EUDORAThe neon light sign of the club was the object of nightmares and you’d think staring at it long and hard will make it go dim or make me forget my experience there. “I am not going in there.” I lost count of how many times I said that to Zena as we stood at a distance close to the long line of people that were filing into the club. At the entrance, the two huge men I recognized from the last time I came here, were checking for passes that I didn’t even know we had until Zena handed one out to each of us. The long queue was thinning and soon, it would be our turn to go in there. “I told you it’s not going to be like last time.” I have also lost count of the number of times she has said that. “You could have told me!” I hissed, trying so hard to not let all the conflicting emotions get the better of me. I just wanted to get out of here, go back home and into the safety of my room where there were no rogues. Maybe rebelling wasn’t really a good idea and Alpha Rex was right to m
EUDORA.There was something about the way he was crouched down in front of me and holding out his hand. Something about the way his lips stretched into the most genuine smile as he waited for me to take his hand and something about his voice and the way it instantly soothed me and clamped down on my anxiety of being around so many people.Maybe it was the way he showed up out of nowhere when I was in distress after suddenly disappearing on us. It made me torn between slapping some sense into him or taking his hand and getting off the floor. I couldn’t do either. Everything faded into the background—the people and the ear-splitting music—and it was just us and the twirling lights above us as our eyes remained locked in an emotion filled gaze. By emotions, I meant mine. They suddenly went from ‘I want the ground to open up and swallow me whole’ to ‘I’m confused, why do I want to remain like this for eternity?’ His smile made it all fade away and he made me feel like I was a main char
EUDORA. Her harsh tone lashed at me like a whip laced with venom. I didn’t care for her words as vulgar as they were but instead the way her face hardened like I had done something abominable. Maybe I had really done thatI had almost kissed her brother in the heat of the moment knowing how every relationship surrounding him was complicated. “No, why would you even say that?” I finally found my voice. “I dunno! Maybe because you were all over him.” She retorted. “You don’t even know that!” I wanted to know how she knew what had almost happened between us. Not that I was counting on this being some sort of prank just because I didn’t want her to feel betrayed and ruin what we have as friends. Whatever reason it was I asked, it didn’t go the way I planned because she scoffed and snickered like she couldn’t believe what was happening. “Because I’m blind?” If she was angry before, she is enraged now.I moved closer, “You know I didn’t mean it that way.”“It damn well sounded like you
ZENA Rage. Despair. Pain. Those were the feelings that sum up the entire twenty years of my life. I have never gone a full day without feeling either one of them. It was like a stage, one I ascended to or descended down from. I was more familiar with rage because it was the only way I could express how I felt without feeling weak. Without being looked down on like a mere child with confused hormones, throwing tantrums. I would rather rave and tear the whole world down than let them see through me. And then when I am alone, I descend into despair. My loss becomes more apparent and the feeling of hopelessness creeps in. The feeling that nothing would change no matter what I do. That my life would forever remain the same. That I would never really know what happened to my parents and why they had to die like that. The pain brings tears. It makes me curl into myself at night. It wakes me up in the middle of the night and it hits me like the waves of a stormy ocean. And then I wake
ZENA•••Max—or whatever it is Eudora named him—lost me at the word, ‘pain’. Not like I was willing to listen to whatever he had to say anyway but just like he has always done since I met him, he succeeded in fanning the flames of my rage by mentioning something that I could swear was foreign to my asshole brother. Pain? What does Rex know about pain? What does he know about living in the same hell everyday and not being able to get out of it no matter what you do? What does he even know about me? He was totally clueless about me and cared more about exerting his revenge on our parents and everything they have built, than he did about the little girl who witnessed the death of the so-called parents. A girl who learnt to grow up on her own in total darkness and became an adult long before the significant age and before her body started changing. A girl who grew up without answers and had to fight for them till this day. So no, I didn’t care about Rex’s pain. I didn’t want to kn
ZENA•••Really?” He asked and I rolled my eyes. “I might change my mind if you don’t stop hiding and watching me like a creep.” I threatened and his hurried footsteps carried him to where I was seated. He hesitated for a few seconds but I knew the moment he lowered himself to the ground and sat beside me.“Too close.” I snapped. “Got it!” He answered quickly and moved farther away. “I told you not to follow me.” “I know.” He responded weakly. “Are you usually this relentless or is it just you being stupid as usual? Because I literally threatened to kill you yet here you are.” “I just wanted to talk to you.” He said again.I snorted, “If this is about that shit you said to me before, then the threat to kill you still stands.” “Well, I’m not afraid of you. Okay, I was earlier but then I remembered you threaten to kill me at least twice a day but l somehow I wake up the next day unharmed so I’mcounting on today being one of those days too.” I shook my head. His stupidity st
EUDORA. I walked—more like stormed—through a clear but unfamiliar path near the club,opposite of where Zena went and also ahead of whoever was following me. I called my situation a trap because I didn’t know where I was and whoever it was following me had a clear advantage. They were stealthy, barely making any sound with their feet but I was very much aware of their presence as not much was done to cover the strong roguish scent that the night air carried, accompanied with the unmistakable smell of alcohol. Whatever rogue followed me had a lot to drink and that didn’t make me feel any better about my situation or the fact that I was always in one danger or another. But Heaven knew I really didn’t want to do this today. Rather than fear, a wave of despair and sadness was all I felt. I looked slowly over my shoulder a few times, careful and pretending I had no idea I was being followed and each time I did that, a dark figure caught my eyes just as it tried to hide behind somethings
EUDORA.Since it was hard for my brain to keep up, my lips did what my heart told them to do as my heart seemed to be the only organ capable of processing what was going on at that moment. It was hammering against my ribcage at first, threatening to burst out of his confinements until it slowed down and made my entire body relax in his hold. And then my brain finally caught up. He was awake. And he was kissing me. I lost track of time and where I was as well as how bad this would look if anyone walked through that door and saw us this way. My brain however wasn’t doing much thinking because all it could process was how unbelievably soft his lips were as they moulded into mine like they would become one. The feel of his lips sent something like electricity crackling through me, starting from my brain and sending the tingly signals down to even the tip of my toes. Goosebumps spread through my body, causing every single hair on my skin to rise like it would if I was in danger. This