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42- Teasing and terror
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Strings of Fate 43- Monotones and makeup
I- I cut off my own thought. This is not helpful right now. I take a deep breath and calm myself. I might even be almost relaxed when Bellamy finally finds me. Okay, that's not true. I'm completely freaking out. But I manage to hide it. Bellamy comes and sits on the seat beside me. He places my shoes on the ground by my feet and I slip them on. The silence is deafening until Bellamy finally manages to speak. His voice is quiet and almost completely void of expression, as is his face.“Are you mad at me again?” He asks. I shake my head. I don't know what I expected him to say but it wasn't that. “No.” He watches my face attentively.“But?” He waits for my reply. I stand up and move to look at a small water feature built into the wall. I keep my back to him.“But I can't do this right now.” I tell him. I keep my voice calm, but it's forced. I hear Bellamy stand and take a few steps until he's next to me. I don't turn to look at him.“What do you want?” His voice is a dull monotone.“I
Strings of Fate 44- Understanding and unsure
“Great! Well in that case, want to come over for a bit? I thought we could look at some bridesmaid dresses and wedding dresses online and stuff. Search for inspiration.” Her sudden mood swings are giving me whiplash. I'm not awake enough to keep up with them.“Uh, yeah sure. Okay. I'll need a bit, I need to wash my hair and stuff before I can come.”“You only just woke up didn't you?” She accuses, her tone is amused though.“I thought you sounded half asleep. It's already almost midday, time to get up sleeping beauty.”“What? That can't be right? I feel like I haven't slept at all. Maybe I'm coming down with something.” I slept terribly and I feel super tired even though I slept in late. Maybe I caught a bug. Or all the stress in recent days is finally catching up with me.“Maybe. If it makes you feel any better, you're probably less of a mess than my brother is. I found him wandering the house at like five in the morning. I'm pretty sure he didn't sleep again. He's back in bed now bu
Strings of Fate 45- Tears and truth
Next time I check my phone it's basically flat so I plug it in to Megan's charger. It's after six in the evening.“I should probably get going soon.” I inform her with a frown. I'm enjoying myself, I don't particularly want to go home and sit around by myself. It leaves too much time for thinking. Megan grins at me.“You look like you'd rather stay.”“I would.” I admit. She shrugs.“So stay then. We can have a sleepover.” She is suddenly excited, her excitement is contagious.“I'd love to!” I bounce back onto her bed and she laughs as I almost fall off again. It takes a few minutes for her to calm down enough to be able to speak again.“So, I was wondering something...” I start. She nods for me to continue.“Tristan, I don't know a lot about him, and you don't really talk about him all that much. What's he like?” I am actually curious what he seems like to her, because to me he just seems creepy. Megan smiles.“He's perfect. He always says the right thing and we never fight or disagre
Strings of Fate 46- Home and hot chocolates
When we reach my home, Darrien moves to the kitchen and starts going through my cupboards.“Go change into one of those fuzzy unicorn things.” He orders. I nod and head to my room to change. I've finally stopped crying. Now I just feel empty. I move around like a zombie as I throw on my pyjamas. When I head back out, Darrien sits me down at one of the chairs at my tiny little table and hands me a hot chocolate. So that's what he was looking for. He settles down in the chair across from me with his own mug.“I know you weren't ready to tell him, and he probably was a little annoyed to overhear that he's your mate. I'm sure he would have preferred if you had told him directly. But none of that explains why you're crying like it's the end of the world. What happened? This is two nights in a row I've had to drive you home in a hurry.” Darrien keeps his tone gentle. Still, it seems pretty clear that he has no intention of leaving me alone until I fill him in a little.“He overheard me talk
Strings of Fate 47- Forts and fallouts
The next three months continue in this fashion. Megan and Darrien continue to visit me and I continue to live on autopilot. I lose weight because I can't seem to eat or sleep properly. I'm working more than ever. It helps to stay busy. It means less time staring at the wall. I still help Megan with wedding stuff but my enthusiasm is even more false than it was before. Still, the wedding plans continue to progress. Maggie messages me on multiple occasions inviting me to stop by. I make excuses every time. I haven't cried since that day and I don't intend to cry again. I haven't seen or heard from Bellamy either, although Megan and Darrien insist that he has been checking in with my guards regularly. That actually makes things worse. If he wants to talk to me all he has to do is call, or come see me. Instead he's spying on me from a distance getting reports from others. It only confirms that he has no interest in actually seeing me. Darrien suggested I should go see him. But if he is av
Strings of Fate 48- Cartoons and considerations
Harrison obviously isn't buying it, but he doesn't need to, he just has to cooperate. Which he does. We start to rearrange my living area. Soon the table is up against the bench with the chairs in front of it. Blankets cover everything. The back of the bench has become the back wall of our fort. The table is the roof and the chairs mark the entryway. We stuff it full of pillows to make it comfy and make sure the charger for my laptop can reach a power point so it won't go flat on us. There aren't any lights inside the fort other than the laptop, but the lights in the living area are still on which provides a tiny bit of light through the fabric of the thinner blankets. There isn't a lot of space, but Harrison and I can fit even though we are a little squished together. It's comfortable enough. We're just starting our second episode of Courage the Cowardly Dog when my phone starts ringing. I ignore it. I don't want to deal with people right now, whoever it is can wait. As soon as the c
Strings of Fate 49- Decisions and determination
I'm not really watching, and I know that he is only watching to give me time to think. Time to sort through the rush of emotions I'm feeling. Can I really tell Megan the truth about her ties? Should I? From the very beginning that was my plan. I wrote her that note. It wasn't until I met her and became her friend that I began to worry she would resent my interference or choose Tristan over me. But didn't I promise myself I was going to be the best friend she ever had? Would a good friend really let her go through with this marriage? As for Bellamy... well, he does deserve the truth from me. The problem is I really don't know how to give it. What truth is it that he needs to hear? If I start at the wrong place he will probably run and avoid me, or it will turn into a fight. I can feel my heart rate increase at the thought of having to face Bellamy properly. I don't know if I'm ready yet. I take a deep breath to calm myself. I don't need to do anything right this second, I can take some
Strings of Fate 50- Challenging and comfortable
I glance out the window as we arrive at the compound. It's very active for this early in the morning. It's because of the wedding I suppose. It's taking place in the meeting hall. It wouldn't have been big enough for the engagement party, there were too many guests. But the wedding itself is limited to just the people closest to Megan which pretty much means the Shifters in the compound and me. Aaron parks the car and opens my door. I take his arm and when we reach the front door I give him a quick hug.“Thank you Aaron.” I whisper. He nods. I knock on the door and am stunned when Bellamy opens it. We are both frozen. He is staring at me, I'm not sure what he's seeing but I sort of wish that I had dried my hair before leaving home, or put on a little concealer at least. I'm staring at him too. He looks different. There are dark shadows under his eyes that weren't there before. He looks so exhausted he must not be sleeping. He's lost weight, making his cheekbones seem more prominent. H
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