Leaving the lawn I ran towards my building. Reaching my apartment, I fished the keys from my clutch and entered. Moving I entered my bedroom, closed it slid down bringing my knees to my chest I hugged them and sobbed, just sobbed. I don't know for how long. I tried to compose myself but, the pain is too much to bear. My idea to stay alone was bad very bad, instead of feeling better, it turned my emotions ten times more painful. The loneliness and the nights brought beautiful memories of me and Xander and that was enough to break me. Pain. I always heard people saying with love pain comes unasked but never believed them. I always thought how can such a beautiful feeling bring pain to you but now that I am in this situation I can very well tell why people say so. Love makes you vulnerable, it do makes you strong but at the same time becomes your biggest weakness. You will trade all your happiness just to see one smile on the face of your lover and the same is with me, no matter ho
Pain is the only thing that I feel. But why?Is it because you left?Or because you didn't come back.Or is it because I spent so many nights awake waiting for your return?I don't know why this pain, especially when I am right where I wanted to be, in your arms. Why my heart instead of fluttering, is constricting?Why the face that used to take my breath away, is now making it hard for me to breathe?Why the arms that used to feel so warm, are so cold today?Why, though my heart is racing I feel like I don't have one?Why is there no way, that can lead me to where you left off?You are standing right here in front of me, then why my eyes are searching for you?You found me but then why do I feel like I lost you?We are so close, but then why do I feel the distance of miles between us?Why do the eyes staring back at me, feels so blank?I am trying to run away from you, against my heart's will. Then why fate is hell-bent on making me fall in your arms? Averting my eyes from the blan
Alexander's POV"I want all old employees' files with every single information about them. Get them on my table as soon as possible." I finished my order. Nodding furiously the manager ran, I hope to accomplish his job. My eyes moved from the man who just ran out to the man who I once trusted as the person to bark orders in this company. A company that belongs to me. I have it to him too and he destroyed its very image. My company is in debt. Fucking my company!!!! "Mr. Jordan I feel disappointed to say but I am not impressed with the way you handle this company," I said squinting my eyes. The old man and CEO gulped. Fear was evident in his eyes. And he should be. When I bought this company and partnered with him, I trusted him and so decided to keep it in his name as I didn't have the time to visit London from New York for petty issues. But seeing the falls in our profit and the debts we are immersed in, I had no option left other than taking matters into my hand.Four years. I d
"I miss you." I pouted, adjusting the laptop on my stomach, while I lay on my back. No matter how comfortable my bed is, it can never provide the comfort, I feel when I am in Xander's arms."Is that a pout I see?" He asked teasingly, amused by my childlike behavior.Today once again I argued with dad. And that's why I am feeling very emotional. And Xander is out of town just added another nail to my already sad self. I could do some comforting. Reaching my hands, I softly caressed his face on the screen.He is right now in bed, in half sitting position as his back is resting on the headboard, wearing a white t-shirt while the part down the hips is covered with a duvet. "No." Though I tried hard but couldn't keep from choking on my words. "Angel, what happened?" Xander asked immediately. His body has gone stiff with worry, forehead instantly creasing with concern.I so wanted to tell him what happened today. I wanted to tell him how dad said that, what I am studying is just a wa
Iris's POV"And here is your coffee strong, just the way you like strong but sweetened by a bit of creamer," said Xander holding a brewing hot cup of my favorite coffee. Placing the coffee in front of me on the kitchen island, he started making his own.Rubbing my sleepy eyes a bit I took the cup in my hand, following a sip, and believe me he makes it the best way. Seems like perfection runs in his Russo blood. I wonder if there is anything he does imperfectly.I mean he is an awesome cook, makes awesome drinks, I don't need to tell you about his brain, he plays superb chess and plays piano as well. One man with so much talent. No wonder he is arrogant. And I really really wonder how the hell he and I ended up together. I mean he is just perfect and me, well you can say I ace clumsiness.For instance, Xander knows almost everything about me, my likes, dislike, favorites, etc. And I, I know nothing, not even his favorite coffee.Thinking that I groaned, a bit frustrated by myself
Xander's POV Startled, Iris shuffles and stands on her feet, she is frightened and confused, and then her eyes zeros on me, her confusion, intensifies and then something snapped and she looked at me with worried eyes and concern. So many emotions in just a few seconds and I am failing to understand the reason for any one of them, except the shock she got from my stupidity. Looking at her, frightened, now I feel guilty for my irrational action. I want to apologize but a part of me is justifying my action. A part of me is proud, that he broke her dream. "Are you okay?" The question should have come out of my lips, but hearing her from me, confused. Did she hit her head? I looked at her with creases and that seems to amplify the worry lines on her face. In no time she rounds her desk and is now standing in front of me.Her eyes filled with so much concern as if she is just on the verge of crying. "Ms. Brooke. I should be the one asking this question. " I tell her. She furrows
"Ethan, Xan!!! Stop jumping on the couch." I shout, But little did they give me any ears. When I came back from work, I was not at all prepared for the sight that greeted me.I pondered for a second, thinking maybe I entered the wrong house. But then these two munchkins peeped their heads from behind the sofa and I knew, it was my home. My whole living room looked like a trash can. There is popcorn, and pizza boxes scattered all over the place not to forget the juice cans, which just minutes were about to make me fall.Only I know how I prevented myself from slipping. And if this was not enough Ethan and Xan were jumping up and down on the couch, while angel Kyle was jumping on the floor.Kyle is too innocent that my devil of a son easily convinces him to partner in all his mischief. "If you both don't stop this instance you won't like the consequences. Down. Now." I commanded them to emphasize each word. My narrowed eyes moved from Ethan to Xan. Sometimes I think, there are
Alexander's POVWhy? Why do I feel this closeness with Iris? Why do I feel as if my hands exactly know it's the way around her body?Why she has this inexpressible control over my actions, feelings everything?Why do I crave her presence?Why her smile brings this warm feeling inside my heart?Why was she engulfed in my arms, making me feel so much at serenity?Why whenever I see her, I feel like she is a faded memory, that I want to recall desperately.For fuck's sake, I don't even know this woman.Then why all these feelings?While this kiss was initiated by, desire and jealousy, it gradually is now into a need.The more my lips are moving against her, the more I feel like the abyss in my memory is being filled, making me continue kissing her more and more.In the back of my mind, I know this is wrong but I won't stop it, nor will let anyone do so.Now that I know how it feels to have her, I crave her more.I sound selfish. Fuck me if I dont know that. Last four years, I felt nothi