Thirty-two

Rowena and I decided not to tell anybody anything until after Dinah’s birthday party. She told me that my being a member of Crimson would not change a thing in our friendship, but I knew that it would change everything in my relationship with Xander. The relationship that was deemed to end soon. Too soon for my liking. Loana promised not to tell my pack that she ran into me until I decided what I wanted, but truth was, I didn’t know what I wanted.

Dinah’s party came to an end sooner than I expected. Or maybe that was what I thought because I didn’t want it to end. I did my best to be happy, even if my soul was aching. I was going to tell Xander about my identity after the party, which meant that I was supposed to do that now.

Rowena offered to stay with me while I told Xander the truth, but I refused. I had to do that alone. I had to listen to what he had to say alone. There were so many things in my life I was destined to endure alone and this was one of them. Endin