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Alec’s POV
Her words kept repeating in my head, kept gnawing at me.
For once I wasn’t angry at her, I was angry at myself, at being proven wrong and inadequate, and giving her a chance to hurt me again using my own mistakes against me.
I should have been better. I should have worked harder to keep my pack safe and taken more responsibilities instead of depending on my brother to run things I didn’t like to deal with. I’m not saying my greater goal is irrelevant, but I should be capable of picking the fights I can win more thoroughly.
“Hey, sorry for being late” Ryan said as he entered the dining room with his mate walking a step behind him.
I was sitting at the head of the dining table waiting for them to join me for breakfast, while my mate’s words were running inside my head on repeat.
Ryan told me briefly through the mind link last night that he wanted to make Mila a part of the pack in addition t
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About The Songs Hello! This is a note about the songs that Alec heard from Andrea. I wanted to put the lyrics so you could feel what Alec felt when he heard those words and really felt them in her voice, felt the pain, the agony, and her emotional struggles. He also felt how much she longs for love, warmth, and safety in other songs too. Putting them within the chapter would have made the chapter cost more just for reading song lyrics and that’s why I decided to put them within an author’s note. If you are really interested to read the words that touched Alec’s heart and made him hate her a little less, carry on reading and tell me what you think of them. Here are the songs: The first song she sang; the one she prepared for her audition, is called go easy on me by Adele. There ain’t no gold in this river That I’ve been washin’ my hands in forever I know there is hope in these waters But I can’t bring myself to swim When I am drowning in this silence Baby, let me in Go eas
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Mila’s POVI walked inside the vast training room with Ryan and instantly got hit with a wave of nostalgia from the time I used to spend hours in this place training for my future role to be a beta for my pack after my father retires.I was his only child and therefore, it was my legacy to carry on the torch after him. Being a woman doesn’t matter. Even though most betas are males, female betas work twice as hard to prove themselves worthy of that responsibility, and that’s what I was trying hard to achieve before we got attacked.To some point, being captured and overtaken proved I was not so worthy after all, and all those hours spent training didn’t matter as I still lost in the end.But here I am again, training with my beta mate, and if alpha Alec ever accepts his mate and I end up also accepting Ryan as mine, it will be my responsibility to protect her; the Luna, with my life. How can I protect her when I couldn’t even protect myself five years ago?“This time will be different.
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Alec’s POVI was still in my office listening to her sing from the old feed I saved earlier. I’ve been listening to those songs for far more than I am comfortable to admit.Her voice was soothing and addictive at the same time. Which is completely unreasonable considering how much of a pain in my ass she is being.My brother Adrian mind linked me while I was too absorbed in one of the songs “Hey Alec. I wanted to check in see how you’re doing with everything” he said gently.I paused the video and pulled out my airpods “Hey…. I am fine to some degree. She is being difficult. Not telling me what I want to know. Trying constantly to get under my skin and hurt me with her words and assumptions to get a reaction out of me, and I’m barely holding myself from giving her what she wants” I said calmly.“Understandable, considering she has some unknown score to settle with you. I’m not even going to ask if you hurt her because I know you would never do that, so I’m curious what your plan is ex
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Andrea’s POV I stared at him wide eyed, he took me off guard and I found my eyes automatically looking down at his soft looking lips. Is he talking about what I think it is or am I getting this all wrong? What the fuck is wrong with him? Where does he get the nerve to suggest something like that! I was still breathing hard and the more I inhaled, the more my body relaxed as it got filled with his soothing mint scent, more intense now due to him taking my personal space into the next level. His eyes were also traveling between mine and my lips, up this close, the tension between us was off the charts. Our bodies wanting to eliminate every inch of space between us while our minds fighting against it because of our hatred of each other. “How about… I bite your tongue off so you don’t mention giving me something to think about again?” I bit out tightly. His lips stretched into a smile instantly and I cursed myself for lingering on those lips for more than I should have. “If you tast
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