The constant beep of the machine is the only thing keeping me sane right now. It tells me that Nicole is still alive despite Charles’ best efforts. I’ve nursed Nicole back to health so many times before, but it was never this bad. Charles bashed her skull in and shattered several other bones. It’ll take her a long time to heal from this, even as a werewolf.I shift on the uncomfortable couch. Sleep is evading me. Every time I close my eyes, Nicole’s bloody, lifeless body awaits me. My wolf isn’t helping. His moods switch from howling sadly and hungrily growling for Charles’ blood. Not that we can find Charles to kill him. It’s been twenty-four hours since the attack, and Charles is long gone. Colin is losing his mind. He never knew the monster his father truly was. His mother protected him from that. I can only imagine how lost he feels right now. I know I felt lost the first time I saw what my brother had turned into.Paige says, “Nol
“Nolan, I know you love my mom, but this changes nothing for the plan,” James says.“It changes everything.” I gulp the last of my whiskey. “I’m out. I refuse to be a part of your plan any longer. I’m done. You are not Charles, James. You are not the rogue that murdered your family. You are not evil in any sense. Don’t let hate sculpt you into one of them.”My words hang over James like a dark cloud. His eyes tell me he is fighting with himself. Colin and Alex return with maps of the packs within 200 miles of ours. Colin rolls them all out one by one on his desk. I recognize the maps as Moonbeam Hills, Diamond Fang, Onyx Moon, Silver Shadow, Raven’s Blood, and Lunar Harvest.“Which territory is my dad most likely to run to?” Colin asks.“He still has friends in Moonbeam Hills and Lunar Harvest,” I say.“I think it’s best to split up the warriors and check all six packs.”
Nolan’s words from last night are still bouncing around in my head this morning. Was he right? Maybe my revenge is misplaced. Maybe my walls did make it hard to feel love from Colin and Nicole. He was right about one thing; I love my mother. Otherwise, I wouldn’t have come running when I heard what happened. I try to remember back to when I first became obsessed with overthrowing Colin. I had always kept my distance from the family growing up. I can remember being so scared of losing them too, so I thought it would be better for me not to love them. That didn’t stop the love from growing, however.When I was eighteen, I remember being particularly frustrated that Colin was going to be my Alpha. I guess the doting love he got scraped against me. That frustration amplified when he asked me to be his Beta a year later. The hurt etched on his face when I refused is still painted on my brain. I had gone to the bar that night and drank myself into a stupor. I
The ability to argue leaves me, so I just nod my head.“Come help me in the garden before we lose the daylight.”“Ah, so the real reason you wanted me to stay was to put me to work?”“What can I say? You have a destiny to fulfill.”“I highly doubt that destiny has anything to do with your garden. Nevertheless, I shall appease an old lady such as yourself. I wouldn’t want you to break a hip.”Spending the day with my grandma made my bones hurt with sadness. I hadn’t realized how much I truly missed her. After I had helped her with the garden, we pulled vegetables to make her gumbo. Her gumbo made me feel loved. It wasn’t as fancy as what I ate with the Blackburn’s, but it was home. It was genuine, and it reminded me of my life before my parents died. Her chocolate chip cookies soothed aches I didn’t know I had. I feel better after today. Maybe she’s right about my fate. Maybe, jus
“So, you’re telling me that James only wanted to overthrow me because a witch planted the idea in his head? Did she also incite the useless rage he has for us? Did she command him to act the way he’s been acting?”James shifts next to her. He growls at my tone. Paige stays planted on my lap, not letting me carry out the violence playing in my head. One wrong move by him, and I would fucking lose it.“No. The witch inflated his childhood trauma to create rage. He already didn’t bond well with your family, so it was easy enough to do. She embedded the idea to overthrow you so far into his brain that he didn’t realize it wasn’t his idea. Had he been able to communicate with his wolf, this probably wouldn’t have happened. She brought out his worst qualities and used them for her benefit.” Rita pats his arm.I don’t bother to look at his conniving face. His admission of guilt tripped a live wire in me. I can’t calm down,
The rain patters against the umbrella as Paige and I make our way back to the packhouse hand in hand. The past two days have been a blur, but Paige and I handled them together, like a true Alpha and Luna. “The service was beautiful. Thank you for doing that for her,” I say. She had put aside her dislike for Sammie and worked with her family to plan a service. She was already the best Luna. I’m not sure that I could do the same if I were in her shoes. “Of course,” Paige says. I sighed before stepping inside. Chaos awaited me, this much I knew. The dining hall was full of pack members. Most of them are dressed in black. Paige squeezes my hand and pulls me into my office. This has become our second home while trying to find my father. The search has been disappointing. The warriors have found nothing, and the other packs swear they haven’t seen him. He’s a ghost right now. A ghost who co
My fingers tremble as they twist my long hair into two French braids. I don’t know if it’s the service we attended today or what, but I’m homesick. This is the first date that I’m getting ready for where Val isn’t here to help. I called her when I came up to the room, but it only made me miss her more. She can’t leave school to come visit me, and I can’t leave Colin to visit her. I pull on my black ripped jeans that Val said would give Colin easy access to my sweet spot. She laughed when I cringed. I pair them with a simple v-neck. One that shows my marking spot easily. Colin and I still haven’t marked each other. I’ve been in Aurora Flame for a few weeks now. How much longer does he want to wait? Does he not want to mark me at all? It has been crazy with drama, so maybe he’s just distracted. To be fair, you told him you’d give him a chance. You never asked him to mark you. Maybe that’s what is holding him back, Ash’s voice echoes in my head.
I wake up, tangled in the cold bed. Colin never made it to bed. I tossed and turned all night. He probably just slept in his office. He’s working all the time now. I pull myself up. My head throbs with every step I take. My appearance in the mirror illustrates how well I didn’t sleep last night. I brush out my long hair, and I pull it into a bun. I don’t change from my sweats and hoodie. I knock on Colin’s office door to tell him I’m leaving the packhouse, but there is no answer. I peek inside, only to find everything empty. Weird. I check my phone; there are no messages from him. My heart rate spikes. Where is he, and why didn’t he tell me he wasn’t coming home at all? My confusion only heightens when I see Harrison laughing with Tally at breakfast. I walk into the dining hall, and it falls quiet. The eerie silence gives me goosebumps. I look at Harrison and gesture for him to come. “Where is Colin, and what is going on?” I ask.