Lara
And so, my journey to Elwood begins. On the way, I sell my dress. It's designer and worth a good penny. I sell my shoes, too. They won’t help me where I’m going. I buy second-hand clothes and keep the rest of the money for food. Before, I used to have all the food I wanted, and now, I'm struggling to even have a meal a day. I’m still a long way from Elwood and basically hitchhiking until I get there. I have to do a ton of walking every day and wait for a car to stop by. Nobody drives to that area—Elwood is specifically for rogues. The only reason why I know my grandmother is there is because I heard my father mention it once over the phone. ‘Not sure how I can be her son when she chooses to live like a rogue in Elwood and I wouldn’t touch a rogue with a ten-foot pole.’ I don’t know what awaits me at the end of my journey. Will I even find her there? Is she still alive? I’ll only find out when I get there. It never crosses my mind to turn back and go home. For some reason, I’ve stopped trying to want to explain things and make amends. They’ve abandoned me. What else is there to explain or even talk about? Finch betrayed me in the worst way possible. My father treated me like garbage and refused to hear my side. I try to leave all of this behind me. I also try not to think about the man from the rooftop, my fated mate who ended up being the worst thing that ever happened to me. I only do once I get very sick over the course of a few weeks, throwing up every chance I get. “You’re sure you’re not pregnant?” the woman sitting next to me in the back of the truck asks me. She’s pregnant herself. “I was like that in the beginning.” I give her a confused look. I thought that maybe what I have is a stomach flu or something. Maybe I ate something bad. She then sees my confusion and adds, “If you are, you don’t want your baby around strangers. These guys will do anything for money. If you don’t have someplace safe to give birth, try to find one quickly. I’m going to my mate’s mother’s place. They’ll take care of me there.” Pregnant. I don't like how heavy the word is in my mind. Pregnant. I try to think back to that night but it's vague now. He pulled out, though. I'm pretty sure of that. Shame colors my cheeks red but there's nothing I can do about that. What's done is done. All I can do is face what's yet to come, and it seems to me like I'll have my hands full. Lycan pregnancies last only six months, which is less time than other shifters need. So, in three months, I'm halfway there, and strangely enough, I still haven’t found Elwood. So, I stop at other towns like Dagwood and Oliwood, and stay at shelters with other rogues until I can find someone who knows the exact directions to the place that’s starting to seem like a fantasy to me. Maybe just misheard my father. Maybe she isn’t there. I don’t lose hope, though. I can’t. My belly isn't as big as I thought it would be, so it's fairly easy for me to hide it under a big sweater. Finding food is difficult, and most times, I have to resort to stealing. All the while, I never confront the idea of what I've now become. I take each day as it comes, never dwelling much on the 'what ifs' or the 'what was'. Sitting down and thinking about what has become of my life is too painful. Whenever I think about it too much, I feel like I can't move forward. Nobody at the shelter in Oliwood—the new town I’m in—knows I'm a Lycan. They’re all common werewolves and there’s not a Lycan to be seen for miles. My fear is that if someone who knows a Lycan find out about me, they might immediately associate me with my father or someone in his circle and he might discover where I am, which isn't what I want. I don’t want to be found by him or anyone. My past is dead and buried along with everyone in it. I feel desperate, though. I have to reach Elwood before the other three months are up, and I’m afraid that I’m running out of time. I keep remembering the woman’s words. I feel it too, even though I can’t explain why. The need to find someplace safe to give birth. I never stop trying to find someone to take me there. On my fifth month, I come across a hippie rogue couple fetching supplies to take to Elwood. It happens by chance and I feel so lucky that I can only consider this to be a miracle. “You’re taking supplies to Elwood?” The woman—a gorgeous red-hair like me—turns around with a wide smile on her face. Large hoop earrings dangle from her ears. She nods. “Yes. We live there.” “I haven’t come across many people from there,” I confess. I try to keep the conversation light and hide the despair from my voice. “I know someone who lives there.” “Really?” she asks, surprised. “Who?” “Her name’s Rose. Rather, that’s how I know her by.” I’ve come to find out that many people change their names when they become rogues. It’s easier to avoid complications. “Rose?” she asks. I can’t tell from her tone whether she knows her or not. My heart’s slamming against my chest as I watch her. She turns to her mate and tugs at his shirt. He looks away from the trunk of his car and fixes her a look. She tells him, “She’s looking for Rose.” It’s the man’s turn to give me a funny look. “Why? How do you know her?” “She’s my grandmother.” This time, their eyes widen. “You’re her granddaughter?” I nod. “I’ll be damned,” the man says. “I’ve been trying to find her for months,” I tell them both. I don’t know why, but my hand instinctively goes to my belly, and the woman’s eyes follow it. She then nods as if in understanding. “We have to get going, then.” I discover that their names are Annette and Paul. They’ve been rogues forever, and have lived in Elwood for years. “It’s not the place you might think it is,” he tells me with one hand on the steering wheel. “It’s pretty nice compared to these other shitholes. Your grandmother Rose is respected there. She’s something of an Alpha to us.” “Really?” “Yeah,” he answers. “Even though there’s no leadership among us, we look up to her.” His mate is sitting next to me with a comforting arm around me. I feel safe. This thought brings tears to my eyes but I keep them at bay. She says, “You’ll be fine. Rose will help you. She’ll be very happy to see you. She’s been alone for so long.” “How long until we get there?” “It’s a week on the road,” he says. I’m counting the weeks in my head. It’ll only leave me around two weeks to give birth. We stop by places to sleep. They only have one sleeping tent and Paul lets me share it with Annette while he sleeps in the car. I offer them money but they don’t accept it, claiming that my grandmother has been good to them too many times for them to ever charge me a cent. As a child, I never asked my father why she’d left. One day, she was there, and the next, she was gone. I heard my father say the word Elwood and her name on the phone and that was it for years. I think I asked him once and his reaction made me decide to never ask again. We didn’t see her all the time; only occasionally. She always lived far. I realize now that maybe she’s always lived in Elwood, which brings about, again, so many questions that I can hardly contain my curiosity and excitement to see her. When we get there, Paul drives up to a small house that’s been painted white. Right up front, there’s an older woman hanging clothes on a line. Her back is to me but it’s my grandmother. A decade older, but it’s her. Paul and Annette get out of the car. I follow cue. She greets them with a warm smile on her face which reminds me of the last time I saw her. She smiled at me just like this. “Look who’s come to visit,” she says. “Rose, we have someone here for you,” Paul says before turning to me and waving at me to join them. “Who?” she asks curiously before turning her head and looking my way. My step falters and an introduction hangs from the tip of my tongue. Maybe she doesn’t recognize me. It’s been years, after all. However, she surprises me by saying, “Lara? Lara, is that you?” I pause, a knot forming in my throat that stops me from speaking. Tears fill my eyes and sting my nose. She comes up to me, her arms wide and welcoming, and holds me for so long that I can’t help but sob. “It’s okay, my darling,” she says soothingly in my ear as she pats my head comfortingly. “You’re home now. You’re home.”LaraMy grandmother stirs sugar into her wild herb tea as I conclude my story. I can't tell much from the look on her face. She has the kind of face that is impossible to read. Maybe if I knew her better, it would've been easier for me to differentiate between her emotions, but I've not seen her often throughout the course of my life and when I became a teenager, I didn't see her at all."I'm not sure what your father has said about me," she begins, putting the teaspoon down on the saucer. "I'm not sure if he ever talked about me to you."I shake my head. "He never said a thing.""I want you to know the reason why I left," she states. "It wasn't for no reason at all. My mate—your grandfather, whom you never met—was what they called back then a 'typical' Lycan. He was proud, selfish, and arrogant, and although my father was also the same and I grew up surrounded by such men, I never agreed with it. "When I was a little girl, I had a common werewolf friend named Anne. She was the best
LaraI glance over my shoulder and see Ander sitting on the bench outside of the shop, just like I told him to. He appears to be distracted and that's exactly what I want; I don't want him to see what I'm doing here. I'd never recover if he did. I turn back to the shelf in front of me, my grip on the hand basket I'm holding slipping because of how much I'm sweating. Although I've gotten fairly good at this, it never fails to terrify me. Besides, the shop-owner is eyeing me suspiciously and that makes me even more nervous. To make matters worse, the store is practically empty. I'm the only one here. I put a bag of rice in the basket but slip another one in the pocket of my coat. The money I have is limited and won't be enough to buy everything I need. Selling fruits and vegetables isn't that profitable, and there's a lot that we need, like toothpaste, rice, and lately, protein. Finding animals is getting harder and harder, even when I shift and prowl around the forest for hours on
LaraI keep staring at this man who claims to have a proposition for me. He removes his beanie, revealing platinum blonde hair that is neatly brushed. He extends a hand, which I hesitantly grasp. "First, I believe I have to introduce myself. My name is Ambrose. Ambrose Logan. For the record, I would like to add that I am a Lycan. I feel the need to say this because many people don't trust Lycans."My hand stiffens in his and I pull it away. He raises his hands as if in surrender. "I want you to know that I'm not like them, which is why I have revealed the truth to you. I don't work with or for other Lycans. I am self-employed, but I have been approached with an offer that could change things. Do something good for the world.""I'm not interested, thank you," I tell him. "If there's any other way I can pay you back, I'd be much obliged. You can even take the groceries, if you'd like.""That went be necessary," he replies calmly. "I would just like for you to listen to what I have to
LaraKearwood is just as I remembered it.It's what people like to call a cosmopolitan city. A lot of different types of people can be found around here, and Lycans love this place. I vividly recall my father coming here for business trips when I was younger. I never knew what he was coming to do, but it's a name I've not forgotten. It makes sense that Ambrose has a strip club here. It is said that people are more open-minded here.I've been raised to look down upon such things. Prostitution. Stripping. Dealing drugs. But the man who taught me to never indulge in such things abandoned me and didn't care if I lived or died. He's a man with no moral compass, like all Lycans. I'm not against to the ways of the world. When I was living in the streets, before finding Elwood, a lot of women I encountered had to use sex as a means to an end. I never considered it because I was pregnant and wouldn't want to harm my baby in any way, but I saw it happen. Saw women climb inside cars of men who
"So," Ambrose says while putting his hands together. "Do you have any question for me? Anything at all? Apart from what we've discussed, that is." I shake my head. "I can't think of anything right now. I'm too excited and overwhelmed by everything that's happening. I guess I just need some time to sit down and figure everything out on my own." "Perfect," he says with a smile. "Now, I have to say that tomorrow morning is when your training will start. I'll talk to one of the girls and with Medwin as well. He's going to guide you through everything. Tomorrow at seven AM sharp, okay?" I nod, feeling butterflies in my stomach. "I'll be down here." "Anything else, please let me know. Oh, take this." Ambrose hands me the keys to the apartment. I can hardly believe that this is happening. I say, "Thank you for the opportunity. Really." He inclines his head. "Let's see how far we can go." I make it all the way upstairs. When I open the door, it hits Ander's forehead and he staggers back
Lara Toward the end of the day, I'm actually getting the hang of it, which impresses everyone, including myself. I knew before I stepped foot in the club that I wanted this badly and now, I'm actually proving that I do. By no means am I perfect, but it's the start of something, especially considering that it's my first time ever doing something like this. "Bravo!" Medwin says while clapping his hands. I bow dramatically, unsure of what else to do apart from staring at him and thanking him for the hundredth time. All the girls in the club cheer me on and honestly, I feel comfortable here. I have support, at least, and have no complaints about the girls. It seems everyone is here for work and they have their own clients, so there’s no need for competition. Everyone’s successful in their own way. Otherwise, Ambrose would never keep them here. When we climb off the stage, Ambrose is there. He hands me a paper cup filled with ice-cold water and I down it gratefully. He tells me, “You
DexterI take a sip of my drink while staring out of the window of my office. There’s a soft knock on the door behind me, and then I hear it open. I drink again, pretty sure that it’s my mate, Ellen, calling me down for the third time tonight. A dinner is being held downstairs, mostly with friends and her family since I have none. I can’t seem to find the energy nor the will to join them. “My love,” she says in a tight voice. “What’s wrong? Everyone’s waiting for you. We’re all expecting you downstairs.”I glance at her over my shoulder. Her blonde hair is in an updo and tendrils of hair are framing her delicate face. She’s dressed in a baby blue gown that really brings out the color in her eyes. She looks like a dream. But I can’t seem to love her more than I would love a friend. “I’ll be right there, Ellen,” I tell her kindly. “I just need some time to figure some things out.”“You told me that ten minutes ago,” she claims, a hint of concern in her voice. She then closes the do
The next few days go by in a jiffy.I can hardly believe that I’ve been here for five days already. It’s insane. It feels like only yesterday I stepped through that heavy door and found myself in completely unfamiliar territory. Now, I know the names of almost everyone here, and I’m getting way better at the dancing part. I took ballet classes when I was younger. Could that be why?After our third dance, Ambrose calls me down from the stage. He’s dressed in a red silk shirt which makes his skin even paler than it already is. I get closer to him while rubbing my sweat off my skin with a hand towel. All of us carry one around. “You’ve been doing great,” he informs me. “I’m very impressed by your progress, Lara. I think you’re going to do great during your opening.”“Thanks,” I say genuinely. “I hope I do a good job and don’t disappoint you.”“You’ll have your chance sooner than you think,” he states. “I thought that maybe you’d need a few more days but I think you’re ready, and guess