Trying to Hide the Pain

FRIDAY came and I haven't heard anything about Zach since Wednesday when I had a break down because of so much jealousy and pain.

Naghintay ako ng paliwanag niya kung bakit nagsinungaling siya sa akin. He said he couldn't come over to my place that Wednesday night because of his and Joven's wedding preparation. But then, I ended up hearing them fucking each other. Sabihin na lang natin na kaya ako tumagal sa ganitong klaseng relasyon ay dahil sa mga excuses na paulit-ulit kong tinatanggap mula kay Zach. That's how I get by as a mistress and how I discarded my conscience. As long as Zach was making excuses for us to work out, I promised to myself that I would never let go. This was how masochistic I was- since from my relationship with Nick up until now.

Sasabihin ng iba ginusto kong maging kabit dahil pinili kong manatili, kahit toxic, kahit may nasasaktan na iba at kahit hindi naibibigay sa akin ang tamang pagmamahal na deserve ko. But what people don't understand was how toxicity co