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Chapter 24
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Clara
Scars... The only marks visible or invisible that prove we are human. I call scars badges of honor. They are a good reminder that;you fought a battle , war , or got up after you've fallen down repeatedly.
Whether you've won or lost it is mark of a true hero; cause you rose up to the challenge set before you and tried. It takes courage to try.
There are two types of scars; the visible and invisible. One of the two can be dangerous. The visible scar is easily spotted and either fades over time or heals but leaves a mark.
Then there is the dangerous kind of scars that creep up on you. The kind of scars that unleash a monster you never knew existed ... I call them abstract scars .
Betrayal, deceit, heart break, heartache , teasing , bullying , abuse and stuff we choose to internalise in order not to appear weak ... That leaves scars .
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