Sunday

Leaving the lawn I ran towards my building.

Reaching my apartment, I fished the keys from my clutch and entered. Moving I entered my bedroom, closed it slid down bringing my knees to my chest I hugged them and sobbed, just sobbed. I don't know for how long. I tried to compose myself but, the pain is too much to bear.

My idea to stay alone was bad very bad, instead of feeling better, it turned my emotions ten times more painful.

The loneliness and the nights brought beautiful memories of me and Xander and that was enough to break me.

Pain. I always heard people saying with love pain comes unasked but never believed them.

I always thought how can such a beautiful feeling bring pain to you but now that I am in this situation I can very well tell why people say so.

Love makes you vulnerable, it do makes you strong but at the same time becomes your biggest weakness. You will trade all your happiness just to see one smile on the face of your lover and the same is with me, no matter ho