We're planning to stay there overnight, I also know that there are a lot of tourists and hikers going there which will make it not-so-boring for me. I would like to watch people enjoying the view and appreciating it while it's still there.
And finally, we were able to arrive there on time before the sun even reach its peak or else it'll be too hot for us to hike. I don't want my mood to be ruined just because of that.
The sun is just actually rising and it was dawn when we left our house.
I clapped my hands in excitement while looking at how green the mountain we'll be hiking is. Just the way how I like it to be and look like.
It's the nature that I love and I won't even be amazed by tall buildings. I mean, who wouldn't even like how beautiful nature is? Even robots like Cayden can appreciate it.
We got out of the car which Cayden was driving and par
It's been what? Two months, I guess? I can't even count the days because I'm just living every but of it. I don't want to miss even just a single second because this is just too precious to me for me to be able to enjoy myself when I didn't even imagine myself being genuinely happy. I only thought that will happen the moment I succeeded but here I am, almost dancing because of how happy I am and I want this to continue before we even leave. And by the time, I'll be more serious.I'm just here to refresh my mind for a year and at the same time have time to be with my father and then I'll be more inspired to make everything we'll do, successful.And yes, we're getting nearer and nearer to the end of this happiness of ours so as much as I can, I'm pushing myself not to rot on my bed and go out with them. Even though I'm already tired of moving around, I still prefer to be with them than be with myself again because that'll just make
I was just having my own time when some tourists called me. Some of them were men but I can also see some girls who I think their partners so I walked towards them so I can probably have a good time. They also seem to be kind so it won't hurt if I'll give it a try having fun with someone I don't know. It's not like they'll be able to hurt me or something. I can handle myself just fine.I'm not actually friendly back then. I'd rather be alone than make some friends which are all fake because in our era, everyone will just betray you without you knowing. In this world, trust is a word that you shouldn't give to anyone but in this era, I can easily give it to anyone since I know how to read people if they're true or not and I can see that they have no bad intentions against me.Everyone here is kind but some are still kinda off for me, that can't be helped."Hi!" I greeted them the moment I reached their place a
It was so awkward for me to talk or to even stay close to him. I always get flustered because I'm not used to any of the moves that he's doing. I'm not even that familiar with it because relationships and such isn't a thing that I have experienced already but after a few weeks of dealing with it, he suddenly stopped being so annoying for me like I realized that I should already get used to it but I still hate it when he's unnecessarily touching me.My heart is beating abnormally when he's with me and I hate it! I feel so weak around him and if I can just stop this, then I will do it because this is wrong in every corner. If dad will know everything about this, he will also know that this is wrong and it's not fun.He's expecting us to be on good terms already. He may not be telling it but I know that he also wants us to happen so maybe I should tell every
"I'm a fucking human and not a robot like what I told you!" He said in just a snap and I literally statued on where I'm standing. Am I hearing it right or is this just caused by the alcohol I drank? I don't know but I hope that this is just all because I'm drunk and it can be just part of my imagination because that's what I hoped him to be. Is my mind messing up with me again? Am I just dreaming? But why does it sounds so real to me?"W-what?" I asked just to be sure because I can't understand him anymore."Yes, Heszhia. You've heard it right. Everything I told you was pure lies and I'm a human, not a robot just like what you know in the first place- or what I at least wants you to believe," he again said casually like he's just saying a nonsense thing when it is all important to me."No... You're lying, right?" I said with my eyes being filled with tears right when he told me they and that's not
I woke up feeling the pain in my chest. I guess this is already the hangover that's hitting in me but no... Even with my headache and even though I was drunk that time, I still can't forget everything. I can clearly remember it and every word he said to me. My brain didn't even let me rest and made me remember it in my dreams just to hurt me over and over again and I guess, that's what satisfy me.Isn't my pain too much? Is everything I've been through still not enough to be put in such a situation as this which will literally break me? Because if it's still not enough, then this world is too heartless and unfair already. Why? Am I the only one the world can make fun of? Fuck them!I would even love to think that it was all just my freaking dream but I know all of that really happened. All those things were the truth that slaps me every time. It can even be my greatest nightmare.I've been asking the wo
"Heszhia...." I heard him call me from behind and there I heard from his voice that he's drunk. Is this how we'll talk now? Damn it! I actually wanted to talk to him but not now that he's drunk. This is so awkward and I know that people can't control themselves when they're drunk and I don't know. I'm just afraid of what might happen or what we're going to talk to.I don't know why I'm thinking about that kind of stuff when I clearly have no idea about that. It's just that, just by thinking that we'll be talking while he's drunk sounds like a bad idea. I don't know. Fuck! Why am I even thinking things like this? Damn! Did he just taint my mind without me knowing? The hell with me? Why did I suddenly start thinking about this? Oh hell! Erase that Heszhia!I felt the bed beside me move as a sign that he just sat there but I just remained lying with him facing my back. I don't know if he knows that I'm still awake but I hope not. I don't
I woke up feeling a bit of pain down there and sore all over my body and when I realized what happened last night, I literally get up with my eyes getting bigger, and there I saw him beside me, sleeping peacefully like an angel but damn! That's not what I should think of right now.Damn it! Why did you even let him do that, Heszhia? But honestly, I don't know why I also did that. It's just that, when his skin touched mine, everything running inside my mind was erased like he's controlling my body. His every touch just made me list my mind and listen to what my body is shouting and that's him. I also want him and I wasn't able to stop myself because of that.I just sighed instead of screaming because of how annoyed I am with myself. I can't do anything about it anymore. I can never take it back and all I could do is to forget about it but I admit that I can still feel him on mine just like what happened last night. I just can't forget a
"What did you say?" He asked me in a surprised tone like he can't believe what I told him. What? Isn't it obvious? Oh, yeah. I was denying that and keeping it for myself because I wasn't actually sure about now that time and I'm also afraid of what might happen because of what and who she is.It's wasn't just easy for us and me because I thought all along he was a robot and that's actually his fault already. Maybe I was just too good at hiding my feeling for him to not notice that or he might do noticed that and he just don't want to assume just like me.I just chuckled before answering him. "I know you heard me, Cayden.""But I want to hear it again," he said and pouted like a baby who was about to cry already. Gosh. He's not even cute for me because of his manly features yet he's making himself look like a baby that made me laugh at him really hard."What if I don't want to?