Chapter 25

I spent my day here in my room. I don't know how I'll face him. I don't even know if I'll still let my finger win over me or if I'll be able to forgive him this time. I don't want to get out of this house to see the result of what I told him. I don't want to see him that miserable again but I know that outside this room, he's mourning because he lost his wife and he also lost his daughter who hates him right now. I know it's painful to a father to be called useless but that's just what I told him which I'm regretting now. I don't know how I was able to tell him those things out of my anger. I feel so evil now because of that and I already want to make everything right. 

I hate to admit this but I'm afraid to risk. I can risk my life for the world but this is my weakness. The word 'family' is my business and when it comes to that, I'll always be weak and unable to fight for myself and he's my father so I have no idea what I should do. I may have been deprive