindi ba nila alam na bawal iyan?

Hello? Nasa public po kayo! PDA kayo oy! Ma-guidance sana kayo. Sumbong niyo nga!

Teka, wala man lang bang magsusumbong sa guidance?

(A/N: Ikaw na lang. Ikaw nakaisip e.)

Thalia: *roll eyes

Bitter ka selp? Wala ka lang kasing lablayp.

Lampungan pa more!

 SS sa inyo.

S-saya now, iyak

S- soon

"Grabe! Daig pa tayo ng Freshmen! Sila may mga jowa, tayong seniors wala!" I laughed at Ashley na sinabayan ko ng pag-iling as she rolled her eyes.

Tama nga naman siya. Pansin ko rin naman e, halos iyong mga freshmen may mga jowa. Iyong iba nga nakatatlong ex's na e, iyong iba hindi lang tatlo! Marami na! Tapos kaming mga seniors walang jowa.

Ako nga isa pa lang naging ex ko e. Iyon nga lang nakipag break ako sa kanya kasi mas mahal niya pa daw iyong ex niya. Nakita ko nga silang naghahalikan sa CR sa isang mall e. Halikan lang nakita ko ha, wala ng iba, hmp!

Ashley and I both have one ex. Her ex had broken her up too because he said that Ashley doesn't have big b*obs.

What a stupid reason isn't it? Big b*obs, 'yon lang habol niya? e 'di wow. Kung big b*obs lang naman habol niya, e 'di sex din?

:)