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Forty-two: Xander
I fucked up. I made a huge mistake and there was no going back. I thought that after sending her away, my pain would lessen, but no. The pain became stronger. It was lethal. Mirk had been angrier than ever, not bearing to be around anyone. After I forced her out of my pack, Rowena told me I was going to regret my decision and she was right. Each day, I paid the price I couldn't afford.
When I talked to Jorah, Keith, and Declan about her being my mate they were shocked. I was shocked too, but a part of me didn't mind her being my mate. In fact, I was glad, but I couldn't admit that to anyone. She caught my eyes from the first time we were in the forest and I couldn't just look past her beauty.
My friends thought having her as my mate would make the pack riot. Yes, they wanted me to find my mate, but they wouldn't want their Luna to be from the rival pack. I foolishly rejected her. I pushed her away forever and I regretted my action.
I wasn't okay. I needed her
Sara IslamDo you think Xander deserves this kind of pain? I wanna know what you think! Don't forget to leave a review! Published on June 16th, 2021
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