Chapter 38Astherielle's POV"Yes... Oo na kaagad," tawa ko nang sobrang saya, hindi na iniisip ang iba pang mga bagay, specially our plans with tita after my graduation.I'll think about those later. What's important to me is this, the plan that Sheids and I have after my graduation. Isasama ako ni tita sa Netherlands at doon na magtatrabaho at titira. Pero plano pa lang naman. Baka puwede pa akong umapela. Pero siya, talagang matutuloy na siya roon dahil ikakasal na siya sa boyfriend niya.Natatawa lang ako sa mabilis kong pagpayag sa alok ni Sheids. Para na akong naka-jackpot sa alok niyang 'yon, eh! He smiled widely, still kneeling on the floor.What is this, a low-key proposal?Basta ang sarap mag-assume sa oras na 'to!After my graduation and after his resignation, puwede na kaming maging official. Iyon ang iniisip ko kaya nae-excite ako!I approached him and hugged him tightly in gratitude. His offer was such a big deal for me and erased all of my doubts from the past hours, esp
Chapter 39Sheids' POV"Oh," exhausted kong ungol, muntik ko nang mapalo ang table kung hindi lang ako napaalalahanan na nasa loob ako ng klase.Umalis na si Elle, hindi na lumingon pa kahit kailangan. I also don't know where she is going now. Most likely, she won't be hanging out at my condo.Nagsisisi akong sinabi ko kanina sa loob ng klase na makaaalis na iyong mga tapos na sa exam. Akala ko matatagalan siya sa pagsagot.I wasn't really planning to attend the Part Three Ball. It just so happened that my mom called and asked me to be their representative because she and Dad couldn't attend. Yeah, simula nang magtrabaho ako rito sa Polaris, nag-o-offer na sila ng mga scholarships sa mga matatalinong students na hindi kayang paaralin ng mga magulang nila. At nagkataon lang din na philanthropist din si Sadie rito. Dito siya nagtapos ng college at dati ring scholar ng University kahit pa mayaman ang pamilya nila. She is just giving back.Close ang mommy kay Sadie kaya naman nang sabihin
Chapter 40Astherielle's POV"Okay."That's all I said and decided not to speak anymore. Narinig ko ang narinig ko pero wala akong naging reaksiyon.Why does it hurt so much when he says 'I love you' to me? That's what I feel. I should be happy because I've been waiting to hear it from him, but I'm not. Pero mahal ko siya kaya may malaking parte pa rin sa akin na sobrang masaya sa narinig. I smiled sadly and asked, "What do you want to happen next, Sheids?""I want you to stay, Elle. I'm sorry for everything... I want you to stay with me even though I'm feeling confused right now. I will try to fix myself for you. I promise..."Itinango ko ang baba kahit nahahati ako ngayon. Mahal ko siya, mahal na mahal. Kahit natiis kong hindi ito makita at puntahan ng ilang mga araw, alam kong babalik pa rin ako rito kung sakali mang hindi niya ako hinabol. Gano'n ako karupok. Ang laking bagay ng ginawa niya ngayon— he came to see me, invited me to dance, and said he would fix everything between us
Chapter 41Astherielle's POV"Look at the irony of the situation, karma has come to collect you! Ang tiyempo, tamang-tama lang!"Nakapanghihina ang uyam sa tinig ni Sheids. "Don't you know that the pain your nephew suffered has returned?"Nanghina akong muli at nakaramdam ng hiya. Naiiyak dahil mukhang ibubuking pa niya ako kay tita. Umiling ako para pigilan siya pero wala sa akin ang mga mata niya.Nakita ko ang pag-alma ni Regan. Humakbang siya at nagagalit na pinagalaw ang mga panga. But before he could get involved, I stopped him. I looked at him and shook my head."Please, Regan..."Napipilitan naman siyang tumigil sa tabi ni tita."A nymphomaniac! Poor her!" tumatawa at taas-noong patuloy na pagsisiwalat ni Sheids. "Yes! I am the only one who knows about her suffering, and I am the only one! Every time she has an attack, she comes to me! Why not, when he's so sweet, yummy, young and so skilled in bed? May lahi pala kayong sumpa, Miss dela Peña!"Napapikit ako. Hindi ko inakalan
Chapter 42Astherielle's POV"I don't care how many times you push me away, Sheids. I will still come back to you and beg you to take me back!""No. Hindi na ako babalik sa 'yo. Leave and don't come back here. Sige na!" nauubusan ng pasensiya niyang bulyaw.Muli akong umiling. "Hindi ako aalis dito. I swallowed hard as I watched Sadie walk out of the door. Her face was tense, clearly showing her disapproval of what she saw between Sheids and me. Hindi man lang siya nagpalit muna bago lumabas. Talagang gusto niyang iyabang sa 'kin na may nangyari sa kanila ni Sheids kanina.Ayaw kong makita ako ng iba sa ayos kong ito. Kahit kailan hindi ako nagmakaawa kay Sheids. He has never hurt me. And I have no other choice but to continue. To beg at Sheids' feet right in front of his own woman."Bumalik ka na sa akin, please... Kalilimutan ko lahat. Tatanggapin ko lahat basta bumalik ka lang..." I looked up at him, almost dying from crying. "Come back, Sheids... I know you love me so much..." Hum
Chapter 43Astherielle's POVAfter kong malaman na nakunan ako, para na rin akong namatay. The feeling of not knowing anymore what each breath is for, as if everything feels lifeless within me. There is not a day that goes by without me crying. There is not a day that passes without blaming myself for why he is gone. Walang pagkakataon man lang na malaman ko kung lalaki ba siya o babae.But no matter how much it hurts to lose him, I feel annoyed that I still love his father. Pagkatapos ng lahat-lahat, mahal na mahal ko pa rin siya. The most painful thing is, despite the pain caused by his father, I still want him to know about him, that he exists, na nagkaroon kami ng siya...Pero pina-check niya kung buntis ako o hindi. Sinabi niyang hindi ako buntis. O baka alam naman talaga niya pero dahil hindi pa siya handang maging ama, ayaw niya sa bata at abot-abot langit na galit niya sa akin at sa mga magulang ko, nagawa niyang magsinungaling. So, bakit ko pa siya pupuntahan para mag-abalang
Chapter 44Sheids' POV"The most hated member of the pack has arrived! Fergus Caicos Luccian Agradezco!" proclaimed Morpheus loudly as our friend arrived sabay tingin sa akin at tawa nang magiliw.Pasimple namang natawa iyong dalawa, Rostro, and Navigo. Fergus is a pilot and a businessman. Navigo is a doctor and into business too. Rostro is also a doctor but specifically a surgeon and businessman. Morpheus? He's a zillionaire, a lawyer, and can do anything. Lahat sila, may sari-sariling profession na natapos pero kaya pang isabay ang pagbi-business. Ako lang ang naiiba. But now I am trying. Wala na akong choice nang umuwi ako sa Turkey after kong makalaya mula sa loob ng kulungan.Inirapan ko si Morpheus at hindi na lang pinansin ang pang-iinis niya. I adjusted my seating as if I hadn't heard or seen anyone arrive. Ako lang naman ang may ayaw na makita siya pero dinamay nila ang mga sarili nila para gawing katuwaan.I am the most annoying among the five of us, but little did I know th
Chapter 45Astherielle's POVI don't know what I would feel when I see Sheids sitting down below. Isa siya sa mga bisita. At paanong hindi ko siya mapapansin? Siya lang ang napansin kong hindi pumapalakpak. Nakatulong iyon para lalo ko siyang mapansin at makilala. Nasa pinakagitnang puwesto ang table nila at... isa si Fergus sa mga ka-tables niya.Magkakilala sila?Wala namang nababanggit si Fergus sa akin kaya hindi ko rin alam. Na-meet ko na ang tatlo niyang ibang kaibigan dahil din sa kaniya. That was one month ago. Pero hindi pa si Sheids— kung magkaibigan nga sila.If they know each other, is it possible that the person I saw in the chapel on the day of my wedding to Cloud was indeed Sheids? Could he have been one of the guests that day? O baka kung anu-ano na lang ang nakikita ko noong araw na iyon? I can't find the right way to breathe when I realize that I didn't make a mistake about where he's looking now. I'm certain that he's looking at Faja at this moment. At nang mapunta