Lara
It's been raining for about an hour and I'm soaked. I'm not allowed entrance to the hotel. I don't think I've ever felt this kind of humiliation before. Everyone who walks past the hotel sees me standing right outside, soaked to the bone. I wonder if they know who I am and whether they're gossiping about it. Who cares, anyway? That's not my biggest concern at the moment. I have to convince my father that last night was a mistake and anyway, things weren't as they seemed. I didn't think he'd judge me for what happened, especially after he understood that Vaughan and I could never be together. I wish I'd explained to him earlier but panic made me shut down. My face is still stinging from his slap, but I try to convince myself that he's just angry. He'll apologize once he understands. I'm putting my faith in that. So, I wait. Some of the guests have already started leaving so soon enough, they'll walk through the doors. All I need is a few minutes to explain my situation and maybe even convince my brother to tell the truth. Maybe that's happening right now. I doubt Finch would let our father do this to us. He was flustered last night but he's good. I know him. He won't let me down. It keeps on raining and I'm shivering uncontrollably. Still, I keep waiting. When my father finally strides out of the hotel, sunglasses on his face, I rush toward him. His security guards block my way, which makes me confused but I don't have time to deal with them. "Dad! Dad, please. I just need you to listen to me." His car rolls up and another security guard opens the door for him. No. Panic seizes me immediately. I can't let him leave without explaining this. What am I supposed to do? He can't exile me. "Dad!" I exclaim, rushing toward the car. "Dad, I didn't do it on purpose! I can't be with Vaughan. He and Finch...Dad? Dad!" He gets in the backseat, closes the door, and the car immediately speeds off. I stare in disbelief, my heart breaking into tiny pieces. He didn't even look at me. How am I supposed to explain? His security guards are still holding me. I know these men. I grew up with them around. I shoot them both a venomous glare and then rip my arms from their grasps. "Let go of me! What the hell is wrong with you!?" Their eyes are on me as I step back angrily. I can't believe this is happening to me. The guests leaving the hotel are all looking at me. Heavy judgement lingers in their eyes, and I suddenly realize that they know what happened. Somehow, they know. No, this is a nightmare. This can't be real. My thoughts are interrupted by Finch and Vaughan walking out, side by side. I can't read their faces. Then again, I don't care to. I approach them and this time, no security guard holds me back. I spot Vaughan's family behind them, and they're all looking at me. No, glaring so the better word. "What the hell is wrong with you two!?" I yell. "How can you let this happen to me when you know the truth!?" Finch barely looks at me. I can't process the disappointment I feel on time because Vaughan steps forward, an envelope in his hand, which he holds out. "The truth? Yes, we know the truth. You're nothing but a filthy whore and I won't have a spoiled mate!" I stagger backward. "What? What the hell are you talking about!?" He flings the envelope at me. It hits my face. Photographs fall from it, landing all around me, some of them catching rain. It takes me a moment to register what I'm looking at. They're photos of me and that man on the rooftop. It's very clear that we're having sex. The photos show my face clearly, but only the back of his body is visible, not his face. When I look up, the Dabrowskis and my brother are already reaching the car. I abandon the photos where they are and rush after them. "You know damn well that these photos don't change anything! Finch!" My brother turns to me sharply while his lover and his family get in the back of their SUVs. Neither of them look at me. It's like I don't exist. Finch practically rams into me; he's emanating an aggression that I've never seen in him. "You fucked up, Lara. That's all there is to it! I told you to fucking keep your mouth shut but you didn't want to listen! You're the one who started this fight, not me. Dad won't see you. You're out of the pack. From now on, you're nothing to us, so don't show up at the house and don't fucking open your mouth and talk about Vaughan and I because nobody will believe you! To everyone, you're nothing but a whore who slept with a man on the night of her engagement. Your sullen face at the party didn't help either. It was clear that you didn't want to be there. I won't even mention the photos." I blink back tears. "But you know the truth. How can you let this happen when you know? You're my brother! My brother!" Finch steps back and shakes his head. His baby blue gaze is stone cold. "If you try to say anything, you'll die. Vaughan isn't playing around. He'll have you killed. So, leave the city and go somewhere far away from here and forget we ever existed if you want to stay alive. I'm not your brother anymore. Like I said, you're nothing to any of us now." With that, Finch steps away from me. I'm at a loss for words. I watch him disappear like everyone else and feel so lonely. So impossibly lonely. I glance around. Where do I go? What do I do? I don't have any money. I have nothing but this wet dress, these heels, and that man's semen on my stomach. Someone approaches me. The hotel's manager. His face is tight as he says, "Madam, I'll have to ask that you leave the premises. You're giving us a bad look. If you don't remove yourself, I'll be obliged to call the authorities and have you physically removed." He then stands there and waits for me to leave. Wasn't he the one who received us when we got here? Yes, I remember it clearly. He shook my hand and congratulated me on my engagement. Now, he's kicking me out. I turn away from him and cross the street. The wet dress clings to my legs as I move. The sky is gray and thunder rumbles in the distance. It won't stop raining anytime soon, and I have nowhere to take shelter. This city isn't even familiar to me. I'm so far away from home. Tears well in my eyes as I walk down the sidewalk. Some people walk past me under their umbrellas. They're ordinary people who know nothing about my ruination and scandal. I wish I was like them. Ordinary. Oblivious. Wearing warm, dry clothes and under an umbrella. I've never wanted to be ordinary more than I did now. Look at where my luxurious life and important acquaintances led me. I reach an alleyway and spot a blue tent. Its flap is blowing in the wind but it seems to be solidly on the ground. It's not going to blow away. Plus, the rain wouldn't reach me under there. I hesitate for a moment before crawling into since it's vacant. The smell is horrible, so much that it makes me gag. What is this smell? I can't even identify it. Nevertheless, it's shelter, and I don't have to be in the rain. The blankets under my body are torn and I'm getting them all wet, which makes them stink even more, but this is better than nothing. I shiver and cry for the longest time as the rain beats down on the tent. It's so cold, so bitterly cold. I tuck my hands between my thighs and cry for the disaster that is my life. I'm not sure how much time passes. Maybe it's an hour. Maybe longer. I hear a gasp that makes me open my eyes and look up. A woman in her fifties is staring at me through the gap of the tent. She's wearing a bright yellow raincoat. "Sweetheart, are you alright?" Her amber eyes are wide and warm. I feel no fear when I look at her. She continues by saying, "If you're cold, I have a place for you to stay. The shelter is much warmer than this tent, and you can have a cup of soup to warm you up. Won't you consider it?" So, I leave the tent and go with her to the shelter. It's just around the corner. She's right; it's much warmer than the streets. I'm given a new change of clothes, clothes given to the shelter as donations, and a warm bed to sleep in. I don't know how long I sleep for. I lose track of time in this place. When I wake up, the kind woman who helped me, Melissa, asks me basic questions. She asks me who I am and whether I’m lost. Before answering her, I think very clearly of my answers. I’m a Lycan but can’t tell anyone that. As long as I keep that to myself, nobody will know. I’ll be safer that way. So, I give her a fake name, one of the many I’ll use throughout my life, and ask her how I can get to Elwood. It’s the only place I can think to go. “It’s quite far from here,” she tells me, her hands clasped under her chin. She’s looking at me with so much pity in her eyes. “It’s deep in the woods, and you’d need a lot of help to find it.” Elwood is a small town where mostly rogues live. The reason why I’m interested to go there is because there’s someone there I can trust; the only person I can think of during my time of need. My father rarely talked about her but I know enough to try to find her. My grandmother. “It’s the only place I can think to go,” I tell Melissa. “I have a relative there. Do you know how I can maybe try to get there?” And so, Melissa arranges for me to be taken to Elwood, where, for the first time in ten years, I’ll see my grandmother. It’ll be good to leave this place and all these memories behind. The load will be too heavy to carry all the way there anyway.LaraAnd so, my journey to Elwood begins. On the way, I sell my dress. It's designer and worth a good penny. I sell my shoes, too. They won’t help me where I’m going. I buy second-hand clothes and keep the rest of the money for food. Before, I used to have all the food I wanted, and now, I'm struggling to even have a meal a day. I’m still a long way from Elwood and basically hitchhiking until I get there. I have to do a ton of walking every day and wait for a car to stop by. Nobody drives to that area—Elwood is specifically for rogues. The only reason why I know my grandmother is there is because I heard my father mention it once over the phone. ‘Not sure how I can be her son when she chooses to live like a rogue in Elwood and I wouldn’t touch a rogue with a ten-foot pole.’I don’t know what awaits me at the end of my journey. Will I even find her there? Is she still alive? I’ll only find out when I get there. It never crosses my mind to turn back and go home. For some reason, I’
LaraMy grandmother stirs sugar into her wild herb tea as I conclude my story. I can't tell much from the look on her face. She has the kind of face that is impossible to read. Maybe if I knew her better, it would've been easier for me to differentiate between her emotions, but I've not seen her often throughout the course of my life and when I became a teenager, I didn't see her at all."I'm not sure what your father has said about me," she begins, putting the teaspoon down on the saucer. "I'm not sure if he ever talked about me to you."I shake my head. "He never said a thing.""I want you to know the reason why I left," she states. "It wasn't for no reason at all. My mate—your grandfather, whom you never met—was what they called back then a 'typical' Lycan. He was proud, selfish, and arrogant, and although my father was also the same and I grew up surrounded by such men, I never agreed with it. "When I was a little girl, I had a common werewolf friend named Anne. She was the best
LaraI glance over my shoulder and see Ander sitting on the bench outside of the shop, just like I told him to. He appears to be distracted and that's exactly what I want; I don't want him to see what I'm doing here. I'd never recover if he did. I turn back to the shelf in front of me, my grip on the hand basket I'm holding slipping because of how much I'm sweating. Although I've gotten fairly good at this, it never fails to terrify me. Besides, the shop-owner is eyeing me suspiciously and that makes me even more nervous. To make matters worse, the store is practically empty. I'm the only one here. I put a bag of rice in the basket but slip another one in the pocket of my coat. The money I have is limited and won't be enough to buy everything I need. Selling fruits and vegetables isn't that profitable, and there's a lot that we need, like toothpaste, rice, and lately, protein. Finding animals is getting harder and harder, even when I shift and prowl around the forest for hours on
LaraI keep staring at this man who claims to have a proposition for me. He removes his beanie, revealing platinum blonde hair that is neatly brushed. He extends a hand, which I hesitantly grasp. "First, I believe I have to introduce myself. My name is Ambrose. Ambrose Logan. For the record, I would like to add that I am a Lycan. I feel the need to say this because many people don't trust Lycans."My hand stiffens in his and I pull it away. He raises his hands as if in surrender. "I want you to know that I'm not like them, which is why I have revealed the truth to you. I don't work with or for other Lycans. I am self-employed, but I have been approached with an offer that could change things. Do something good for the world.""I'm not interested, thank you," I tell him. "If there's any other way I can pay you back, I'd be much obliged. You can even take the groceries, if you'd like.""That went be necessary," he replies calmly. "I would just like for you to listen to what I have to
LaraKearwood is just as I remembered it.It's what people like to call a cosmopolitan city. A lot of different types of people can be found around here, and Lycans love this place. I vividly recall my father coming here for business trips when I was younger. I never knew what he was coming to do, but it's a name I've not forgotten. It makes sense that Ambrose has a strip club here. It is said that people are more open-minded here.I've been raised to look down upon such things. Prostitution. Stripping. Dealing drugs. But the man who taught me to never indulge in such things abandoned me and didn't care if I lived or died. He's a man with no moral compass, like all Lycans. I'm not against to the ways of the world. When I was living in the streets, before finding Elwood, a lot of women I encountered had to use sex as a means to an end. I never considered it because I was pregnant and wouldn't want to harm my baby in any way, but I saw it happen. Saw women climb inside cars of men who
"So," Ambrose says while putting his hands together. "Do you have any question for me? Anything at all? Apart from what we've discussed, that is." I shake my head. "I can't think of anything right now. I'm too excited and overwhelmed by everything that's happening. I guess I just need some time to sit down and figure everything out on my own." "Perfect," he says with a smile. "Now, I have to say that tomorrow morning is when your training will start. I'll talk to one of the girls and with Medwin as well. He's going to guide you through everything. Tomorrow at seven AM sharp, okay?" I nod, feeling butterflies in my stomach. "I'll be down here." "Anything else, please let me know. Oh, take this." Ambrose hands me the keys to the apartment. I can hardly believe that this is happening. I say, "Thank you for the opportunity. Really." He inclines his head. "Let's see how far we can go." I make it all the way upstairs. When I open the door, it hits Ander's forehead and he staggers back
Lara Toward the end of the day, I'm actually getting the hang of it, which impresses everyone, including myself. I knew before I stepped foot in the club that I wanted this badly and now, I'm actually proving that I do. By no means am I perfect, but it's the start of something, especially considering that it's my first time ever doing something like this. "Bravo!" Medwin says while clapping his hands. I bow dramatically, unsure of what else to do apart from staring at him and thanking him for the hundredth time. All the girls in the club cheer me on and honestly, I feel comfortable here. I have support, at least, and have no complaints about the girls. It seems everyone is here for work and they have their own clients, so there’s no need for competition. Everyone’s successful in their own way. Otherwise, Ambrose would never keep them here. When we climb off the stage, Ambrose is there. He hands me a paper cup filled with ice-cold water and I down it gratefully. He tells me, “You
DexterI take a sip of my drink while staring out of the window of my office. There’s a soft knock on the door behind me, and then I hear it open. I drink again, pretty sure that it’s my mate, Ellen, calling me down for the third time tonight. A dinner is being held downstairs, mostly with friends and her family since I have none. I can’t seem to find the energy nor the will to join them. “My love,” she says in a tight voice. “What’s wrong? Everyone’s waiting for you. We’re all expecting you downstairs.”I glance at her over my shoulder. Her blonde hair is in an updo and tendrils of hair are framing her delicate face. She’s dressed in a baby blue gown that really brings out the color in her eyes. She looks like a dream. But I can’t seem to love her more than I would love a friend. “I’ll be right there, Ellen,” I tell her kindly. “I just need some time to figure some things out.”“You told me that ten minutes ago,” she claims, a hint of concern in her voice. She then closes the do