After the old lady left, both Johnny and Emanuele agreed to go away and take a short walk. They needed some fresh air. The little card was still in the small town girl's hand, her fingers trembling.As soon as she got to the cramped quarters, although she didn't know when, since Thabata would probably be there "talking" to her boyfriend, she would hand it over. And probably ask questions, if her sense of sense was particularly unregulated.Walking at a leisurely pace along a long, quiet sidewalk that led into one of the neighborhood parks, Emanuele was eagerly debating who that woman was and who she was talking about."Something horrible has happened. Not just with Joshua, but with Alexandra too." "And apparently Alexandra has forgiven the person who did that horrible thing.""Which turns out to be a member of their family.""That."They both get lost in their own thoughts for a few seconds, trying to put together pieces of a confusing and seemingly incomplete puzzle. The girl asks:
The ride home was painful, slow, and filled with fear, confusion, and trepidation.The horrible image was always in her mind: the poor old woman lying on the asphalt, terribly injured and unconscious. Emanuele did not want to stay to see the rescue. In fact, even before an ambulance arrived, one of the passersby threw a tarp over the body.Johnny stood pale beside her, holding her by the waist as they made their way back to the building. The idea was that they would spend the rest of the day away, but that couldn't wait.How would Joshua react? Would he remember the nanny? The card with the number given minutes before weighed like lead in the girl's purse. Now he would never be able to call her again and find out what had happened between them.But there was still one thing Emanuele could do. With or without Thabata in the apartment, with or without echoes of the nightmare appearing now and then to cloud her judgment. And that thing was to pass on to Joshua Rosita's last words. And m
The boys roll around the apartment, exchanging punches and kicks. Although she is scared and terrified, screaming for them to stop, Emanuele realizes that both of them are not beating around the bush. Apparently, both Joshua and Johnny know how to fight for real.This only makes things worse, actually, since they both know how to neutralize an aggressor. Things could get completely out of hand, I mean, more than they already were.Emanuele yells once again for them to stop, but the two do not listen. Unable to think straight, the redhead goes to the kitchen and fills a jug with water. In Porto Feliz, when stray dogs and cats would start fighting, the residents would separate them by pouring water over them.This is exactly what she does when she returns to the living room. They don't run off like puppies, but stop hitting each other and look at her, frightened and confused."For God's sake, you guys could end up killing each other! Johnny, I think you'd better go."The boy looks hurt
Joshua and Emanuele are facing each other at the living room table. A glass of water is in front of each of them, but neither has taken a sip. The current owner told her that he would tell her what was going on, and she was ready to listen... Or at least she thought she was ready."I'm not going to tell you everything. But... Just a part of it. So that you can understand why this... Commotion."The words he says come out hard and slurred, as if it's hard to sit there, sitting at home with a guest instead of going out smashing all the furniture in front of her. She nods, showing that she understands how complicated it is for him.Joshua takes a deep breath."You're right. You got that part of the story straight, although I guess it was kind of obvious after... After you met with Rosita."The man takes a sip of his water and stares into nothingness as he continues his account:"Alexandra and I are very different. We love each other very much, but we belong to different generations, diff
. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .Emanuele is lying on her old, musty bed. The peeling, unplastered walls smell like wet bricks; the broken glass window is partially closed, as usual. The day is cloudy and dull, like all the others. The girl looks at the door to her own room.The little redhead never had privacy for anything. Ever since she was a child she was told by her mother that nothing she had, from the clothes on her body to the (disgusting) food on her plate, belonged to her. Until she was fifteen, Emanuele thought this behavior was normal. Until a lecturer from another city came to her school, and explained to the students several issues about mental health.That day was crucial for her to understand that, deep down, she was right. And that her mother was not a normal mother; she was not like the others.Since the age of fifteen, Emanuele had studied various scientific articles and school documents, as well as books by health professionals and psychologists. It didn
"I knew it."Thabata's voice, surprisingly, is not high and squeaky. On the contrary: it is low and cold, like a growl.Joshua stands up. Emanuele does not move from his seat, but speaks:"Thabata, it was just a hug.""Shut your mouth, you fucking bumpkin. How dare you still try to say anything?""Thabata, there's nothing to worry about. It's not what you're thinking," Joshua tries to explain."Of course it isn't! Because I'm not thinking anything, Joshua. I saw it.""We were just talking.""And what was that conversation, if I have a right to know?"The two don't answer immediately. The details were very intimate, and it went straight over both of their pasts. Emanuele looks discreetly at Joshua. Did Thabata know about his relationship with that family member? After all, they had been together for almost three years.Due to her hesitation, Thabata sneers:"And you said you wanted to clarify the situation... Everything is crystal clear to me. I knew I couldn't trust you!"Emanuele tri
Emanuele feels her heart racing, her fingers turning to butter. Did she hear right? Was she imagining or daydreaming again?Joshua raises one of his eyebrows. He is waiting for her answer. It was not imagination.He had really asked if her feelings for Johnny were stronger than her feelings for him.But... What did Emanuele feel for Joshua?"I...," Emanuele begins, feeling her cheeks heat up from embarrassment."Relax. If you don't want to answer, don't answer.""But-""It's not like it's going to interfere with anything.""I... What?"Joshua sits down on the couch, looking at Emanuele. The girl remains standing leaning against the wall."Even if you feel something for me, and I'm not saying you do, you and I couldn't be together.""Why not?" The indignation in her tone of voice catches the attention of the current owner of the apartment.He seems nervous as he answers, though he disguises it as best he can."I don't know. Maybe because I just ended a three-year relationship and becau
Three weeks had passed.Joshua and Emanuele did not touch any more delicate subjects. The redhead decided to look harder for places where she could work in person, although she could not find any.Thabata had also disappeared from the map, despite her threats to destroy the social life of both Emanuele and Joshua. Johnny respected the space of his inspirational muse, and although everyone thought they were in some sort of relationship, he made it clear to everyone that there was no pressure on them to take anything public.A routine was fixed: Joshua went out to work some days of the week, Emanuele went out to look for a new job and/or to go out with Johnny, the two of them lived together in peace and there was no longer any awkwardness between them.Although Emanuele sometimes thought that her roommate was jealous, she couldn't stop thinking that he had already made it clear that they would never work out. And also, how to relate to someone so complicated, who changed his moods all t