Chapter 45

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"Sigurado ka na ba sa desisyon mo?"

Bahagya akong natigilan sa tanong ni Manang. I didn't notice the weight of all of these until now. Matagal ko ring pinigilan ang sarili ko. Mas pinangibabaw ko ang galit at takot kaya kahit sa sarili ko takot akong aminin ang totoo. I didn't know how I manage to actually stop him when he was about to let go. Was it my instincts? Or was it actually my love for him that manifested through that action?

I am not sure of so many things. But I'm sure of one thing. I want to give it a try once again. Ngayong nalinawan na ako sa kung ano talaga ang nangyari years ago, siguro naman panahon na para palayain ko ang sarili ko mula sa galit. I've lived all these years believing he actually fooled me. Siguro naman panahon na rin para pagbigyan ko ang sarili at ang anak kong sumaya kasama si Santi.

"Yes, Manang." I smiled.

I bit my lower lip to stop myself from smiling like an idiot. Ngunit mukhang hindi iyon nakaligtas sa paningin ni Manang.

"Mukhang nagkaa