The Family I dreamed of

I entered the room that I proudly declared as ‘ours’. Well, now it is ‘theirs’. I could see how things had moved around. Instead of the fresh lilies I used to pick from our garden, there were coffee mugs. Instead of my bookshelf, there stood what seemed to be a plant. The books on the coffee table have also been removed, the paint and curtains have also been replaced. Once on that balcony there were all the beautiful exotic plants that bloomed all varieties of flowers. How pretty and soothing it was to step out into that view. We also had a couple chairs, we spent hours lazily sitting there enjoying a cup of coffee. 

I recalled how I sat down with my books in the corner of this very room dreaming of a life with Ethan and junior versions of him and me running around the house. Our little happy family. And look! How things have changed, how fate has played its part. Bad. 

So many memories, not a single drop of tear left my eyes. 

“Your things have been shifted to the store room downstairs.” Marya, our maid, who has been working here For a very long time. She was kind and caring, maybe the only person I respect here apart from the alpha alex.

I shut ‘their’ bedroom door and come down to the storeroom along with Marya.

The room was dull and smelled of moths, even without much light I could say it's pretty dusty. Marya switched on the lights for me.

My clothes were thrown across the floor, I had plenty of books and I cared for them very well, now it was crumpled as heaps onto a corner. The pothos and turtle vine that I had planted a few years  back, decorating the balcony wall was now withered, climbers broken and dried.

I took a deep breath in spite of the dusty atmosphere, I coughed a bit. My suitcase was also there, standing upright. I placed it on the floor and got hold of the clothes and some things I got my hands on. I wanted to take my books with me but I don’t have any other cases. So for the time being, I took each of them and neatly placed them on top of each other.

I closed the suitcase and carried it over to the front door. I could clearly see a couple of pity-smiles and sympathetic looks.

I held my head up and walked right through the door. There wasn’t anyone around except for the workers.

I strolled through the wet grass, over to the other side. When a hoarse voice sounded behind me.

“thalia.” Of course it is unmistakably my dear-dear-cheating-fiancé’s.

I stopped in my steps and looked around. He was standing on the top of the stairs, an odd expression on his face.

 I waited. Because I knew what the subject was about. Not apologies and shit like that. He skipped a few steps and he strode over to me.

“No one is asking you to leave, lia. This is your decision.”

“Excuse me?”

“don’t be childish. It's common for people to fall out of love and things like this happen. Be a little mature and act accordingly.”

“I still am not getting your point.” I honestly told him.

“Where will you be staying? You don’t have a place nor any money to survive. Alexia and I are getting married soon. You’ll surely get someone you love as well. Stay back here and live as if you- um- are- “ he was fishing for the right word.

“And life depended on someone like you? Pfft. I'm not that shameless.” I affirmed.

“Why are you acting so stubborn?”

I can't believe this, he thinks I'm acting stubborn? Are all men like this? Dumb? I wonder.

“No, well, I would like to clarify. I do have a home and do have money, you don’t have to worry about it.” I said and turned away when another deep voice was heard from behind.

“I can drop you if you want?”  It was Liam.

“why? I can do it myself. Enjoy your little pregnancy party.”

I resumed my walk outside the gates of the house I considered my family lived in.

I looked back one more time and decided, no I won't be coming here again unless I was called by the alpha.

As I walked down the footpath, I wondered if anyone loves me. It was a question I could easily answer by now. My parents did not even defend or console me, well, I don’t mind though.

Only then did the news of pregnancy and the marriage hit me.

They were going to get married. Have a child. And lead a happy family with all the loved ones beside them.

I'm happy for them.

I inhaled deeply and sighed.

The family I always dreamed of.