[Erin]
Why is he acting this way?Why could he just threaten me like he always does? Just like how he threatened me with a gun on my head the first time we met? Why could he just don’t do that? In that way, I wouldn’t be so confused about what I should feel towards him.Yes, I hate him. No, that isn't really the best phrase to express what I was feeling, and I was convinced that what I was feeling was something more. For everything he had done to me, I even hate fate itself for showing me into this kind of life. But why did I feel so warm when he uttered those words? My jaw snapped shut, locking tightly, and my molars hurt from grinding against each other while I stared intently into the mossy pair of orbs that were sucking me in. Absorbing me deeply into a promise of the unknown. The rough texture of his thumb rubbing the corner of my face, so slowly and sensual, kept me anchored to where I was in the moment rather than becom[Erin]He does a terrific job lathering me up. He washed my skin with a loofah, taking care not to scratch the bruises that littered my body. I am sitting like a child in his lap, but Nikolai doesn’t seem to mind like I weigh nothing more than a feather. He was treating me delicately, like if I were a fragile little thing that could be damaged at any time.But I am already broken. Shattered in a million fragments. My life had already fallen apart before he even purchased me for his pleasure. I am nothing. Nothing.“Lift your arms.” Suddenly, Nikolai cooed next to my ears, his breath tickling the base of my neck, and I became acutely aware that he was completely naked beneath me. My back was turned to face him, and the hard plane of his torso was pressing against my small body.As I follow his soft instructions, the water ripples in my wake as I elevate my arms, allowing the rivulets of water droplets to run down my arms in a warm stream.
[Erin]Nikolai wrapped my body in a bundle of the thick fluffy towel before he lifted me up and walked out of the bathroom. I look like a toddler when I am in his arms. My entire height does not even reach his chest, therefore I am essentially a child in comparison to him. It's no surprise that he refers to me as his doll…or that because he sees me as his leisure, his favorite toy to play with when he’s bored.The thought causes a sharp pain to strike me in the chest that I can't seem to shake. I have to swallow hard to keep the sobs from erupting and blink my eyes repeatedly to keep my vision from becoming blurred. I also made a conscious effort to keep my breathing steady so he wouldn't notice my depressed state of mind.He gently put me down on the bed, my feet dangling over the end, and then he took another towel that was slung across his shoulders and dried my hair.None of us had spoken since our conversation at the tub, although
[Erin] “Rise and shine!” Micah’s voice filled my ears and my eyes were stinging from the abrupt burst of brilliant light that flooded into my room, swooshing draperies sliding to the side of my window. The burning sun rays penetrating through my close lids, immediately earning a loud groan eliciting from my throat.“M…rning,” I mumbled half awake, slurring off the word as I rolled to my side, gripping my blanket and pulling it over my head.How come it is already morning? I haven’t gotten enough sleep yet, and my body is feeling heavy, along with the soreness tingling between my legs. Just then, everything dawned on me faster than the lightning speed as the last night’s event came rushing down to my senses like a fountain of cold water. My eyes shot opened and I remained rigid under my duvet, the warmth of my own breath fanning off my face as I stared on my knees that has been curled up closer to my chin. Noting the faint pink scar left by my healed wound.
[Erin]Micah directed me to the bathroom after I completed my meal with mischievous grin pasted on her face. She’s even excited than I am and expressly instructed me to be done in a couple of minutes or ten, or else she would clean me herself. Not that she hasn’t done it before, but I am sure I am capable of doing that myself.My body still protesting in every movement I made, but it wasn’t that unbearable, unlike last night. Maybe I am just too dazed from staring at myself in the mirror in such disarray.But right now, I will not let that beast break the last piece of my soul that I hold on to. If not, I don’t know what to do anymore.He had taken everything from me. My innocence and all, but it’s not the end. I still breathe the morning air. There’s food prepared for me three times a day. Clothes that I can wear, though some of it I could even hardly call clothing.Especially that thing I saw a while ago.
[Erin]I stared myself at the image of my own reflection on the full-length vanity mirror. Wondering if that woman staring right back at me is, well, me.I could be hallucinating and mistaking someone else’s as me for all I know. However, the reflection copies every movement I made, and I am sure even the way I breathe could mimic it perfectly. I shifted once again, bending my upper body in order to get a better view at what the dress looked like from behind.Micah was right. This wasn’t a kiddie dress fit for a ten-year-old. In fact, it was actually a kind of dress that children should never see.If I say it is skin-tight, I mean, it could probably pass as duct tape plastered on my skin so obscenely, and if I move so recklessly, the onlookers would definitely see what I am hiding with my soul.And that thing, so-called underwear, surprisingly worked out well for me. To be honest, when I initially placed it in, I honestly believed it migh
[Erin] What I don't know is if I was just hallucinating or if Nikolai's voice really did make my room shake. I could feel my heart pounding loudly even without turning around to look at him. Micah’s body trembled with fear as she fastened the final clasp on my sandals before standing up and bending herself into an exaggerated bow.“Please forgive me, master,” she whimpered in a low, almost inaudible voice, begging for forgiveness as though she had committed a grave crime against Nikolai.I blinked, unable to move. My back snapped, and my body stiffened. My heart went crazy in my chest soon. I felt a warm heavy breath fanning at the base of my neck.“I told you to get ready in two hours, but it took you more than three. Didn’t I make myself clear?”My breath caught in my throat as a pair of enormous hands grasped both of my arms, his low and dangerous tone resonating against the lobe of my ear, his lips sensually grazing the tip, causing an involuntary s
[Erin]I now understand what he meant by saying I should have remained at his side like an obedient doll that he considers me to be. Well, scratch the part where I say that I am obedient because I am obviously not, and the only reason I am doing all of this is that he scared the very crap out of me.I still have no idea where we are going, but judging the amount of cars and armed personnel convoyed around tells me something that this trip isn’t just an ordinary out of the mansion kind of thing, and it doesn’t sit right in my gut.I am not a fortune teller, but hell, only a blind person could not see the tension hanging between Nikolai’s furrowed brows and Akim's rigid figure in the passenger's seat, as well as the persistent grasping of his gun concealed within the holster attached to his side.The car is heavily tinted, and I bet it is also bulletproof. I have no idea what Nikolai does for a living, but having me as his prized purchase
[Erin] Nikolai’s head thrown back, his eyes close and mouth gaping. Large veins protruded from the side of his throat, and his grip on my waist became increasingly tight. As my fingers moved up and down the length of his shaft, a deep sigh rumbled against his chest. The white pearl of his thick precum glistened on the tip of his grith. Almost immediately making, my mouth watered at the sight of it. His threat of having his shaft right inside my mouth gives me ideas, but I haven’t done that before, or even a thing like this. This situation right now is bizarre enough for me to lose my mind over what hell is going on, much less care about where the hell we are and the people around us. Whether the glass wall is thick enough to block out all of the strange noises Nikolai was making or whether he doesn’t seem to care at all, I have no idea. My face is burning hot, knowing exactly that Akim was also there, listening, I guess. “Faster doll.” Nikolai